#preglbr

16weeks 2days

I got tons of maternity clothes from my sister and a friend. That‘s really great (I hate shopping). But trying them on, I realised that most maternity clothes really highlight the bump. It‘s not really big at the moment - I just feel as if I gained some weight, which accumulates at my belly. I really should get more positive about the normal changes during pregnancy 😆.

On wednesday a possible substitue for me during my maternity leave comes for a interview. I really hope this will work out - then I could stop hiding my bump from my patients. It would be good to have a solution when they ask about it.

4 out of the 6 TTC patients I‘m currently treating are pregnant now 😊. Two of them with cycle monitoring, two with clomid. Of course I‘ve only got ‚mild cases‘ (I‘m not specialised in reproductive medicine), but still I‘m so happy about that.

I‘m a bit worried, how the remaining two will take the news, that I‘m pregnant - but I‘ll have to tell them soon (and I don‘t want that they hear it from someone else). I clearly remember the feeling during our struggle to concive, when ‚everybody but me‘ got pregnant. But I‘ve got a male OB / Gyn - I never had to worry about him getting pregnant 🙈.

We made it through the first trimester :). My husband wanted to do the first trimester screening (NT scan + heart scan + bloodwork) and the Harmony Test (blood test for changes in the number of chromosomes). The scan was perfect, now we wait for the lab results. I enjoyed the scan (they had such a great ultrasound machine -> perfect pictures and we now know the sex of the little one already ;), but I don’t like waiting for the lab results. We’ll get them in the middle of next week. If everything is fine, we finally share the news at work etc. Our families already guessing if it’s a boy or girl, but we won’t tell them - it’s real fun ;).

I’m feeling very good physically (had some nausea and was veeery tired, both has improved a lot), but I can’t shrug off all the doubts. Of course the critical early weeks are over, but as I’ve worked in Gyn/OB the last 7 years I’ve also seen the rare cases. Can’t talk with my husband about that (normally he’s the one who worries and he is just happy at the moment - I don’t want to destroy that). And I know that those fears are irrational. Most of the pregnancies / births going I’ve seen over the years went well. But of course the bad experiences are stuck in my brain. Also I’ve got a kind of ‘survivors guilt’ overcoiming infertility. I still follow many TTC blogs and I just hope that all of them will be pregnant soon. This community helped me a lot.

I guess I’m getting a little hormonal at the moment (one day absolutely happy and on the next I can’t belive in our luck) But that’s normal in pregnancy I guess :).

Everybody knows - you shouldn’t get in the way of a hungry, pregnant women. I’m know part of this club ;). Normally I’m a really calm person, but at the moment I’m really short tempered, when I’m hungry. And I’m hungry a lot (and eating a lot ;)! Still surprised, that I haven’t gained that much weight - I’ll enjoy this luck as long as it lasts :).

Have told the boss (who hasn’t a plan how to find somebody to substitute me, while I’m on maternety leave) and the staff. Also told my former coworkers. We met for a night out and after dinner I told them. It was really funny - while I was working in the hospital, everybody was waiting for me to get pregnant. And asking if I was. Now everybody was like “REALLY?!?!?” :-D. I’m wondering, how long it will take, till my patients hear the news or spot the bump. Let’s hope we’ll have a plan then for the time of my maternety leave...

For those of you who followed my old blog @z0mbiitch, this is my new(ish?) blog.

I don’t know how often I’ll actually be on here but if you’ve found me- HEY :)

So anyway, I’m still hella married to the greatest man in the universe and I’m currently 39 weeks pregnant with our third baby. It’s finally a girl. We’re ecstatic.

Uhhh what else is new? Nick separated from the Army and we moved out of Alaska. I’m currently in nursing school.