hurts (v7c2 drabble)
His chest hurts.
Dismissed from IronwoodāJamesāthe Generalās office, Oscar only has half an ear turned to the conversation between Ruby and the Ace Ops, orāhe doesnāt know who they are. He doesnāt care.
His chest hurts.
The place where he imagines Ozpinās half of his soul resides aches constantly, now, has since the confrontation in the snow. Below and behind his heart, in the hollow emptiness of his ribcage, a tiny little sphere of misery and self-hatred. No one has noticed it, how it burns when heās surrounded by them, how it doubles and turns knifelike whenever he hears Qrowās voice. Oscar doubts theyād care. Well, Ruby would. Maybe.
But heās not watching her. Neither of them are.
Theyāre watching Qrow, ambling down the staircase behind them. Theyāre watching IronwoodāJames, always Jamesāfollow behind. Oscarās watching them talk and Ozpinās watching them embrace and Oscarās vision goes gold and itās Ozpinās heart that rends in two because itās James and itās Qrow and heās close enough to touch them but he canāt and heās supposed to be there with them and he failed them and ohgods heās going to breakā
āOscar?ā
And itās over. Itās Oscar and Oscar alone who looks up at her. She looks strangely out of focus. āYeah?ā
She places a gentle hand on his cheek. Itās wet, and cold. āYouāre crying,ā she says. āAre you okay?ā
āIām fine.ā He smiles up at her. āJust thinking about how we got to where we are now.ā
His chest hurts.










