It sucks to be the only person on planet earth who knows about me and my boyfriend being a thing. Yes we were from two different regions but *mail* and also *travelling* were things that people did every day. Can I just get *one single* piece of fanart or fanfic about us. Just one. Please.

I miss Corbeau so much. I miss him so much that I won't stop commenting about it. In my life, I don't know if I ever told him but he was a son to me, I took him in when the world was unkind to him, I got him back on his feet, I helped him out. Like...that's my son there. I love him. But I don't think I'm ever going to find him again. Even if I'm constantly thinking about him or get excited to see him, in game, online, art, it just makes me happy to see him. But I don't think he misses me nowadays, and I don't blame him either. I did something bad. I think the worst thing out of all of it, out of what I attempted, is Corbeau doesn't see me the same way anymore. In game he did, he still held me in such high regard, still held such love for me, wanted to help me, but nowadays? I don't think any Corbeau's in this life want anything to do with me. There's somebody else I miss but I don't expect to even see her around, even if I did I doubt she would be that interested in talking to me seeing as we canonically aren't even in the same region and have never interacted or even heard of eachother, but in my life I had done a lot of traveling and we had met. Something I might go into more detail about at a later date, but that all doesn't matter. What matters is Corbeau, my son. I want him to know how much I miss him, I want to know if he ever thinks about me too. I'd take back everything if it means that I can have him back in my life. In my life, I tried, I really did try to get him to come with me, but I don't think he understood, I was being very vague about it when asking him to come with me. I almost bailed on my plan when he didn't come with, because it didn't seem as worth it if his safety wasn't ensured. But evidently my instability still won and I tried what I tried and it still failed. But I was relieved for a moment, because it meant that Corbeau would be ok. Because truly, I had no idea what would've happened to him that day, I don't know if he somehow made it to safety. He didn't really exist in X&Y. So we know nothing of what was going on with him. But Arceus I miss him. Legends Z-A has brought on a lot of longing for me, for somebody who I don't think misses me at all. At least not in this life.

YO were a system of mostly sword/shield fictives looking for any sourcemates. we really dont care who and were all perfectly fine with doubles, we also really dont care what kind of sourcemate you are (fictive, kin, irl, etc) were just... like honestly desperate at this point because for some reason its basically impossible to find anyone else outside of our own system.

I told another person about the me and Courtney ship yesterday and they responded by reworking it into their own Pokemon lore au and what not. Like wow ok- I didn't expect that ^^

feeling depressed & ruminating about how fandom portrayal stifles or outright fucks multiple of us over. our eridan is an easy, old example, her gender is a joke & her character is constantly derided & shat on. our eternal sugar & pavlova have thier relationship portrayed as abusive half the time, with her frequently clipping his wings or similar to keep him with her. their relationship is rocky yeah, but theyre working on it & that doesnt help in thier attempts. our ortega wants to write about thier experiences & memories as a fic, but its constantly stuck between years of horrible abuse that people would not be quiet about, being their base character is a young teen, & the inextricable joy of their relationships with team star & their pokemon, which make it so they cant really portray it as an original work. our nightmare is relatively self explanatory, a hard won back kindness at odds with the cruelty people show him as or a need for strength & easy cold & sharpness at odds with people who dull him down to a victim. our newest, as well. an xtale chara, they use exclusively they/them. same with canon chara & our (kind of) canon chara. but xtale chara & frisk are portrayed as cis men. that one especially has been winding its way around my brain on loop, & im sure they must be getting terribly sick of it, but even just looking for a picture of them it was walls of dysphoria to deal with first. and you cant do anything bc thats canon. none of us have anything against alternate selfs with different presentation, but they see it as them. and so its like a consistent alienation of the self, to the point where they want to break from it entirely. thankfully, many of the out-of-xtale-fandom fanworks of them & cross i recall use they/them for them, so its not an end all be all. its just uncomfortable for them to see "themselves" constantly misgendering them & for me to see a canon nb rep removed. its fine. well all be fine. one way or another, i think #🔮🎭

Why. WHY AM I IN ANOTHER SHIT SCHOOL. WHY ARCEUS WHY. “Arceus gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers” IVE BEEN WRONGFULLY DRAFTED IT FUCKING SEEMS, IM BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAINNN - penny pokemon fictive (#⭐️🛜)

i was taking the bus home and fell asleep and i had a dream where a kid was pointing for me to look out the window so i woke up and looked outside and there was nothing there. and also no kid sitting next to me. i did see a cloud that looked like palkia though. that was cool -giratina (fictive)

Sometimes I’m just so so confused how I barely find ANY pokemon fictives or kins or anything, like I have basically half of damn paldea in this system, do I have to collect the whole set myself or…/silly I swear.. but damn I do miss everyone!! Sure it’s nice to talk to everyone in our own system but god I dunno HOW but it feels lonelier somehow.. - Nemona fictive :p (but I go by nemara, I’m pretty canon divergent anyways)