#podfic hell

Okay I found two umbrella academy fics that I want to podfic. Like its gonna be way down the road and I have to get permission for one of them but they are now on the to do list for sure.

So I'm working on this walking dead podfic and I think it should be done in the next two days. I'm going to put it out and then I think I'm going to go on hiatus for awhile. Every aspect of life has been really hectic so I think I need to sit back and get my shit together. On a brighter note tomorrow is four years sober for me so that's pretty cool. Hope everyone is doing well and I'll be back in a bit!

I'm trying to do this one podfic. But it has sex in it. Which isnt bad it's not really even explicit. I'm like 30 man how is this embarrassing. I've said and done worse shit in real life but when I go to record I'm embarrassed and can not make this noise.

Its so frustrating when the words I’m trying to read don’t come out of my mouth right.  It’s like a last minute glitch and now the words are backwards. Or they are not even close to the words I was trying to say. I just want to put out a podfic and have a good time and I’m feeling really attacked right now.

I am just having a bad time trying to record chapter 19 of tony stark finds himself a family. I've recorded it twice edited it half way through both times and deleted it. It just keeps coming out awful. The voices are wrong the narrating is just fucking terrible. I've seriously recorded 18 chapters of this already how is one chapter fucking with me so bad. I haven't even touched chapter 13 of the teenage vigilante guide which just has me pissed because I pushed out 12 chapters in a month in a half and now it's just floating dead in limbo cause I cant get this other story right. Bitch bitch complain ranting bitch!

So just over here trying to edit some podfics. Cause I have a super backlog of editing to do and thats mostly what this hiatus is about. Not making new podfic and finishing all the ones we have already started. But like wow what the fuck was I on when I recorded some of these. And how the fuck did I not delete them immediately after I recorded them. Some of these are trash and seem very forced and just plain shitty. Like whoa. Im just glad its not all of them or I would be so upset.

I feel an extreme need to make an umbrella academy podfic. From season one cause like wow season two just seemed so sad to me. Anyway been going though and looking and have found 3 I like . But one I'm on hiatus and 2 the one I really want to do is like 57,000 words and I already have 2 big ones to finish. Is that happen with writers and their wips. Its hard not to start something new.

I’ve been editing this podfic for two days. I have seventeen minutes of complete audio and an hour and ten minutes left to edit. I am never going to get this podfic out.