#ptsdsupport

Whether you

have a disability

have a disorder

need accommodations

need medication

need therapy

have trauma

have scars

do not conform to society

or make mistakes

Hey tumblr, Alexx Genderhawk back at it again begging for funds to live... Or, in this case, move out before I crack!

You may remember me from such hits as Black, Sick, And Stranded or How To Survive Capitalism (Without Even Trying) so yeah this year, and my life, have been a circus of shit and to paraphrase my mother: Every Shitshow has Three Sides!

Help us move! My friend Eli and I are trying to move out of what has become a toxic home. Toxic due to mold and interpersonal dynamics that can, hopefully, be fixed by no longer living in a tiny shoe box with the other roomies. ~ paypal.me/genderhawk ~ @G-enderhawk on venmo ~ Housing leads/resources in the area of the LA urban sprawl excluding Orange County ~ Message me here for more ways to help

Help us survive the now ~ Amazon wishlist items will be added as we need things for now, mostly food and drinks we get regularly but a delivery would save on and some comfort/luxury items we can't justify getting ~ Paypal.me/genderhawk or @G-enderhawk on venmo but DM me on tumblr, or any method of contact you have for me and lmk that this donation is earmarked or OK for cannameds. We get a delivery every 6-10 days for about $40 from a medical/social equity dispensary. ~ If you know me or are professionally trained/training for the housing market and are down to offer gifts of time/labor to help us hunt we could use it

Validating your own emotions is the first step to letting go.

Without validating you commit the ultimate crime: self betrayal.

There’s a reason, whether it’s wrong or right, that is impacting you to feel the way you do. Your body and mind is having a natural response it doesn’t help when you deny this very response is happening since IT IS happening.

No matter how much you ignore and refuse to feel it because you know better, it pushes you farther away from connecting with yourself and truly moving ahead. The worst part? When ignoring yourself for too long, It will push and push to be heard. You’ll most likely end up self sabotaging in daily life without realizing, your physical/mental health will start to act up.

Then feel it. Feel what’s inside of you. Cry through it, scream through it, exercise or break things safely through it, anything. But you must be present with yourself like a mother being next to their child. You have to treat yourself as kindly as a healthy mother would for their child. If you don’t validate and feel you’ll never be able to let go of anything that interrupts your well-being. If you have a web of trauma interfering with letting go, take it slow. Take your time with validating and feeling. Do this method of validating and feeling with a therapist if you’re uncomfortable doing this alone. Validating and feeling AND THEN deciding on what to do to move forward is the only way the plan of moving forward can work.

Is anyone else here an adult child of a parent with severe (stage 4 or greater) hoarding disorder that would be willing to share their experience with me? I'm trying so hard to rewire my brain to be more productive and view tasks as a reward for having my own space to manage and care for, but the executive dysfunction is incredibly debilitating from 20+ years of the experience of growing up with someone who suffers from Hoarding Disorder.

I'm just looking for others in this community that are struggling with the same things I am and maybe just feel a little less awful about the way the PTSD rules even the most minimal of functions. Maybe a human who understands how chores as simple as walking a bag of trash outside can feel emotional and overwhelming. I need to be a wife and mom who contributes more fully to the household tasks. But I need someone who understands to talk to through it.

If all else fails, this can be a place where someone else can realize they're not alone.

Today's victory: I actually did the dishes.