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Thorin knows as well as anyone he must tell them what happened when him and Y/n were young all those years ago after the Mirkwood elves betrayed the dwarves of Erebor. I listen as Thorin draws a breath. "When Y/n and I were young we were friends at the very least, my sister was her greatest friend, one of the few who accepted her. It happened when Smaug took Erebor and the elves did not come that my hate for them was created, along with it a new found hate and distrust for my dear friend. It happened when Fili was six and Kili was one. We were at Dis' house and she was trying to talk to me, I knew she missed me and I knew it caused her pain that her best friend couldn't even look at her without disgust in my eyes. That was the day I snapped, I yelled at her." He pauses, that was when Y/n heard enough and stopped listening continuing her walk to her far away from him. "I told her she was filthy and she was as good as dead to me and that she had no purpose in the blue mountains nor anywhere. I told her I wouldn't care if she was dead. She ran out crying and that was the last day I had seen her. She still visited Dis every now and then letting her know she was still alive. It was from Dis I found out the life Y/n had put herself in, the life without a home, the life of death, the life of protecting those who needed it and defending middle earth against evil. I have never regretted something more in my life, it was after she left I realized it, that I had driven away the one person I had ever truly loved half elf or not. I tried to find her for years before I gave up and let the hate for her consume me once more. I was angry earlier, angry that she could give up her life so easily for someone like me. Someone that had spoken all those horrible things to her. I was angry because I still love her and it occurred to me that even though she wasn't around for 76 years it still gave me comfort when Dis told me she was still alive every few months. But I was not comforted earlier, I was scared." Thorin says as everyone just watches him. Thorin had never told a soul other then Dis that he loved her. He knew now that they would understand why he was so upset with her. But he also knew he would have to make amends with her soon for if he did not.. he feared he would lose her once more. The garden was peaceful and quiet it was one of the things Y/n loved, being with these plants and having the deer and rabbits and whatever other animals walk up to her and play with her. This time was like no other as a fawn walked over to her wanting to play. Y/n laughed and scratched its ears, she ran with the doe chasing her then she would stop and let the deer run passed her. "You wanna play hide and seek? I'll hide and you can find me." She says to the fawn, it shakes her head wanting to play. So the fawn hid its face so it couldn't see where she was going and she ran quietly to a hiding spot. It wasn't long after that the deer walked passed her that Y/n jumped out and scared it, but the fawn got over it quickly and bounced on her licking her face. Not too far away though, a certain king was watching with a smile on his face.

