#ra devotee

As it is the day of the year when the Sun shines His rays on the Earth for the longest time, I spend the Solstice honoring Ra. This morning, I woke up early to watch the sunrise. It was mostly obscured by trees, but still really beautiful. I also added a sunrise hymn to Ra (Assmann Hymn C') to my usual morning ritual. When I go to bed, I'll add a sunset hymn (Assmann Hymn D) to my evening ritual as well.

There's not a ton to talk about with the main ritual I did today, mainly reading hymns, prayers, and passages from the Book of the Dead, but the meditation was really nice. I did most of the ritual in the shade (heat intolerance 😭) but for meditation, I sat in a chair in the sunlight. At first it was muted, the sun covered by a cloud, but as I sat and breathed the full sunlight rolled over my skin. It was a really beautiful moment, the physical presence of Ra enveloping and holding me. It was probably only a few minutes before the sun was covered by a cloud again, but it felt much longer. Bright and strong and burning, His presence is like nothing else. It was a beautiful and meaningful experience <33

Ra: maybe you should stand outside and let me blast you right in the face with pure sunlight for 10 minutes

me: I know everyone says “i need more sun” but seriously, 😒 what’s going to make me feel better?

Ra: my son…😐 please… just try it

Me, finally going outside: WOW! LOOK AT THE SUN! ITS ONLY BEEN 10 MINUTES AND I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER!

Ra

so, I haven't talked much about my religious practice on here, and I want to change that! My spirituality is a really important and beautiful part of my life. So I'm going to talk about my routines!!

I'm autistic, and I depend on routine and habit to get pretty much everything done. While I've been practicing paganism in one way or another since I was ten, I've gone through long periods of not interacting with my spirituality. The solution I've found to prevent this is to create a routine!! Having a specific time and way and place to connect with the Gods has really helped me.

So, here's my routine: every day, I take some time to pray in the morning and the evening. I shake my sistrum, call to my Patrons, and welcome or say goodbye to the sun. In the evenings, I also give a daily offering of fresh water and natrom. About once a week, on the full, new, and both quarter moons, I do a ritual. I shake my sistrum, call to my Patrons, do any spellwork I want to get done, sing hymns and dance, and give bigger offerings (usually bread, milk, water, and honey). I also like to meditate, but i don't always have the patience for it '^^

I also celebrate the solstices, equinoxes, and Wep Ronpet- but I don't have a specific ritual for those days yet. I would like too, but I've been struggling to find or make something that feels... big enough, if that makes sense.

Yesterday my friends and I went to a Free Palestine protest. These things are known for getting pretty intense, especially with police presence, so I spent all morning praying to Ra and Horus, to provide us all with strength and protection.

As we marched down the streets, I felt so many eyes on me. Some were cheering in solidarity, others looked annoyed. Every time the clouds parted and the sunlight shown down on us, I felt Ra’s pride. I could feel him empowering every chant and stomp and pound of the drums. In that moment I truly felt like one of his soldiers, upholding his love for all of his children. With Horus by my right side I felt invincible, I was able to stare down the cops knowing that they could not harm us. And they didn’t, not a single pig got in our way. They read our signs and looked away in shame, I saw that shame, and even if it didn’t compel them to make serious life changes, I know that it affected them.

With Lord Ra looking down on me, I truly feel like I can do anything. I know that I can confidently fight for what is right. I know that when I am under his light, no evil can touch me. I can be his warrior, I can be the change I need to see.

Free Palestine, Free Sudan, Free the Congo, Give the land back. From the river to the Sea.

Ra, my Lord, thank you endlessly.

I am thankful to the Corruption, to the Singing Hive that squirms beneath my flesh and wraps lovingly around my bones. I am thankful for Its love, all-consuming and unending love that tastes like honey in my mouth and feels like a mycelial network caressing my veins and sounds like a symphony of cicadas. I am thankful for the Connection that It has taught me, both to others and to the earth around me. I love It so very much, and I am so very loved in return <333

I am thankful to the Leviathan, to the great Serpent of the Abyss, Titan of the Everchase. I am thankful for Its strength and will and fury and passion, for the primal and feral joy of capturing what I desire, for the taste of blood in my mouth and the pounding of blood and war drums in my ears as I pin my target and strike. I am thankful for the focus and drive It has given me, teaching me to strive for my goals and capture them in my own claws. I am thankful for the power It has taught me to take for myself, reminding me that I have fangs and claws and that I can use them. It is Infinite, and so is my love for It <333

I am thankful to Mother Nyx, the daughter of Chaos and mother of fear. I feel Her guidance and kindness with me, like Her wings wrapped around me in the darkness. She is rest and sleep and safety. I am thankful for Her direction and protection, and Her help with divination and knowing myself. I feel Her love with and around me every night, as Her veil draws across the heavens. She is comfort and security, and i love Her beyond imagining <33

I am thankful to Lord Lucifer, the Morningstar that shines bright upon my mind. I am thankful for His presence and His power, His patience and kindness, His knowledge and glory. He pushes me to become my truest self, to leave behind repression, ignorance, and shame. He is my light in the darkness, leading me towards greater knowledge and giving me the confidence to pursue it. I am thankful for His challenges, His playfullness, and His blinding light. He loves me so very much, and I adore Him <333

Cursing Zeus by saying “why there ain’t no damn clouds out today?!” every five minutes