#obsessioncore

ʜᴏᴡ ɪɴꜰᴇʀɪᴏʀ ᴀᴍ ɪ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀᴇ ᴅʀᴀᴡɴ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴜɴᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴀɴᴛ ʙᴇᴀꜱᴛ ? 

ʏᴏᴜ ꜱᴀʏ ɪᴛꜱ ɴᴏᴛ ᴍʏ ʙᴜꜱɪɴᴇꜱꜱ ʟᴇᴛ ɢᴏ ᴏꜰ ɪᴛ ɴᴏᴡ

“ʜᴏᴡ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴀɴᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ʙᴏʏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪꜱɴᴛ ᴍᴇ?”

ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴍᴇᴀɴ ʜᴏᴡ? ɪᴍ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴡɪꜱʜ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ᴡᴏʀᴋ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴇʀ

Therapy won't make me better.

But you would.

my most fucked up desire is wanting him to make me cut myself for him - or him doing it for me.

not even in a sexual manner, just because he can...and the adrenaline, the mark it'd leave, it'd feel good.

i confess it.

But the other part of me… she just wants to be accepted. Allowed in, to be noticed, to be loved, to be missed… I just want to be happy.