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@journeythroughtherain and I have a full blown plot out concept dubbed Tony Retires AU

In which Tony in fact retires after AOU, he leaves the state, Hell, he leaves the continent and moves into a castle in Italy.

It’s been a while!

I know, first I needed a break after Avengers: Endgame, the break kept stretching and stretching, I went down another fandom rabbit hole (fics only) and was in a cycle of denial, fret and more denial over the amount of time I had to prepare for my move from Puerto Rico to New York [happy to report that I arrived safe and sound on June 20th] 

So RL has been a doozy and I’m adapting to my new normal in the States, have some things to tie up this Friday and hopefully will get back in my writing groove [something that has suffered tremendously with the changes] 

Know that I’m here.

I should be sleeping but...

I have so much to write??? Finally found the second half of a fill prompt for @imaginetonyandbucky that i've been searching for months. I have the @tonystarkbingo squares to fill, my @winterironbang works to finish, Chapter 6 of A Stark Silence (@dfreeleopard thinking of you!) and I'm thinking of Ride to California (inspired by an AU-prompt blog) and Backfire, that has been sitting in the draftbox for 2 years (@jay345sal28 knows about this one) that's without counting the endless supplies of AU's with @dreamcatchersdaughter (Tattoo AU amongst the pile), the ones I throw at @rayshippouuchiha and @journeythroughtherain (Tony retires AU is a dream)

Quick update: lost my job due to budgets cuts, that sucked BUUUUUT...

I saw the ever wonderful cephalopod stan @tisfan posting for the @tonystarkbingo and wondered if I've got my thing in the mail and you know what..

I DID! (3 hour ago. I'm a disaster)

So, hopefully you'll see some new stuff around here.

I'm gonna be 29 in a couple of weeks and today I finally made peace with my tits. 15 years give or take.

When they started growing I had a deep resentment of my body because I DIDN'T WANT THEM. The bigger they grew, the harder was gor me to play with my group. Riding bikes and skates, volleyball, basketball, just plain all running. Because I had two fucking balls attached to my chest and they were gonna BOUNCE.

Also they were sexualized because of course they were and I HATED IT. (Why not a big ass to match my big thighs, I'd wonder)

Then in my late teens-early 20's I weaponized those fuckers. Like alright, "I HAVE to live with you two because you're attached to me but if you give me back problems, I'm chopping you off" (reduction surgery, everyone. I wasn't gonna hacked them myself, dont be morbid.) So, I got out of speeding tickets and shit just by having big boobs and because I favored clothing that showed my cleavage. Cute patterned bras and such were still a nightmare (look I know DD's are not the biggest cup out there but STILL a fucking nightmare to shop for. I miss wearing sports bras with everything)

My sexual partners really thought they were the shit for playing with my boobs and was just unimpressed™ because I have little sensation in that area and REALLY there are other body parts that have more nerve endings and I would like attention there..."no, no, nope that's my bone." (But I digress) point is, I've objectified my boobs same as a lot of people did before me.

And it brings me to now... A moment in my life where I'm at peace with these two. Theyre big yeah, still a nightmare to shop for and a lot of people still look at them first than my face but they're mine! Part of me, and now I can look at them and say "hey you're kinda cute, look at those tiny beauty marks you've got. Oh you're soft, shall we forgo the bra today? Yes, let's do that."

What I'm trying to say is, sometimes it can take a decade and a half to like something about yourself or make peace with your body. It's a long ass process and no one can tell you how long it'll take.

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