#procellaridae

Grey-faced Petrel or Ōi (Pterodroma gouldi), Family Procellaridae, order Procellariformes, of the North Island of New Zealand

I dislike this beak. It doesn't look like mine and it's really weird, specially where the nostrils are located; but almost all procellariiformes have this beak, which I find... weird ??

I've discarded almost all white, grey and single-colored birds from my research. I'm pretty confident in saying that my coat is brownish (between caramel or dark brown) with white markings (above AND below the back), something like my pfp (pfp + 2 other examples below)

the beak I'm looking for actually looks more like Charadriiformes birds than Procellariiformes, but I've searched Charadriiformes a bit and I didn't find any bird that interested me — plus the diversity between Charadriiformes is really big, the birds on this order can be really different. Anyways, some beak examples:

as you can see, no weird nostrils and a small-medium beak. The only sub-family in Procellariidae that has this trait are the diving petrels. Look at these cuties !!

I feel a little connected to the northen ocean, but these critters only live in the southern. I don't see a problem with this though; they kind of fit everything else (size, appearence, beak, eggs etc). They look just a little silly ! But that's fine !! It's weird because I really thought I was from Procellariidae, not Pelecanoides. The weird beak is bothering me enough for me to discard the possibility of being a Procellariidae-only bird - or any other sub-family except the Pelecanoides. (for context, Pelecanoides is a sub-family of Procellariidae)

shearwaters are a possibility too, but I'm pretty inclined to being a diving petrel. researching birds that look so similar and having so few online information about them is exhausting, but at the same time really fun. I feel like a bird searching for bugs or worms to feed it's hatchlings. I wish I was at the beach again, July/August was pretty fun. I meditated a lot about my nonhuman identities.