As grateful as I am for the gift of creation — writing, more specifically — that has been bestowed upon the human race, I sometimes cannot help but feel that, in certain light, it resembles a mockery of sorts. I am certain that much of the weight of this conclusion is borne by my own inadequacy, and I can only hope that, for some, their creations are flawless reflections of their intent. (Yet I doubt that anyone who has achieved perfection in their craft could go on creating.)
Why mockery? Because a vast, untamed world engulfs us in its wildness, with eight billion more worlds orbiting our own, and even that is just a fraction of the vast unknown. How can mere words ever suffice to convey the peace, the war, the life, the death within me as I live through the Peace, the War, the Life, the Death around me? How can one enclose all of it in language without diminishing its essence — when every part is vital? How can you hold the entirety of the ocean in a lake or cradle all the earth’s soil in your hands?
And yet, I’ve only got two. And from the way things are going, it seems they’re going to take the lake away from me. I know, ultimately, that this frustration is born of my own incompetence — but what a cruel trick! To recognize the impossibility of it and still dig in, trying to hold all that brown gold in hands too meager and too small.
A mouse dashes headfirst toward the wall — a bruise, a death, or a hidden door?