#on loyalty

I'm a dog for you

Shelter dogs are still just dogs. You are still a dog. You still love.

— quote from a piece someone rewrote.

hold on until your fingers bleed. an ode to devotion — charles leclerc + ferrari.

gilded grinding bone || eusebia

an npc webweave to get me back into the headspace for planning my campaign that we haven't played for a few months. eusebia is such a complicated character, but she can be encapsulated by two things: faith and cruelty. her faith to the plural and her cruelty to all those who oppose them and therefore her. but i love her.

“you think you’re doing this because you’re loyal. but you’re not. you’re just scared.”

We twirled in circles, tethered tight, But threads unraveled in the quiet night. A shadow whispered, soft, and still, As balance faltered against my will.

You wore your silence like a veil, While I searched for truth in a shifting gale. A weight unseen, a glance unspoken, A fracture formed, though never broken.

The air grew heavy, a distant hum, As what once was, no longer come. And in the space where trust once lay, The quiet grew louder, pushing us away.

The weight of justice, you all failed to hold, A story of utmost cruelty, left untold. Now what remains is empty space, Where loyalty once had a place.

Here is the thing about being accused of being a stan of William and Catherine. The accusation is absolutely true in my case. The truth is that have never been a fan of them.

Fan culture is transient. Fan culture is superficial. Fan culture will sell it’s mother down the river just for social media clout. I am not interested in being part of a mob that can be led by its nose based on bad takes. To me, there is nothing superior about fan culture.

There is a reason why I have devoted endless hours of my life to uplift William, Catherine and their children. The reasons have nothing to do with pretty frocks or shiny baubles.

My reasons have to do with their public personas being an extension of my personal value system. At the end of the day, when it comes to people who I choose to give my energy to, I am loyal to my core. You will never hear me publicly condemn someone I respect just to make myself look better, be it family or friends. The Waleses are neither family or friends to me, but they do mean something to me.

After four decades of lived experience, I have learned that having people in your life who will stand by you through thick and thin is rare.

Loyalty isn't for the faint of heart. Therefore to me, there is nothing sexier than Loyalty.