#philos

The you of the past—young, naive, and terribly in love with him—had believed his word to be true. However, the you of the present—hardened by duty, heart heavy with the grief of his departure yet still utterly, irrevocably in love with him—now knew that he was right. He had missed a crucial detail though. 

Even something as tranquil as peace demanded a sacrifice. And as you choke on your blood in the heart of the forest Xavier had saved you from all those years ago, you knew exactly what sacrifice Philos demanded—your life. 

You can still vividly recall the disgust in Xavier’s voice when he’d finally confessed the truth to you. Philos was built on the blood of innocents; its prosperity contingent on continued sacrifice. And the royal family—his family—had found the perfect one: the girl who’d gifted him that star tassel all those years ago—his guiding starlight. 

The logical part of you agreed with the former King. What was the life of one girl—especially one who could die and be reborn for eternity—compared to an entire planet? But the part of you that loved Xavier—the part that knew such cruelty was fueled by the bitterness of loving someone you could never have—understood him. 

Giving up someone you love for the planet or saving the planet for the one you love—which was more noble? More heartbreaking?

Xavier had chosen the latter and damned you in the process. Still, you couldn’t bring yourself to hate him or the girl he loved so fiercely. Whether you were noble or foolish, it didn’t matter anymore. The time he had borrowed for both the planet and the girl now demanded repayment in full, and you were the one that had to pay the price. 

The shining stars faded into darkness as your lifeblood drained out of you and into the heart of Philos, enabling Death to pull you closer into its embrace. 

Hopefully death would grant both you and Philos peace.

CHERRY'S NOTES. heyyyyyyy, i'm not dead! i've just been... buried in school work for the past few months hahaha... ANYWAYS! I'M BACK! WITH ANGST! bc apparently, i can't seem to write anything else

in all seriousness, i've been wanting to write for xavier for what feels like forever. and now that i've finally grown the balls to play xavier's standard myth, i give you this! this plot bunny is my love letter to queen!mc, who i fear has not been done justice by the fandom. at least, from what i've seen (shivers in misogynistic takes)

i mean yeah, xavier and philos!mc's miscommunication was painful to read. i honestly wanted to rip my hair out more than once. but i feel so much for her. like, how was she supposed to know that the girl xavier has been alluding to all this time was in fact, her? was it stupid to be jealous of herself? maybe, but she doesn't have the knowledge that we (as players) or xavier does. unlike him, she isn't cursed (blessed?) with the burden of remembering

so yeah, philos!mc get behind me girl! it's so hard to assume when you're in love. after all, isn't it human instinct to want to protect ourselves?

ADDITIONAL NOTES. The section that reads "Giving up someone you love for the planet or saving the planet for the one you love—which was more noble? More heartbreaking?" was directly lifted from Xavier's Standard Myth.

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