#polypanlife

As of right now my husband and I have only each other. And just us alone are barely able to make it through the holidays with seeing everyone. I can’t imagine how people with multiple partners do it! I give kudos to everyone with more than one partner who is able to manage their holiday time well.

I do not plan on leaving Tumblr anytime soon. Even though I am wildly taken aback and horrified by the behavior of this site I do still see a light at the end of this tunnel. This sit has been an escape and a journey throughout my life.

I have been on this site since I was 13 years old and cannot imagine where I would be today with out it. It has gotten my further than I ever dreamed into the cosplay and fandom community, it has allowed to find myself in terms of my sexuality and relationship lifestyle, it has helped me connect with so many different people and hear their stories and see their struggles.

There is no denying dark days are ahead with this site. But I will be damned if I am going to give up on it so easily. I will stay here and fight for reform. Fight for the site that has helped make me who I am today and I encourage you all to do the same.

I am in need of advice.

What do you do when the trust between you and your metamour is just gone, out the window, gone. Your shared partner wants to trust this person again and forgive them for what they had done to hurt them. But, all you can  think about is how your partner was hurt, badly, and you cannot for the life of you trust your metamour.

The partner understand why you cannot trust the other person but they still want to go forward. On one hand you want to understand that it is really not your place to decide who your partner does and does not see. But, on the other hand you are afraid they will be hurt again by this person and you can’t stand the thought of letting that happen.

So! Life has been busy and as many of you know, today is Mother's Day. Which means I am going to be crazy busy today as well. This means I may be a day or two late with Polyweekly. But don't worry, I will be doing it this week. Here is the great news though, this gives you guys more time to put in your submission for the blog you think I should go over this week! So put in your submissions by 6pm eastern!