Jul 20, 2020
So I am not going away to college this year
At all
I feel like nothing is worth it anymore
I just really wanted to get out of this fucking state
out of this house
To a live that might be worth living
Where I can be gay and not be scared of my co-workers
finding out
Why? WHY?!
I know my life is better than others
But I can’t help it
I am jealous of people who were able to follow their dreams
Before the age of fucking 23
I feel like a complete failure
For not standing up to my mom
When I was younger
For not putting my foot down
Saying I didn’t want to be ‘homeschooled’
Anymore
My younger self fucked up my life
