#personal gunk

i’ve been inactive a little while now, i do apologise to all the messages i’ve missed! just busy being depressed and watching zootopia 2…hope everyone had a good christmas.

i think how i use tumblr going forward is going to be a little different - how i manage this place in a post-shuu mental state, i suppose. i know most of you are here for shuu or tokyo ghoul, i’m going to write a long post on ghostalope about that and how i feel about everything in about February time, as opposed to the normal end of year waffle i post on there.i if my dates are correct, February of 2026 is 10 years since i first got obsessed with shuu, so i think this type of post is good to time with then. it will also officially be the year of the horse in February, and that sort of feels right too - the end of one cycle and the beginning of my horsey cycle.

anyway. hope everyone is okay. i am sorry i’m no good at being online or anything. things have been so so hard. i hate the cold and i am tired and i have been tired so long. there is so much wrong, but i keep on going. i don’t know when i’ll see you all next, but it might be in February. i don’t know what to do on here anymore, aha.

College starts again for me on Monday, i was able to get my timetable so i know roughly how much free time i will have + over the coming weeks will be working on adjusting to that - i have to do an extra course to guarantee a uni offer too, so this could be subject to change. It’s…a lot lol. As soon as I have my routine in order, and feel i have enough free time, i will be starting the re-read. I am still praying to start the re-read in October. personally i think aiming to start it on Halloween would be sick af - and it takes more pressure off me lmao. I know not setting a set date for the start of the re-read is probably very annoying, and all my updates are basically - ooooh maybe October guys idk yet - but hopefully my next update will be more exciting.

I have the Discord server to host the re-read in basically all set up already, as well as scheduling for the re-read. I’d hope the next update is the link to the server. I am still in dire need of moderators for the server. I’m not good with technology and I’m a busy little bee, so if anyone would be interested in helping out with moderating the discord server, etc - please drop me a message to discuss it (warning that my reply time is quite slow in advance). I will also be making a side blog to host the re-read on tumblr - featuring weekly discussion posts and the like - for those who would prefer not to use Discord. As I said, hopefully all that will be in my next update.

I know I am not very active at the moment, but I have a few exciting things planned to post. Hopefully a short fic oneshot, new analysis post, and I’m hoping to post my ghoul biology headcanons soon too. My new course is lots of report writing and essays and research, so I was hoping in my free time I could build on those skills by making things related to TG (Shuu) - so hopefully a lot of long-winded TG posts in the near future. Also, of course, @shuutism will be coming back soon. I had to stop posting on there for a bit bc being online is hard.

I failed a class twice because the like 3 assignments and teacher scared me so much I stopped going to class despite the fact that it was required and my student counselor made me cry over it.