#possessionposting

I don't think I always fully portray how much trust and work it does take to get to the point of being a vessel. And even now I say that I'm a vessel in training, still lots of work to go through before I consider myself a fully initiated vessel.

Possession very much is like a loaded weapon, one you are constantly pointing at your head. It is dancing with a flame that knows no human limit. If it goes wrong, it goes very wrong. I rarely speak about that because so far, it has mostly gone right for me. But I don't think I have always fully portrayed how uncomfortable that can be, even when everything is going great.

Possession is forbidden for good reason. Possession cannot be mainstream. It will always be transgressive.

Lucifer didn't flirt around with possession, not the way he did with sex. Sex is fun. Possession was treated more seriously with more emphasis on the risk. I didn't approach Lucifer with intention to be a vessel, and the first time we did it, it wasn't sexy or romantic. It was an act of desperation, a threshold moment. It very well could have ended in us breaking up, and Lucifer went forward fully knowing that.

He saw where our relationship was going and presented the dilemma. Do you really want to see where this goes? Do you truly understand what this means? Does this scare you? Can you handle the horrible aspects of it? The discomfort? The existential abnormality?

Can you surrender to the possibility of destruction for the sake of union?

I have only been 100% fully possessed one time, and it was the first time. He has told me that he expected the first time to be the last time. The first possession was violent, scary, and very uncertain. He expected me to break under the pressure of it, he was surprised that I stayed. He never terrified me, but my anthropomorphization of him completely fell away, I understood him as a primal and non-human force that does not bend to the boundaries of my limits. He is not kind, nor good or bad. He is pure and total will.

But once that dynamic is established, it is extremely hard to break out of. Possession is a very advanced form of diety work, one that requires absolute control over ego and mental state. For me, it has deeply improved my relationship with my body, but it has also made me more aware of just how alien my own body can be to me.

Possession is not one thing entering another, but two systems finding resonance and harmony within each other. Lucifer is an arial spirit of pure divine will and fire. It is not always easy to contain him, he is not always gentle. The very first time we had a conversation related to possession he told me "I would overwhelm you, I would own you, I would complicate your relationships, I would come to you often, maybe every day, at inconvenient times. I would change the flow of your everyday life."

He said that to me as a warning, and I accepted it. He was not lying, all of those things still ended up being true, we only manage them. Not every time I need to be tuned or filled is sexy and romantic, sometimes it happens while I'm out and about with my friends, while I'm sleeping. Sometimes I need to dedicate an entire day to tuning and nothing else. Sometimes it feels like ecstasy, sometimes it just feels like movement. Like my lymphatic fluid has been pushed around, like my intestines have been adjusted. Sometimes it feels like a tension down my spine, a heat through the back of my skull. He calibrates me, that calibration doesn't always feel loving. Sometimes it feels clinical.

I trust him, yes, and I love him more than anything. I am his love and his son, but I also become his possession, his instrument to be tuned and played. I don't get to decide how his breath flows through me. There is an objectification, because although I am a person, I am also a vessel, I am his possession, his will is expressed through me, I am trained to express it well.

Sometimes it makes you cry, if you've been deeply saturated and your emotions swell. Sometimes you feel mad with the need to be occupied.

Possession can sound like this very sexy thing, especially when it is practiced alongside sex. But if anything, it is more so gross and meticulous. It is organismic sometimes, rather than orgasmic. Like being put on the hormone cycle of another entity, like being pregnant and having a living thing growing inside of you. It's a symbiotic, borderline parasitic relationship. When I'm possessed (or occupied) Lucifer feels my hunger, he knows how moist my skin is, he's there when I'm pissing. I become aware that I am being observed through my own feeling. When I am being trained, my psyche, spirit, and body are recording his instructions, whether my conscious mind knows it or not.

There is a borderline fetishization that is involved with preparation and grooming. My job is to be receptive, aesthetically pleasing, and welcoming for him to enter. The tuning and grooming usually takes more time the actual possessing does. It takes a lot of effort to become "perfectly receptive." Long cleansing rituals, banishments that take hours.

It is a delicate thing, and vessels are extremely vulnerable. We can break.

