I’ve noticed that I feel a ton of guilt and shame and fear feelings with trying to talk about newly found parts, and this seems to be because there’s still a part of my brain that’s convinced that everyone in my life who knows about my DID has a limit of how many parts they can handle.
And each time I find something else I’m so afraid that if I tell people they’re gonna be like, “that’s it, I can’t handle anymore of you, it’s too many.” Like I feel deeply ashamed that there’s even more of me to handle.
And I feel so guilty asking people to learn about another part of me when they have to keep track of so many other parts already. So then I just want to hide them and keep their existence a secret, which I know isn’t particularly fair or healthy. It’s a work in progress.
