I'm so nocturnal, why do I only ever have the motivation to do things at night

I think realizing I'm aplatonic (spectrum) has kinda helped with me feeling like isolating, I'm not super duper overly depressed anymore, it's more of a solemn urge to be alone

I wish using magic so much, I miss experimenting with magic, I miss just the feeling of it, the tingle in my hands when I used magic and spells, the tingle in my whole body when I put as much power as I could into my magic, I miss how cool I would look when my tarot cards would surround me and how shocked people would be when they realized how good I was at using magic

Writing out my plague doctor DS lore and I'm realizing how insane that dream was, which it makes sense because it was a dream and dream logic can be so wack sometimes but it's crazy, I changed it a bit to make it make more sense, but like what do you mean I got randomly transported to the back of a victorian prison car that was also holding a random man that I somehow knew was my father and I just happened to know that he lied so I would be taken away for the crimes he committed?? Unknown crimes because of course, I knew everything else that was happening in this dream except I had to infer from context clues that the crimes he committed were related to magic

What if my knight self and my plague doctor self kissed... And like mother nature is probably there idk