rush spends half of her time convinced that the simplest little thing is going to completely fuck their relationship and the other half of the time trying to forget that and enjoy it before that happens so when she's being a douche to people and they try to use that and kind of throw her own paranoid thoughts at her ('lol wat does he see in you that's not going to last it's probably just bs u rly think he's just dating u and there's no catch here he's getting something out of this no way in hell is he going to stick around and put up with your shit for much longer') to be a douche back at her it usually kind of works and she spends a few days in a rly bitchy and withdrawn kind of mood @ liam until he's all jESUS FCKING CHRIST and forces it out of her (tho it comes out in makes absolutely no sense rant form) and kind of reassures her enough to keep the paranoia mostly blocked off for awhile
sometimes when she gets up late and needs to hurry up and shower and get to work and liam's already in there she goes in with every intention of just shoving him out of the way and showering fast and leaving but it never actually works and she's been late more than a few times because of it
rush has grossly disgustingly completely ridiculously ticklish knees and tried grossly disgustingly completely ridiculously hard not to let liam notice (he did)
as a pretty general rule, the more rush insults something about liam, the more she actually likes it - she also makes up really fucking stupid excuses for being near him because just saying she wants to be would clearly be the worst thing in the world
liam stashes packs of her brand of cigarettes all over the place and even though she does notice and it should irritate her because she can buy her own u albino fucktard she pretends she doesn't notice bc lbr free cigarettes and by the time she's finding them she's out of her own and in gross need of more
as soon as her mom found out about/showed up to meet liam unannounced she started making obnoxious daily phonecalls asking about wedding plans and occasionally showing up and dropping even more obnoxious and painfully obvious hints at liam that made rush shove her right back out the door
occasionally liam will do absolutely nothing or something really stupid and insignificant like run his hand through his hair or brush his fingers against hers or steal her cigarette out of her mouth and it'll be just stupid and insignificant but somehow manage to catch her completely unaware and hit her with a huge wave of feelings that she has no fucking clue what to do with so she just kisses him out of nowhere and clings to his hand or arm and keeps doing it until the better part of the sudden feelings surge passes and even then doesn't let go of his arm or hand but says something like 'nothing, retard' (which is pretty much the common form of i love you from rush to liam since the actual words stick in her throat and very rarely let themselves be choked out or only work in a mumble when she's exhausted and her guard's down and they're too muffled against his chest to really be distinguishable anyways) when he asks what that was for
