#poent

"What else is new, deary?"

"I hate you, I hate having a body, I hate existing, I hate being alive, I hate the fact that I need to get through everything!"

"Yeah, I told you that a lot of times when did that changed anything? You're just useless as ever! If it wasn't for me-"

"IF IT WASN'T FOR YOU, I'D BE SOMEONE! IF IT WASN'T FOR YOU I'D BE FREE, I'D BE FAR FROM ALL OF THOSE THINGS, I'D TAKE RISKS AND BE BETTER!"

"Or be worse, how can you be so sure about it, cutie?"

"I HATE YOU! I HATE HAVING YOU WITH ME! YOU SHOULD FUCKING DISSAPEAR SO I CAN LIVE THROUGH IT!"

"..."

"..."

"Well... But I am here, baby... And what can you do about it other than what you're already doing?"

You cry, you have no answers, you just plant your face between your hands and either continues to cry or desperately beg for the tears to come, because at least you'll be relieved

"GET OUT OF HERE, PLEASE! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE, FOR FUCKING ONCE!"

And she smiles at you... Shakes your hair off your face and lifts it with her cold hands to face her

"We both know this is not how it works..."

" ...It never hurts to try..."

"Oh, it does"

- sometimes me and my anxiety just need to talk... But it never goes well

Oh, that makes perfect sense, David!

So if I'm being stalked by some freak on the streets am I giving myself to him?

Yeah buddy, maybe I should just like stop having this stupid freak behind me. It's just like this, huh?

I just need to wish for him to not be there anymore! Easy like that, he'll definitely just go away because I'm putting my mind onto it

Oh! Or like, he'll at least drop the fucking knife he's carrying. He definitely cares about wether or not I'm scared of him.

And if he doesn't stop it's totally my fault because I gave up to him. That's exactly what happened.

It doesn't matter if he's like really really close and I can totally feel the blade on my back. Just forget it, leave it behind. He'll go away soon.

The world is so small, isn't it?

The world is so small and life is so short...

Too small to never try to explore it...

Too short to lock yourself when things end bad...

It's this so hard to understand?

Why are you doing this?

Why are you hurting yourself like this?

Why are you hurting the others too?

Why there are so many lang excuses to never try to get better?

How can't you see how many people are suffering because of it?

Stop it!

Stop being so selfish!

Stop blaming people who only wants to help you!

Stop hurting me...

Shit, what is wrong with you?