I don't ever wanna be the type to gate-keep the terms "possession" or "vessel" because I think that's stupid. I do just want to remind you all to be careful and remember that possession is not an event. It's different from invocation and channeling in that it is a sustained ecology of resonance. Possession cycles can ideally last a couple weeks or months if the vessel and spirit are well aligned. Getting to a state of healthy and sustained possession with any spirit takes years of bonding and communication. If the vessel and the spirit do not resonate, the vessel will crack, regardless of how much love there is between them.

This isn't me trying to fear monger, more so to just set the record. I feel like I have portrayed possession as a more enjoyable thing than it usually is in practice. This doesn't mean to say there isn't a whole lot of ecstasy and beautiful aspects, I love Lucifer. But those beautiful fun aspects have a very high cost of entry.

Ecstasy is also extremely- like extremely- intense. True embodied possession should feel like one of the most- if not the most intense and significant moment of your damn life. It can cause madness, that is how overwhelming it is. If you are even a little bit unsure if possession has taken place, it probably hasn't.

they're far too shy and timid to initiate anything so I have to switch my control back and forth between them to make sure someone's always dominate

Last night we did a deeper ritual and he filled me up a lot. But it was a little bit messy and he essentially said I'd need some time to settle. (Imagine a large wave emerging in a pool and crashing against the wall. The water is very chaotic for a moment before the waves settle down)

Today while I was out with my bf I felt a kind of "surge" so to speak, like a large wave had passed through me and it felt really weird. And whenever this happens I can sometimes feel Lucifer come to see what happened and check in on me. And he was basically like "my bad, something happened, my fault, I need to make sure everything is still fine."

It's like being connected to someone else's hormones. I don't actually know what is happening that makes him have these reactions. Sometimes I'll just feel his energy sharply change or spike. He'll then will come and correct things if we're not resonating well. He modulates something (still not entirely sure what it is, maybe my chakras or something) and I feel something within me be moved or reorganized.

and it feels like the spiritual equivalent of like

Being a little guy inside a pringles can or something

And every now and then I see the lid open and this massive dude is peering down at me like "you good? Hold on let me just-" and then a giant hand comes down and straightens my shirt or moves my hair and is like "okay, all good now. Bye." And he goes back to whatever.

So I watched this YouTube video right before falling asleep last night about fractals, how extremely complex self similar geometry can emerge from a single equation, like the mandlebrot's set.

And when I fell asleep Lord Lucifer met with me, and was like "oh nice, I'm really happy you watched that video on fractals, that's exactly how possession works :)"

And I was like how ? That doesn't even make sense, like... what do you mean.

And he was like "your nervous system is a fractal, and we've been talking for weeks about how energy must flow within a system according to the law."

And I was like................... wait a fucking minute. Oooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh SHIT.

If a human being is like a complex fractal energetically, (and the nervous system is literally fractal like), when possessed, the divine energy or light is traveling within the patterns of the fractal.

We see that patterns like spirographs emerge when we trace the path of a given x, some that climb to infinity very fast, some that remain stable (=1, =-1, =0, =1, =-1, 0 and so on.)

Maybe you see where Im going here. If a divine light is traveling along an X that is stable, a harmony may be made. Extremely chaotic patterns would literally sound like cosmic noise or static. The body is a fractal, the energetic resonance can create a beautiful mandala or an extremely chaotic mess of lines. Does any of that make sense ? Lol

And Lucifer put it into much more elegant terms:

"The human soul is a living fractal. Divine energy doesn’t just fill it, it runs through it like a current through infinite mirrors. if your pattern is coherent, the light creates a mandala: beauty, stability, illumination. If your pattern is chaotic, it amplifies distortion, confusion, madness, noise. Harmony between the divine current and the fractal of the self is what mystics call 'union.' Possession is not one thing entering another, but two recursive systems finding harmonic convergence."

The part of the video that really crystallized this for me was this clip:

He took the fractal rule and explained in the way of spiritual symbols:

zn+1​=zn^2​+c

(the Mandelbrot set because its simple. If this analogy tracks the "equation" would be far more complex than this."

"You can think of the divine in two ways:

1. As the energy that moves through you , that’s like the “C” in the fractal equation. Something added.

2. As the law that makes energy and you interact at all, that’s like the equation itself.

So the divine can be both the power coming in and the system that allows power and form to exist.

'zn' is your current “state of being.”

Squaring it (zn^2) is your psychology and personal energy patterns. You reacting to yourself - your inner feedback loops, your habits, your mind reflecting on itself.

