A post about;
I'm gonna be 29 in a couple of weeks and today I finally made peace with my tits. 15 years give or take.
When they started growing I had a deep resentment of my body because I DIDN'T WANT THEM. The bigger they grew, the harder was gor me to play with my group. Riding bikes and skates, volleyball, basketball, just plain all running. Because I had two fucking balls attached to my chest and they were gonna BOUNCE.
Also they were sexualized because of course they were and I HATED IT. (Why not a big ass to match my big thighs, I'd wonder)
Then in my late teens-early 20's I weaponized those fuckers. Like alright, "I HAVE to live with you two because you're attached to me but if you give me back problems, I'm chopping you off" (reduction surgery, everyone. I wasn't gonna hacked them myself, dont be morbid.) So, I got out of speeding tickets and shit just by having big boobs and because I favored clothing that showed my cleavage. Cute patterned bras and such were still a nightmare (look I know DD's are not the biggest cup out there but STILL a fucking nightmare to shop for. I miss wearing sports bras with everything)
My sexual partners really thought they were the shit for playing with my boobs and was just unimpressedâ„¢ because I have little sensation in that area and REALLY there are other body parts that have more nerve endings and I would like attention there..."no, no, nope that's my bone." (But I digress) point is, I've objectified my boobs same as a lot of people did before me.
And it brings me to now... A moment in my life where I'm at peace with these two. Theyre big yeah, still a nightmare to shop for and a lot of people still look at them first than my face but they're mine! Part of me, and now I can look at them and say "hey you're kinda cute, look at those tiny beauty marks you've got. Oh you're soft, shall we forgo the bra today? Yes, let's do that."
What I'm trying to say is, sometimes it can take a decade and a half to like something about yourself or make peace with your body. It's a long ass process and no one can tell you how long it'll take.
Don't forget to love yourself, even if it's just a little bit.
