Any respect I had for this fandom is gone.

I recently just found a post that said that the gore anons aren’t real and were only made to make people feel bad for nonshippers (I’m not going to say who it is so they don’t get harassed).

Wow. I’m barely holding myself back from screaming. This is what we have amounted to? Seriously?? There are people getting driven to suicide, depression, anxiety, fearing for their lives, and off of the fandom entirely, and you’re going to say that this is all fake? You’re sick. You are a sick human being and I hope you realize just how wrong you are in the future. These people have literally been invading the askboxes of people all over Tumblr. One look at a few of the blogs that only post family content proves that.

I’ve seen people delete their blogs. I’ve seen people try to commit suicide. I’ve seen and felt all kinds of horrific things because of these people.

And you’re trying to tell me, tell the COMMUNITY, that this is all a hoax?

I can’t believe you all. I can’t believe this is the conclusion we come to. I can’t believe we’re silencing the victims in this fandom and blaming them for the abuse they’re facing.

This is vile. I wanted to give some of these people the benefit of the doubt, but I can’t anymore. My hope is lost.

Victims of the gore anons, I am so sorry. I feel awful that your experiences are being invalidated right now. I’m always here for anyone who wants to talk, no matter who you are.

Ughhhh I can list so many reasons why!!!! N, Nimbasa city, the battle at the beginning of BW where you mess up your room, the castle, THE MUSIC. I don't know how they can make the legendary fight theme better, but they'll find a way.

And if they do BW2 content?? Aspertia's lookout, Pokestar Studios, Roxie in general, the plasma ship, the scene with Kyurem fusing!!! It'd all be amazing!! Hugh was personally a refreshing rival too, and it'd be fun to see him come back!!

Unova is a wonderful generation and the versions are so... different and cool?? Towns that completely different depending on your game... its just so neat!!!

I hope they come soon. Pokemon makes me happy, and I'll be happy when a new game or remake comes out regardless,,

For a while, I have seen posts defending both Earth and Nexus and understood both sides. I didn’t really know where I stood on this issue as a Nexus fan myself. However, recently, I looked back at a few of the posts defending Nexus and realized they were being unfair to Earth. This is where I believe the fandom has a sort of third-person bias.

Before New Moon changed his name, we, the viewers, saw his slow descent into madness. We saw how Solar’s death affected him; how it changed his mindset. Did Earth? Did New Moon tell Earth that he wasn’t doing well? No, he didn’t. During one of the therapy episodes, he told Earth he was doing fine. He lied to Earth about his mental state. Earth couldn’t have known what he was going through like we did because she doesn’t watch the show.

I believe some of us Nexus fans (myself included) have a tendency to be upset at the family for disowning Nexus so quickly. I think this is where we have a sort of bias because we see things from the third person—we see everyone’s views—while the characters don’t. The characters see from only their own perspective. With the Earth Q&A episode, I began to try and see things more by Earth’s side. And I think she was right. I implore you to take a moment and think as if you are Earth. You told your brother that you were there for him if he needed someone to talk to. He told you he was fine. You did not know just how awful his mental state was until he threw your insecurities back at you. And then he said you were simply collateral damage. In this situation, Earth is rightfully upset.

Another argument for the Nexus fans, however, is that the family would have noticed just how out of character he was acting. I think this is another area where we have a third-person bias, but for a different reason. We aren’t feeling the emotions they are. We aren’t feeling betrayal or sadness. Those kinds of emotions can cloud a person’s judgement, causing them to not really notice whether their actions are normal or not; causing them to not really notice if the people around them are acting as they should. We haven’t just been almost killed by our brother, but Earth has. All kinds of emotions would logically be clouding her judgement right now.

In conclusion, I believe that, as the viewers, we tend to judge characters by what we see. We don’t often try to imagine what they see; what emotions are plaguing their typically clear judgement. Because of this, we often have a sort of bias against characters without really thinking what they’re going through. Please note that this is not an attack against Nexus fans. I am one myself. This is just a possible explanation (please note, not an excuse, just an explanation) for why the characters act the way they do and why they disowned Nexus so swiftly, specifically Earth.

Hello, Internet! I know I start a lot of my posts with that. Because I don’t know who I’m going to meet. When I joined Tumblr, I didn’t know what to expect. I didn’t know who I’d get along with or who I’d avoid. I didn’t know what kind of experience I’d have.

I did not expect to gain so many mutuals, friends, followers, and the like in under a year. Thank you to everyone I met on here either through ask blogs, similar fandoms, or the Sun and Moon Show. I appreciate each and every one of you.

However, on the opposite side of the coin, I didn’t expect to get put on a list of people who “harass” others (which, if you know me, you know is not true). I did not expect to have to block so many people. Call me naive, but I thought I was going to have fun on this platform.

Before I get into the deep and personal things, if you’re one of the “big blogs” and you’re reading this, look away. Scroll past, please. This is not for you. This is for my friends and my mutuals. Maybe even people who don’t know me.

Everyone gone? Let’s start.

I hated the ship at first because it reminded me of where I was as a younger child in school. I used to be shipped with my family all the time. I was deeply disturbed by it and uncomfortable with the notion of kissing someone who I spent the lot of my life with. I was appalled by the idea. When I saw the same thing happening with SolarMoon, I ignored it at first. I supported blogs who disliked it as much as I did. I didn’t harass anyone, nor did anyone I know harass others.

I was satisfied with sharing my opinion publicly and blocking those I did not agree with.

Today, coming home from the hospital, I saw a list with my name on it claiming I support harassment. If you know me, you know instantly that this is not true. I have not harassed a single person in my life and nor do I plan to. I built my blog as a safe place for victims of any kind. I put ships in my DNI that made me uncomfortable. I curated my experience as one is supposed to on this platform.

So what I saw took me aback.

I’m shaking while writing this. I have naught but a block of incoherent thoughts of what to do. Should I delete this blog and start over while risking the loss of my beloved friends and mutuals? Do I truly wish to say goodbye to the writings and drawings I posted here? Is this what I want?

Reader, that is not what I want. But I fear that the big blogs have put me between a rock and a hard place. I don’t think I’m stable enough mentally to handle any harassment towards me.

I am unsure of what I truly yearn to do. I have been slandered by lies in the very first fandom I ever joined. Throughout this whole experience, I have been asking myself, “Is this what fandom is like? Do people spread lies about others as commonly as they do here? Is this truly what people enjoy?” Of course, I have realized that none of these inquiries are true. However, it still hurts me to think that I may have to abandon my progress here. It hurts me to think I may never interact with fandom again.

I sincerely hope the big blogs are happy. I hope that slandering random children online who have been sent gore and other horrific things makes them satisfied. I hope they find joy in what they have done. I hope they enjoy ruining many people’s experiences and even lives.

Because I don’t.

Following my religion, I pray that they will one day see the light ahead and realize the shadows their lies have casted.

However, I find it likely that this is not a reliable possibility.

In case I do leave, I would like to say my thanks for the people I met on here. You all are amazing.

To anyone who I may have wronged accidentally: I’m sorry. I never meant to cause anyone harm.