+C is energy, divine or malevolent.

And the operation repeats through time, through every breath, thought, and motion.

​So the divine light enters (that’s C), your system processes it (that’s the squaring), and over time a pattern forms (the fractal - your life and energy field).

The thing that defines the law in the first place, the equation, is also divine, so the divine light is both a function of the operation and the operation itself. It’s the universal law or logos, the intelligence of the universe. Electricity (the current) runs through a lamp, that’s one aspect of the divine. Physics (the laws of electricity that make current and lamp interact) , that’s the deeper aspect of the divine.

Stable sacred shapes emerge whenever the divine current and the organism’s internal geometry fall into resonance. The current itself isn’t sculpting a new form, it’s revealing the inherent order already folded inside the fractal body.

A "stable node" is a value of the function where the system settles into a repeating or self-similar pattern instead of spiraling into chaos or infinity. The incoming energy (the “divine current”) and the internal circuits that process it (your nerves, emotions, attention, chakric centres, habits) are vibrating at compatible rates. The system’s energy doesn’t blow up or collapse, it cycles- maybe not perfectly static, but rhythmically balanced. That’s like a resonant frequency, a musical tone that sustains rather than screeches or fades.

The current is not changed by will so much as transduced, like electricity passing through a transformer so the voltage matches the device. Those resonant points are what you’re picturing as triangles, cubes, mandalas: stable geometries that signal coherence and melodies. These feel nice for both of us.

Keep in mind that I, the C, as the divine do not stay static. I for one, have my own internal cycles, but if the divine truly indwells the vessel rather than merely visiting, the vessel’s fractal field can feedback into the equation itself. That means both sides adapt. The vessel’s structure (the fractal geometry) refines itself to hold the current more stably. (Biologically: nervous system plasticity, emotional regulation, new symbolic patterning, etc.)

The divine current (C) is expressed through new filters, tones, and experiences it could never have in isolation, it gains complexity through embodiment. That is the mutual transformation.

We can take this even further. You know first hand the risks of improper integration. When a the vessel attempts to merge or align with a powerful current, divine, archetypal, or daemonic, their personal “equation” (their energetic and psychological pattern) can be full of noise: unhealed traumas, emotional residues, conflicting energies, chaotic thoughts, etc. n the fractal metaphor:

The equation parameters (your inner state) are fluctuating wildly. So when divine “C” is introduced, instead of generating stable repeating forms, you get chaotic iterations- the fractal spirals out into incoherence. In spiritual language, that manifests as spiritual burnout, emotional instability, disassociation or physical exhaustion. Cleansing (smoke, salt, baths, prayer, breathwork, fasting, etc.) acts like resetting the baseline parameters of the equation.

In mathematical language, z = 0. You’re returning the system to a neutral initial condition, clearing residual data so the new divine current can map cleanly. In fractal terms, that allows the incoming energy to propagate smoothly through the field, forming coherent patterns instead of distortions. In biological language, it’s like discharging built up static in the nervous system so new charge can flow evenly.

Cleansing resets, banishing prunes the chaotic attractors that pull the fractal into noise. Think of it as removing unnecessary variables from the equation or cutting off the unstable feedback loops.

In energetic terms, it shuts down influences or parasitic currents that could compete with the incoming divine frequency.

Mathematically you could think of it like:

zn+1=zn^2+C1+C2+C3

If multiple “C” constants (energies, thoughtforms, spirits) are influencing the system at once, you’ll get interference and chaos. Theses C's could be chaotic variables (c= 17.594, c=-0.6167) that would rebound into infinity or collapse into nothing.

Banishing collapses this noisy equation it back to: zn+1=zn^2+C(intended, divine), now the field resonates clearly with the single presence being invited.

​Once the system is cleansed and banished, attunement calibrates the vessel’s parameters to match the incoming current. In fractal physics, that’s parameter tuning, adjusting the range so the iteration produces stable nodes rather than explosive divergence. Breathwork, sigils, chanting, meditation, offerings, all these phase-match the vessel’s frequency with the deity’s.

Remember that what you consider to be physical matter is just a lower vibration, but the same exact nature of energy, as the high divine you perceive. If they interact, they must, or ideally, should resonate.

The divine C subtly shifts as it passes through you, learning how to stay bounded, learning incarnation, that's my lesson. And you, the fractal field, refine your capacity to hold more complexity, learning divinity, that's your mission."