The morning we started we were halted when Bilbo caught up for the journey, each on our ponies. We travel for a quite a while days and nights pass, finally we reach another spot to camp on our 10th day of the journey. Thorin assigns us tasks to complete. I am to be with Kili and Fili guarding the ponies. Some time passes before we realize we are missing two standing and wondering what could have taken them and uprooted so many trees. Bilbo walks up with our food and we look around some more, then Fili sees a light, we walk over quietly to be met with three mountain trolls! Fili and Kili send him to go fetch them and then run for the others for back up. I wait and watch. Soon they have Bilbo and they're hanging him upside down when the company jumps in and starts attacking I run out and slice the horses free while moving into battle, the dwarves are being thrown around but they still fight, that is until the trolls have Bilbo by the arms and legs.  They lay down their arms and I nod at Thorin letting him know I have a plan and I step into the shadows. I listen for anything then I hear them talking about dawn and I know we have to play for time. I turn my cloak over to the black side so I can easily blend into the shadows. They are half wits so they won't even know. I sneak up and I know Thorin sees me and I stab one in the butt with my dagger and he shoots up rubbing himself and complaining. Drifting back into the shadows I make my move again this time on the one turning some of the dwarves on the fire.Bilbo catches on the what I'm doing and starts giving the trolls "pointers" on how to cook the dwarves. I stab his foot and he helps hitting the troll beside asking him what he thinks he's doing I smirk and shrink back once more. Then I make my move on the last one jumping up soundlessly and poking him in the head using the momentum to push myself into the trees and I land without a single sound chaos breaks out as they argue then Gandalf jumps out. "May the dawn take you all." Then one mutters "who's he?" As Gandalf breaks the rock. Soon we find ourselves in their cave, seeing treasures and trinkets, then something catches my eye. I gasp. It can't be, it cannot be. There hanging with more trinkets and such is my mothers bow and quiver as well as her necklace. I stay frozen and Gandalf walks up. "I always thought she went missing.." I say as he places a comforting hand on my shoulder. My voice turns cold as I grab them off the wall replacing them with my own bow and quiver. "I'm glad they turned to stone, one less evil to worry about and multiple less murders." Everyone looks at me wondering what the outburst was about and why I was so upset over a bow and quiver and a necklace. I hear Thorin approach Gandalf about it but he says he will have to ask me. Leave it to me to fall for someone as cold as Thorin. My ears pick up a sound as everyone comes out. "Something's coming!" I yell at the same time Gandalf says run. I let everyone go first,  it we are quickly met by not a danger but Radagast the brown. He tells tales of evils and a necromancer pulling out a blade. Then the howls erupt. "Is that a wolf?" Bilbo asks. "No wolf master Bilbo, something far worse." Then I see it notching a arrow I yell for them to get to down and they comply just as it jumps I shoot the warg. Then we are on the run again we make it to a rocky area and try to find somewhere to hide, Gandalf will find one. I know he will. I yell for them to stay behind me as they are more important then I am at this moment. Wargs and orcs start to surround and I waste no time shooting the orcs with my arrows before pulling out my swords and killing the wargs that jump towards us. As I kill one Gandalf leaps up "Here you fools!" And they all go down. I know where they are headed much to thorins distaste when he will find out as I hear the horn of Rivendell and the riders close behind with arrows helping me to kill them. I would rather die then have any of the company die, so I know I have done well. As we finish them off lord Elrond rides up "come Y/n, we have business I assume." As he helps me into the horse we ride towards the last homely home. I hop off as we approach the company and I run over to make sure they are all okay. Much to my thanks they are. Thorin looks at me with thankful eyes for what I have done. Then the pain hits the pain I did not feel when fighting, a wargs razor sharp claws had their way with my back which is covered by a cloak. My face pales and they all notice as I start falling from lightheadedness due to loss of blood. Thorin removes my cloaca and a look of horror graces his face as well as anger. He turns to elrond with pleading eyes, "Please... Help her." He asks and soon I'm in the healers room where she works her magic healing me like nothing happened. I thank her as I put aside the feelings of being tired and change into the dress elrond kept since my last visit while he has new traveling clothes made for me. I quickly braid my hair and walk to meet the company. As soon as he sees me Thorin stands up anger lacing his every movement. "You put yourself in danger Y/n and for what, why would you not come with us? Why did you keep fighting and let yourself almost die?" I say nothing as the feelings of guilt arise for making him angry. "ANSWER ME!" He yells and I wince. "Because at that moment of time, making sure you guys made it to safety was my top priority. Your guys life and reason for the journey is far greater then my purpose. I rid the world of evil that is the life you condemned me to and the life I follow, ridding the world of that evil gives my life a purpose after you cast me away. This is what I do and who I am, remember the reasons why next time." I say walking away with tears escaping down my face. Fili and Kili get up to come and comfort me. I hold up a hand to stop them and I grab a biscuit and make my leave down the path to the garden so I may be alone. I am not that far down the path when I hear Gandalf yell at Thorin and the company get mad. It is time they heard the story of why I left. It is time Thorin told them.

Thorin son of Thrain son of Thor; King under the Mountain.

A collaboration with my friend Cat, he did the line art, I did the coloring.  With those ill-fated (yet ever compelling) Durins, it's nice to think of a few good times in there.  A tired, but kind uncle Thorin enrapturing his young nephews with some tale from elsewhere.

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