#pretty sure...

I must inform you that this is, in fact, absolute fire

merry birthmas for Quetz

Does anyone else have this slight constant anxiety about people not liking you anymore? Like you feel like you’re not doing enough to be a proper friend, or internet buddy, or something. And you feel like you’ll be left behind because you’re just not doing enough? Or you’re just not enough as a person? But don’t have the energy to do much anyways… or be a better person… I don’t know. I just always have this feeling. I’m not enough. And people will eventually realize I’m this person who doesn’t give enough… and it’s constant. It’s draining. I push myself to reach out more so no one will forget me because I genuinely love all the people I interact with in any sort of way and I don’t want them to forget me. But I’m just not enough… and struggle to have energy to keep it up. Then I’m forgotten and I have his intense sadness but I know it’s all my fault anyway for not giving enough… and I can’t blame people if they move on. I don’t ever blame anyone. It’s always my fault. That makes it feel so much worse though.