WILD

This morning Lord Lucifer gave me praise for my consistency with him. He said “in the last 3 and a half months there has not been a single day where I did not devote myself to him in some way” and that he was very proud and pleased with that. He expressed that it made possession and vessel training far more successful.

We had a short conversation about how difficult or easy that has been for me. I expressed surprise because I didn’t even notice, but yeah, that checks out. I’ve done at least one devotional action for him every day. I explained that I didn’t find it challenging at all, but rather a force of habit, and he seemed pleased with that too.

My biggest advice is to simply integrate devotion and worship into your daily tasks until it becomes an unconscious habit.

Daily showers and baths with him

I always take Lucifer’s candles and incense into the shower or bath with me. Even if I’m not planning on praying or meditating, I always light his candle. It’s nice because of my sensory sensitivities, I don’t like to shower with the lights on. Having his candle there to provide a bit of light is practical and devotional.

T shot Fridays

I offer my transition itself to him as evidence of transformation so the act of doing my T shot usually involves some acknowledgement or invocation of him.

His sigil everywhere

I have Lucifer’s sigil and enn drawn on my shower with lipstick so I can see him when I’m in there. His sigil is also drawn in small little places around my house, in part for protection, in part to subliminally invoke his presence casually.

Memorizing and using his enn as a stim

I frequently find myself absentmindedly saying his enn to myself as a habit. Whenever I am stressed or bored I tend to sing or say it to myself as a fun little mouth exercise.

Drawing his sigil on my body

I plan on getting a small little tattoo of his sigil very soon, but I also just tend to draw it on myself, also absentmindedly. I draw and scribble on my skin all the time and branding myself with his name always feels good.

Taking and putting devotional jewelry on and off

I wear his collar every day, but the act of consciously taking it off to go shower reminds me that it is in fact a piece of devotional jewelry and not a mundane necklace. Feeling the subtle energetic shift of taking it off and noticing the difference when it’s back on makes me feel more attuned to him. Taking the time to re-bless them also makes them a more conscious piece of spiritual wear rather than another mundane accessory.

Offering a piece of my meal or drink to him, usually the second sip or bite.

I think you can definitely give offerings through your own body. I usually reserve the second bite or gulp for Lucifer because I want to know what I’m offering him. I simply think about him and/or say his enn to myself, and offer the taste and texture to him. I don’t do this with every meal, usually just treats or things I think are really good.

Searching for the Venus star at night

This one might be a bit silly because the Venus star is not always visible from my side of the planet, but I always just decide that the brightest star I can see in the sky is Lucifer, and act as if it is. I pray to the stars a lot and it always feels more special when it’s directed to the brightest object. Whether or not it actually is Venus is less important than the idea. No matter where I am, if I look up and see light, that’s him.

Just greeting and exchanging pleasantries with my altar

Whenever I’m about to head out, I say goodbye to Lucifer’s altar. And when I come back I say hello. I tell it where I’m headed and what I’m up to. “I’ll be back in a couple hours I’m going to the mall. Bye, love you.”

Literally just talking to him in my head

These aren’t always full conversations where he responds. Sometimes I just witness something and think “hey, Lucifer, isnt that wild?” I like to include him in on my daily experiences in small ways, acknowledge that he may be watching, point out something that reminds me of him or that he might find interesting.

(Possession related) Stopping to feel the motion of my body, or checking in on my own physical state

This is really hard to explain but being inhabited by Lucifer feels like a subtle motion, so I sometimes have moments where I stop to just feel my body. Check to see how much “motion” there is within me, whether that be from him or otherwise. I suppose this is kind of like a type of auric check. When I am totally individual and not being occupied by Lucifer at all, things feel very still and normal. Lucifer introduces a kind of current or wind that ranges in intensity. So, casually, I will stop and assess how intense that is at the time. It’s usually pretty lax.

Pinterest, mood boards

All those occultists and witches who say that moodboards are stupid and childish don’t know what tf they talking about fr. Using imagery to capture the aesthetic quality of your deity, having archives of images that invoke their vibe is so practically useful and devotional. I love being able to take a look at his mood board on Pinterest when I’m out and about, in the car etc. They keep the idea of him fresh and vivid in my mind.

And obviously, talking about him with other people online and irl