#overworrying

Author: Autobot2001 Genre: Fanfiction Fandom: Transformers Rating: E Warning: None pairing: Drift X Jamie (OC) Description: Jamie is sick with a cold, but past trauma causes Drift to struggle to leave Jamie's side even though he knows she'll sleep all day.

Day 10; @fluffyfebruary: care @fluffbruary: flush

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oh well!

So I don’t update this as much as I should - and I should, because this was made to be a healthy outlet for all the grad school + teaching duties thrust upon me by, well, myself and then my university.

My kids (wow, it’s not like there’s only just a three year age difference) have an exam on the 31st, and since it’s now the 22nd, I think it seems appropriate to worry about them? Or not? Honestly, I feel like a super-concerned mom. My mom told me not to worry too much, and so did my colleagues. I really do want them to do well, and pass this course with flying colors, and to have learned at least a little bit from me.

So, that’s it basically, re: teaching duties. I’m always worried if I’m doing enough, or maybe not enough, to teach this kids. Then again, they are of college-age, so maybe I shouldn’t worry about them too much - they could probably help themselves? At this point?

Anyway.

Some people have seen me preparing for my discussion classes the day before, and joke around that I’m a “good teacher” (really, nothing serious). Honestly, a lot of people seem to mistake me for being responsible and organized. I like fooling myself into thinking that I am responsible and organized, but no, that’s never the case.

I worry too much. I overthink. It’s one of my hobbies and worst habits. (At the same time I also wish to not give any fucks... how peculiar XD) Regardless, this over-worrying pushes me to prepare early and go over notes and answer practice problems and such. This also pushes me to be over-concerned of people’s reactions to me - and now especially, my students. Hence, people think I’m somewhat more organized than I actually am. Sadly friends, I’m not. I’m a big mess, and it comes as a surprise to me everyday that my university honestly trusted me with 50+ kids. So :))

My friend and colleague (who is a Slytherin, and who I trust to know about things like this, what I’m about to say) told me to just stop overthinking and stop thinking so hard about what other people think. Because, he said, at the end of the day, it doesn’t matter. You can’t please everyone, and it’s not your fault if the students want to help themselves or not. 

Stressed out about overworrying about being anxious #MondayBlogs

I’m an incredibly anxious person. I over worry about everything. For example, I once panicked about what I was going to wear on a flight to interview for a job in Oregon… BEFORE I had even submitted my job application for the position. I’m always thinking 15 steps ahead, and at least 13 of those steps are worst case scenarios and what could go wrong.

I live with the constant thought that people…