Jul 20, 2020
So I am not going away to college this yearĀ
At allĀ
I feel like nothing is worth it anymoreĀ
I just really wanted to get out of this fucking stateĀ
out of this houseĀ
To a live that might be worth livingĀ
Where I can be gay and not be scared of my co-workersĀ
finding outĀ
Why? WHY?!Ā Ā
I know my life is better than othersĀ
But I canāt help it
I am jealous of people who were able to follow their dreams
Before the age of fucking 23Ā
I feel like a complete failureĀ
For not standing up to my momĀ
When I was youngerĀ
For not putting my foot downĀ
Saying I didnāt want to beĀ āhomeschooledāĀ
AnymoreĀ
My younger self fucked up my lifeĀ
