Pammon: I-I-I think everything must go back to the fact that I had a very anxious childhood. You know, my, my mother never had time for me. You know, when you're - when you're the middle child in a family of sixty-two, you don't get any attention. I mean, how's it possible? And I’ve always had this, this fear that I’m going to be turfed out onto a mountainside, which plagued me. My brother had this prophecy of doom like I’ve said, and, you know, the kid disappeared about five minutes after he was born. And my job, don't get me started on, 'cause it really annoys me. I was not cut out to be a warrior, I'll tell you right now. I-I-I feel physically inadequate. I, I, my whole life I've never, I've never been able to lift more than ten times my own body weight, and, and when you get down to it, stabbing people is, you know, ewwww, is not my idea of a rewarding career. It's this whole gung-ho glory and honor thing that, that, that I - you know, I can't get, I try but I can't get it. I mean, you know what is it, I'm supposed to do everything for Troy, and, and what about my needs? What about me? I mean, I gotta believe there's someplace out there that's better than this! Otherwise, I'll just curl up in a fetal position and weep! The whole system makes me feel... insignificant!
