#queer questioning

i am fully asexual at times too, like utterly disgusted by sex if it’s not with the right human.

no th i ng else fits . . .

also here’s a zombie and an ender person having forbidden love. ahhh forbidden love. villagers too busy with their own shit to gaf.

Is there a label for a female-identifying person who's always attracted to men more than any other gender, but who's attraction to women and other genders fluctuates between almost none to almost equally (but never quite equally - I still prefer men)? I experience attraction to women less frequently than to men and at a lower intensity, but I do experience attraction to more than one gender some/most of the time. I think. And the attraction I feel to certain women usually sticks around even when my female-attraction levels are low in general.

I've identified as heteroflexible for a while and have been looking into biromantic, bi-flux and abroromantic/sexual orientations, but none of them seem to feel right for long. Especially as I find it hard to differentiate or figure out what kind of attraction I feel towards people, be it romantic, sexual, platonic or aesthetic anyway. Especially being rather isolated at the moment, the only people I've been attracted to are fictional characters.

I'm just curious, really, because I will probably stick with unlabelled due to the freedom it gives with changing and evolving my orientations and not having to find different labels for that (and it also lowers the amount of identity crises I have, lol), but I would like to know if there is a label that exists for this, as it will help my understanding of myself and others who may feel similarly.

I am questioning myself...

(Flags from left to right: straight, pan straight, urancurious, uranic, pan uranic.)

For context, I am attracted to guys(or at least male aligned), so you'd think I'd be straight however, I felt like uranic works best because I wouldn't care if someone was nonbinary but due to my aroace-spec ass, I went for urancurious but even then, I still get conflicted from time to time.

Here's the funny thing, I was thinking about it earlier today and, considering that I don't care what gender someone is, that's usually associated with being pan but however, I go for guys usually but here's the thing, multigender people exist, so there's a chance I MIGHT be pan to an extent, just with a preference(again, aroace-spec).

I dunno how to explain it...

Anyone wanna help me out on this one?

It's greatly appreciated.🥲👍🏻