#nyb

my New York baby .... 🤍

took his truck and picked me up at Newark, then he..

You decided to take a stroll on the park. Feeling of nostalgia as you first saw the bench along the way. You decided to sat down. Surprisingly, the bench is still intact. It’s been years that you decided to visit your hometown.

 You graduated college and find a stable job in a city. Thinking that maybe it’s enough for you to live in a peaceful life. You thought that choosing the life of independence is already enough for you. Somehow, you felt something is missing. A part of you that may doubt your decisions. You knew what it was, but you’re afraid to admit. Despite being single for life, you left someone that’s dear to your heart.

 You knew he changed because of your own actions. You knew who he was from the start. But you were afraid, despite he may regain his memories. You were afraid that he may hate you because of it. Acting like you want to help him out of kindness, turns out to be guilt that haunts you every day.

 He may think that you helped him out of pity, but that wasn’t the case. You want to help him, despite his old self. You decided to give him a chance to redeem himself from the causes he did. Even if he didn’t remember, you had a choice to leave him alone by himself. Somehow, you decided to reach your hand and help him.

 Although, for years that both of you living together. He develops feelings for you. You knew he’s not the peter you once knew. He changed. He helped you along your struggles in life. Both of you have wonderful memories of each other. You just felt that he deserves better. If he knew that you were the cause of his memory loss. Will he still have feelings for you?

You have feelings for him as well. Guilt will always have their way to build up a wall between both of you. A wall with a single door that only you could open. He can only wait for you in the other side. You knew he had a patience to wait for you if you’re not ready to answer. You knew he will respect your answer if you turn him down. Somehow you decided to tell him that you’re not ready to answer him. With the expected result. You decided to leave your hometown since you just graduated college and find a job.

 You had time to think about it. Sometimes you almost forgot due to work. It’s been 3 years you left. After spending your life alone. You finally realized, a life without him is meaningless. You couldn’t see him in the couch where he proclaimed as his territory. A freezer with a missing tub of ice cream that he may eat without you knowing. His stern expression that leads everyone misunderstood if he’s in a bad mood even though he was thinking of the cat he saw in the window. Realization which leads you to decide to leave and went back just to see him.

 You were embarrassed to go back to your apartment where he currently staying at. You decided to walk in the park to ease your mind before you meet him. You were sitting in the bench for a while. You remembered that you were confused that he didn’t came to sit next to you as you decided to look for him instead. So, you decided to stand up and looked for the spot were you first met him.

 You eventually found the tree. Surprisingly, you encountered a familiar figure. Laying in the grass, wearing the same purple sweater. He was… sleeping. You smiled, it’s like replaying the old memory were you first met him. Thinking that maybe he still the peter you once knew.

 You felt that you’re ready to take a step, opening the door to let him in. You went closer to him as you crouched, poking him by the shoulder to wake him up. He eventually woke up. He turned around and somehow you could see an awe in his eyes when he landed his gaze unto you.

 “Y/n?... Is it really you?”

 Asking for confirmation whether he’s in a dream or not. You reached your hand towards him.

 “Why don’t you see for yourself?”