#premies

As part of the world's longest-running analysis of extremely low birth weight (ELBW) babies born prematurely, scientists have discovered that the genes of male ELBW babies age more quickly than those of full-term male newborns.

We're talking about biological aging or senescence here: these men aren't suddenly rushing through their birthdays at an accelerated rate, but rather hundreds of key genes in their bodies have a greater degree of the kind of chemical editing that occurs naturally over time.

The study results indicated them to be an average of 4.6 years 'older' by their 30s than boys with normal birth weight born at the same time.

cuties!

PODCAST: Mystic Verses of Sant Jayadeva -- A Sant Mat Satsang Podcast Edition of Spiritual Awakening Radio With James Bean

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Sant Jayadeva is One of the Earliest Sants Known to History

Jayadeva was born during 1170. He's known to the Sikh tradition as Bhagat Jaidev. He was a Sanskrit "loner-poet" who lived during the 12th century and is celebrated for his poetic genius in eastern India. He is the author/composer of the epic poem known as Gita Govinda (The Hymn to the Custodian of Light). Sant Jayadeva is the earliest dated author of hymns that are included the Adi Granth!

You'll hear readings from, Unveiling the Garden of Love -- Mystical Symbolism in Layla Majnun and Gita Govinda (Sufi Mysticism and the Teachings of Sant Jayadeva in the Gita Govinda).

And then, I share readings from the Mystic Verses of Sant Jayadeva: Gurbani by Bhagat Jaidev in the Adi Granth, one of the earliest Sants known to history: Hymn # One on Page 526 of the Adi Granth with commentary, followed by the reading of Hymn # Two on page 1106 with commentary.

Sample Verses

ਪਰਮਾਦਿ ਪ੝ਰਖਮਨੋਪਿਮੰ ਸਤਿ ਆਦਿ ਭਾਵ ਰਤੰ ॥ परमादि पढ़रखमनोपिमं सति आदि भाव रतं ॥ Parmĝḝ purakẖmanopimaʼn saṯ ĝḝ bẖĝv raṯaʼn.

In the very beginning, was the Primal Lord, unrivalled, the Lover of Truth and other virtues.

ਪਰਮਦਭ੝ਤੰ ਪਰਕ੝ਰਿਤਿ ਪਰੰ ਜਦਿਚਿੰਤਿ ਸਰਬ ਗਤੰ ॥੧॥ परमदभढ़तं परकढ़रिति परं जदिचिंति सरब गतं ॥१॥ Parmaḝbẖuṯaʼn parkariṯ paraʼn jaḝcẖinṯ sarab gaṯaʼn. ||1||

He is absolutely wonderful, transcending creation; remembering Him, all are emancipated. ||1||

ਮਨ ਆਦਿ ਗ੝ਣ ਆਦਿ ਵਖਾਣਿਆ ॥ मन आदि गढ़ण आदि वखाणिआ ॥ Man ĝḝ guṇ ĝḝ vakẖĝṇiĝ.

Within my mind, I chant the Name of the Primal Lord God, the Source of virtue.

ਤੇਰੀ ਦ੝ਬਿਧਾ ਦ੝ਰਿਸਟਿ ਸੰਮਾਨਿਆ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥ तेरी दढ़बिधा दढ़रिसटि समानिआ ॥१॥ रहाउ ॥ Ŧėrī ḝubiḝẖĝ ḝarisat sammĝniĝ. ||1|| rahĝo.

My vision, that You are I are separate, has melted away. ||1||Pause||

Mystic Verses of Sant Jayadeva (Gurbani by Bhagat Jaidev in the Adi Granth): https://medium.com/sant-mat-meditation-and-spirituality/mystic-verses-of-sant-jayadeva-gurbani-by-bhagat-jaidev-in-the-adi-granth-one-of-the-earliest-470921849aa6

Link to the Music of Jayadeva: Sikh Chant of Bhagat Jaidev Ji's Shabad Ang 526: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BdAvho9M6_k&ab_channel=AlapAhaar

Link to the Music of Jayadeva: Gita Govinda: Priye Charuseele -- Sanskrit Poems of Jayadeva: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ui5u5HDkHs&start_radio=1&list=RD9ui5u5HDkHs&t=620&ab_channel=Adithmk

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I suddenly found myself treating my own premature triplets.

Whenever I see a newborn baby fighting for their life, it reminds me of my own three children. 

It feels like I am treating my own children every single day. I want to save them all.

It doesn’t really work like that in Denmark 😔

I have to go to a specific hospital and be interviewed about my lifestyle and have some blood tests done. My milk would be tested too - and the colostrum would be given to premies and later the “not so fat” milk would be given to older babies at the hospital. You have to start donating before 8 weeks postpartum though.

I’m not sure you can just buy ‘breast milk’ anywhere, though I’m not sure it’s illegal either 🤔 I’ve never seen anyone looking for it or selling it.

You are paid 170DKK about $26 for a liter milk AND it’s tax free (mind you, we pay 40% taxes so it’s a big deal). If you sold it 'Willy Nilly’ you’d have to pay taxes though - and I’m not sure how selling something works with paid maternity leave. I also think it would be seen as really weird and it’s a small country.

I was going to share Briars birth story (it’s a wild one) but realized I’m not sure if I ever shared Declan's (his was much more “normal”) So instead, I’ll share both!

Sweet Declan. He came into this world 6 weeks early but we had a little time to wrap our heads around the fact that we were about to have a premie.

