So I am not going away to college this yearÂ
At allÂ
I feel like nothing is worth it anymoreÂ
I just really wanted to get out of this fucking stateÂ
out of this houseÂ
To a live that might be worth livingÂ
Where I can be gay and not be scared of my co-workersÂ
finding outÂ
Why? WHY?! Â
I know my life is better than othersÂ
But I canât help it
I am jealous of people who were able to follow their dreams
Before the age of fucking 23Â
I feel like a complete failureÂ
For not standing up to my momÂ
When I was youngerÂ
For not putting my foot downÂ
Saying I didnât want to be âhomeschooledâÂ
AnymoreÂ
My younger self fucked up my lifeÂ















