#probably now

             for awhile i thought thoma’s biggest flaw or “red flag” was his lack of self-care, but over time i’ve realized it’s actually self-importance. it doesn’t seem like much of a difference but it kind of is? at least to me.

              thoma knows he has to care for himself to better care for others. he knows that. he knows how to care for himself, too. he takes time to do the things he likes when he has the chance. when he prepares meals, he prepares enough for himself as well. he doesn’t (usually) miss out on too much sleep, unless under strenuous circumstances. and thoma knows, deep down, he is a good person. he knows he deserves respect from others. so he is aware of his own self-care.

              however, the importance of that care is always weighed against the importance of the care of those around him. for instance: if he’s preparing a meal and they’re short on something, thoma will go without. if a shift needs to be covered, or something needs to be tended to in someone’s stead, thoma will always do it. even if he hasn’t slept or rested yet from his own duties. he will cancel plans so his loved ones can pursue theirs. he would give his life if it meant protecting someone he loves. he would do all this without hesitation. it’s harmful chivalry. 

'top ten photos taken moments before disaster' ;-;

Rip heaventale gaster.

Yeah so I missed this yesterday but here it is now. I drew it abit quickly so it doesn't look great. It looks abit like my old style tbh. I'm not sure how that happened. I hope you like it anyway.