It was a Wednesday and I had off work to go to a OB appointment. I remember he had stopped moving as much (something that can be completely normal towards the end of pregnancy) but my Dr. ran a stress test just to be sure. We aced it and went home. Later that day I lost my mucus plug (yea gross I know) and then after that started having contractions. I was admitted to the hospital that night. They gave me some meds and slowly my contractions started spacing farther apart and were less intense. Because of this they simply thought it was false labor. They were set to send me home Thursday night but I would require another shot first for Declan’s lung development just in case. I asked to stay one more night, just in case. Well nothing changed and Friday morning they were ready to send me home again but just in case they would check my dilation. Ha. Ha. Ha. Yea I wasn’t going anywhere, in fact, I was told I’d be having a baby that day.

I got my epidural and that was the best thing EVER. It didn’t hurt until he was ready to come out. I remember yelling I needed to push but they told me I had to wait for the Dr. Way to anger a pregnant lady in labor (also this same exact thing happened with Briar). Hahaha. Once Dr. came I only pushed for about 1/2 an hour and Declan was born! I only got to hold him for a hot minute and then he was off to the NICU. All in all it was a very pleasant, fairly relaxed, and uneventful birth.

So now, Briar.

Going into this pregnancy we knew our chances of having another premie were high and that I would need “specialty” care throughout. Every. Single. Thing. looked fine Every. Single. Time. and they were confident this baby would go the distance. Well Briars story starts very similarly to Declan’s.

It was a Monday. I had my last specialty ultrasound to make sure she looked like she was staying put. She did. Everything looked great. Just like Declan post appointment, two days later she was born. The difference, hers was not expected and we had zero time to prepare.

I woke up Wednesday morning with what I thought was bad gas pain. I had a lot of digestive issues during my pregnancy with her so I didn’t think anything of it at first. Lunch time rolled around and they kept getting worse… so i googled “what do contractions feel like”…. Yea. I was having contractions all right. I started timing them and they were starting to meet the criteria so I called the Dr.

I’m not sure why they didn’t admit me right away because that’s what they did back in Stillwater with Declan but instead they just make a regular appointment for me to get checked out.

So, I was home alone with Declan. We just moved to Marshfield. I called my dad and had him head on over (they live an hour away). His truck key broke. He was delayed. The one day I needed to get ahold of Jordan… I could NOT get ahold of Jordan. I had to call his company and they had to track him down. My appointment was set for 3:30, Jordan got home around 3. At this point I was trying not to panic, still in denial I was in labor. I kept telling myself it was fine, we’d go to the Dr., they’d give me some meds, and she’d stay put awhile longer. I was trying to keep it together and do things to ease the contractions but that was not working so we headed over early.

At this point I was in full on labor. But I didn’t know it. Although deep down I think I did, I was just in full straight up denial. I was NOT ready to have this baby.

My dad hadn’t arrived yet and Declan couldn’t come in with us so Jordan dropped me off and I somehow managed to painfully make my way to my appointment, what a sight I must have been. Through pain and tears I managed to check in and wait in agony to be called back.

I was in full on labor. Dilated and effaced. They immediately admitted me and wheeled me up. I was in so much pain and kept asking for my epidural. Still in complete denial this baby was coming. Still no husband.

We got to the hospital around 3:15/30… Jordan made it up to my room right before they had to wheel me into the delivery room… Briar was born at 4:08. Talk about cutting it close. This situation was one of those to the T. We had literally just moved to Marshfield about a week and a half prior. Had we still lived in AC, Briar would have been born in the car on the side of the road, because again, I didn’t process that I was in full on labor.

She came fast and ALL natural. There was simply no time for pain meds and crap it hurt. Just ask Jordan, his eardrums might still be recovering. But then I got to snuggle with her for a little bit (much longer than with Declan) and then she too was taken to the NICU. She cooked a whole 4 days longer than her brother and was born at 35 weeks and a few days.

I wouldn’t recommend this type of birth, I’m still traumatized (ladies get an epidural) but it resulted in one beautiful baby girl and a pretty wild story to tell.

It was a hard pregnancy and a birth I would have NEVER envisioned for myself, and to be honest it’s been a lot to process. I am forever thankful, grateful and blessed for my two healthy beautiful babies but what I went through was hard and there is no denying that and nothing can take away from that. I never thought I’d be the mom to a premie and have a NICU stay…I had two.

I always envisioned a big ole baby shower party, my babies were born before that could happen. I always thought I’d breastfeed, neither had good latches (B was better but my health issues ultimately were too much to keep trying). There is so much I wish would have been different, oh to have experienced one “normal” pregnancy/birth and heck even postpartum. But that’s not my (our) story. Our story is messy and full of heartache and pain but it’s still beautiful, and it’s ours. I have the two very best, most beautiful children. Out of all the pain, all the struggles, all the hard, there is so much good. Gods grace, his goodness, his provision, his PLAN is what I will cling to with everything I have because without it I’ll dwell too much on the “should have/ could have been.” But at the same time I know I need to give myself grace and that it’s ok to feel all those messy feelings and that doesn’t take away the gratitude I also have. It’s ok to think about the “should have beens” and it’s ok to be angry about how things did not go to plan. You can grieve and have gratitude simultaneously. You can heal from trauma and move forward while still acknowledging the pain that lingers. I have two very beautiful children, and it matters, but it’s not all that matters.

Pregnancy, birth, postpartum, and raising kids… it’s all hard, messy and simultaneously beautiful and it’s ok to have parts you don’t love. On the hard days, on the good days, you’re never alone and I guarantee at least one (but honestly hundreds) of mothers feel EXACTLY how you do. You’re not the only one whose birth plan got thrown out the window and run over. You’re not the only one whose baby wouldn’t latch. You’re not the only one who struggles. You’re not alone.