about to be one step closer to surgery (doing my gait analysis to get a better idea of how my legs are rotated)
had a nightmare last night about surgery, I want to do it but I'm so scared of it. it's a major surgery and I'm likely getting metal in my knees and that's just terrifying but it needs to happen because I'm losing cartilage so 🥲
it'll be my first major surgery, I've had minor ones before but never anything like this. I legitimately have 7 things wrong with my knees that all need treatment. it's frustrating, I don't know what to do and I can't tell if I'm making the right decision. I'll be the first person recorded getting this particular surgery for miserable malalignment syndrome instead of just doing a derotational osteotomy. I'm honestly very scared that I'll get surgery, it won't work, and then I'll be in the same or worse boat and need to get a derotational osteotomy to preserve my cartilage. I don't know what to do and I just want to cry about the whole situation.
