#pointmoskowitz

flame on // @pointmoskowitz​

will i shut up about the importance of communication on this website? no. is this because i’m studying to become a communications professional? probably.

on one hand: it’s not that deep. this is a website, and one day, we’ll only be able to find it using the way back machine. i’ve been blocked and i’ve blocked people. sometimes you vibe, sometimes you don’t. it’s the way of (tumblr) life.

but on the other hand: there is this way of thinking that i’ve noticed recently which essentially amounts to ‘i don’t owe people anything’ and i don’t agree with that. if you engage in conversation with them, whether you intend to write with them or not, you owe them the truth.

and yes, while answering this question, i came to realize that i wasn’t always the best with this either and that all i can do is do better each day and acknowledge that it’s always going to be a growing pain.

also, just to be very clear on the matter, this is not a vague because no one has time / energy for that and i will not have my words be twisted into something they are not! 

this is an example, and it is just intended to be one, about not so very effective communication (from me): last year, i brought up the fact that i thought that person a had taken blatant inspiration from this oc to person b, who also knows person a. and while the explanation and conversation with person b was very pleasant indeed, looking back on it, i could have been better at not immediately being “oh no it’s all cool <3″ while i didn’t feel very cool about it at all. i tamped down my own feelings on the matter to spare someone else’s while i should have been more honest about how uncomfortable it made me feel and sometimes still does even though it’s been a while.

though bringing it back up a year later seems redundant especially because there is no way to engage in that particular dialogue for person b blocked me and i blocked person b afterwards. it’s a chapter better left closed for everyone. 

however, i also think that it’s a mindset thing and a growth thing. knock on wood but i like to think that if this had happened right now, i would have been more forthcoming with my own feelings and would have wanted to see solutions to this problem instead of waving it away and never addressing it.

well CC, here is my little gift to you, just something to express a fraction of what you mean to me and this fandom! how to describe you? kind, passionate, funny as hell, devoted to her skank and her bird boy. you are wonderful, and you deserve good things today and everyday, remember how much we love you and you are one of the best people on this site that i feel thankful to call a friend. @pointmoskowitz

damnit.  he  thought  he  could  make  it  through  this  message  without  crying,  but  he  was  so  distracted,  he  forgot  about  that  time  he  and  demetri  interrupted  eli’s  voice  mail  recording.  that  was  the  hardest  he  ever  laughed,  and  he  cried  then  to  but  those  were  happy  tears.  the  ones  he  wiped  off  his  cheeks  now  were  not  happy  tears.

@pointmoskowitz​ made my spider-sense tingle: Hey Peter you have something on your face let me just *smooches*