flag id: a flag with 5 stripes. in order, they are light green, turquoise, very dark grey, faded red, faded pink, and off-white. end id.

banner id: a 1600x200 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting. those on my / dni may still use my terms, so do not recoin them.’ in large white text in the center. the text takes up two lines, split at the slash. end id.

incapasitioning/incapasitional: a term for trans people who have little to no realistic chance of being able to transition at any point in their lives (this may be due to medical reasons, where one lives, etc.) and therefore have to figure out how to deal with their non-transitioned body, living as their assigned gender, etc.

[pt: incapasitioning/incapasitional: a term for trans people who have little to no realistic chance of being able to transition (this may be due to medical reasons, where one lives, etc.) and therefore has to figure out how to deal with their non-transitioned body, living as their assigned gender, etc. end pt]

for anon! the term is 'incapa' from 'incapable' + 'sitioning' from 'transitioning'/'sitional' from 'transitional'!

color meanings:

blue, pink, and white are all included to represent how not being able to transition doesn't make a person less trans

the blue and pink are adjusted from the nontransitioning flag, since this is under the nontransitioning umbrella

green represents healing one's relationship with their non-transitioned body

blue represents making peace with one's non-transitioned body

dark grey represents any negative feelings one might have towards their circumstances

red represents perseverence and strength

pink represents kindness towards oneself and one's body

white represents the perfection of one's trans identity

I've been using my blogger account more than this, but lately, as my home life is currently stuck in neutral, I've been exploring the option of being a non transitioning transsexual. I guess I should clarify. The option part is the non transitioning and not the being transsexual, I didn't get a choice there.

There's VERY little information out there and a lot of other personal accounts and research seem to be against the notion. If I was single and my life circumstances were different, I would explore transition to no end, but that's not the case with me. I made a promise to my wife and my love for her greatly exceeds my love for myself. It's in her hands how to proceed, but if she can stay with me knowing that I'm TS/TG and out (I'm not hiding it, nor am I ashamed anymore), then I want to stay with her. If she can't, then I guess it's HRT for me. I know some in the community claim that it's a do or die thing, and trust me, I was close to the die part, but life isn't always so black and white.