Does anyone else have this slight constant anxiety about people not liking you anymore? Like you feel like youâre not doing enough to be a proper friend, or internet buddy, or something. And you feel like youâll be left behind because youâre just not doing enough? Or youâre just not enough as a person? But donât have the energy to do much anyways⊠or be a better person⊠I donât know. I just always have this feeling. Iâm not enough. And people will eventually realize Iâm this person who doesnât give enough⊠and itâs constant. Itâs draining. I push myself to reach out more so no one will forget me because I genuinely love all the people I interact with in any sort of way and I donât want them to forget me. But Iâm just not enough⊠and struggle to have energy to keep it up. Then Iâm forgotten and I have his intense sadness but I know itâs all my fault anyway for not giving enough⊠and I canât blame people if they move on. I donât ever blame anyone. Itâs always my fault. That makes it feel so much worse though.
Maybe I just overthink everything⊠and itâs not that big of a dealâŠ
Anyway⊠sorry for my ramblings.
