#oobe

So.. I had an OOBE last night (it had been a long time since my last OOBE, so it was actually nice to see that I can still experience it) and it was the shortest and weirdest one so far. Every time I astral project, I experience something different and discover another side of it and honestly that part is a bit fun. Of course, it would have been even better if I had shifted.

It was so strange.. At first I don’t even think I realized that I was having an OOBE and that part was actually pretty funny. In this experience, I felt like I was both the observer and have an astral body at the same time. The weird part is this: I don’t even know how to explain it properly, but I saw my astral body while I was in observer mode. Isn’t the point of the astral body to see things through it? So how was I able to see my astral body as an observer? (first time having an astral body btw) Anyway, I realized I was having an OOBE when I saw my astral facial expression. I was like “wait, I’m astralling right now, go and shift!” but my astral face expression looked kind of funny because I was literally trying to understand what was happening. At first it (my astral body) was frowning, then raising its eyebrows. (but I saw it, because I was an observer) I looked like a blue hologram, like a ghost. a transparent, slightly glowing blue ghost. Casper, is that you?

Then I told myself that I needed to shift and started thinking about my DR self. Like, I could clearly see my DR self and my DR bedroom, but my main problem is not being able to embody my DR. I’ll talk about that later. (and I also saw photo frames on the wall, I’m writing this down so I don’t forget because it was something I noticed after the astral state.)

When I said “shift” to myself, I ended up in a place that felt like the void. I’m not completely sure if it was the void because my past void experiences were a bit different from this one. I heard sounds like I was underwater. You know when you dive completely underwater and all the sounds become muffled and distorted? It was exactly like that. And my vision was black and white but also felt like I was underwater at the same time. That void-like nothingness felt really strange. This time, the white star-like dots I saw were smaller and looked more like tiny particles underwater. After staying there for a while, I came back. Honestly, trying again felt a bit difficult. (irl it was almost 2 hours but to me it felt like just a few minutes.)

And I realized something: Whenever I try to shift to my DR, I get so caught up in the astral excitement in that moment that I think about my DR self, but I don’t think like my DR self. That’s probably why shifting to random places feels easier for me because I don’t overthink it. Embodying a random version of myself somewhere feels more natural. But when I focus on my DR, even during astral or lucid dream states, I push myself so hard to stay in that state that I lose the natural flow. If I just stayed calm and let things flow, everything would probably resolve on its own. It’s like saying “do not focus on symptoms” but then focusing on them and ending up back here again.

So in my next astral experience, since I’ve already realized this, I need to stay calm and learn how to control myself better. I definitely need to reduce the panic and excitement.

But still, I’m happy because every experience I have is different and unique. As I notice the things I need to realize, it feels like the layers between my states of consciousness are getting thinner and I’m slowly understanding better what I should do and what actually works for me.