Purple Rain | Megumi Fushiguro x Reader
The shift in Megumi hadn't been overnight; it was a slow, agonizing erosion of the person you loved. It started with the missed dates, which you excused as the heavy burden of being a sorcerer, but it morphed into a blatant disregard for your existence.
You remember the night you passed your own examsāa milestone you had worked toward for a yearāand Megumi didn't even look up from his map when you told him. "Thatās nice," heād muttered, his tone flat and bored, as if your joy was a chore he had to endure. Later that week, when you were sick with a fever that left you shivering, he didn't offer water or comfort. Instead, he complained about the sound of your coughing, eventually moving to sleep in the common room because your illness was "disrupting his focus." He made you feel like a burden for having basic human needs, shrinking your world until you were walking on eggshells just to avoid his scowl.
By the time you decided to leave, your spirit was a patchwork of small resentments. You recalled the way he would speak over you in front of Maki and Nobara, dismissing your opinions with a sharp, "You don't understand how this works," even when you were right. He had stopped calling you by your name, opting for a cold "Hey" or simply barking orders. The final straw had been a mission where you had nearly been hurt; instead of checking for injuries, he had spent the entire ride home berating your incompetence, his words slicing through your dignity until you felt smaller than the shadows he commanded. You weren't a partner to him anymore; you were a ghost he was trying to exorcise from his life.
The night you left, the sky finally broke, unleashing a torrential downpour that mirrored the chaos in your chest. You were halfway down the long, winding path from the estate, your single suitcase soaked through, when you heard the heavy thud of boots splashing behind you.
"Where do you think you're going?" Megumi shouted over the roar of the rain. He looked furious, his hair plastered to his forehead, his eyes dark with a misplaced sense of betrayal.
You spun around, the water stinging your eyes. "I'm leaving, Megumi, I'm done."
"You're being dramatic" he said, stepping into your space, his tall frame looming over you. "Itās raining, youāre tired, just go back inside and stop making a scene. Weāll talk when youāve calmed down."
"Calmed down?" You let out a jagged, hysterical laugh that was swallowed by a crack of thunder. "I've been calm for months! I was calm when you ignored me for weeks! I was calm when you told me I was in your way! I stayed! I waited for you to come back to me, and you just kept pushing!" You stepped closer, poking a finger into his chest, your voice raw. "I gave you everything! Every piece of my heart, every bit of my patience! I fought for us every single day while you treated me like a nuisance you couldn't wait to get rid of!"
Megumi flinched, his bravado wavering for a split second as the rain poured between you. "I had things to do! I have responsibilities you couldn't possibly understandā"
"I understood more than anyone!" you screamed, tears finally mingling with the rainwater on your cheeks. "But it wasn't enough for you! It was never enough! You didn't want a partner, Megumi, you wanted a shadowāsomething that followed you around but never made a sound. Well, guess what? Shadows disappear when it gets dark. And itās been dark for a long time."
For a moment, the air between you was electric, a mirror of the famous desperation of lovers who had lost their way, but the resolution wasn't a kissāit was a severance. Megumi reached out, his hand hovering near your arm as if he finally realized the gravity of the cliff you were standing on. "Y/N, waitā"
"No," you said, your voice suddenly dropping to a whisper that carried more weight than the storm. "You told me you didn't need me. You told me I was in the way. Iām finally listening to you." You turned your back on him, walking into the gray veil of the storm. Behind you, Megumi stood frozen in the middle of the road, the rain drenching him to the bone, watching the only light in his life fade into the distance. He didn't chase you. He didn't know how to ask for help, and by the time the regret settled into his marrow, the road was empty.
Six months had passed since the night the rain washed you out of Megumiās life. In the world of Jujutsu, time is measured in scars and body counts, but for Megumi, it was measured in a staggering, rhythmic emptiness. He had become more efficient, deadlier, and quieter. His peers noticed the change; the sharp edge of his tongue had dulled into a flat, robotic indifference. He did his job, he came home to his silent apartment, and he stared at the space where your shoes used to sit. He had convinced himself he was "focused," until a joint mission with a secondary sorcerer unit forced him to face the ghost he had created.
The mission was a standard Grade 1 clearing in an abandoned shopping mall, but the air shifted the moment you arrived with the support team. You weren't wearing the same soft sweaters he remembered; you were in tactical gear, your hair pulled back tight, a sharpened resolve in your posture that looked entirely foreign on you. When your eyes met his across the briefing table, there was no flicker of pain, no hidden longing, and no spark of the old warmth. You looked at him the way one looks at a piece of furnitureāfunctional, necessary for the room, but ultimately unremarkable.
Throughout the mission, Megumi found himself distracted, his eyes constantly tracking your movements. He watched you coordinate the evacuation with a sharp, commanding confidence he hadn't realized you possessed. When a rogue curse burst through a storefront, heading straight for the support line, Megumiās heart lurched. He instinctively began to summon Divine Dog to protect you, his throat tight with a name he hadn't spoken in months. But before the shadows could even coalesce, you had already moved. With a fluid, practiced motion, you exorcised the curse yourself, barely breaking your stride as you signaled for the team to move forward. You didn't need his protection. You never really had; you had just wanted his partnership.
After the "Veil" went down, the team began to disperse. Megumi caught you by the transport vehicles, the orange glow of the setting sun casting long, jagged shadows across the asphalt. "Y/N," he called out, his voice cracking slightly, betraying the stoic mask he had worn all day. You stopped and turned, your expression polite but distant.
"Fushiguro," you replied, using his last nameāa formal barrier that felt like a wall of ice. "Good work today. Your domain expansion has improved."
The compliment felt like a serrated blade. He didn't want professional recognition; he wanted the girl who used to steal his hoodies. "Can we talk?" he asked, stepping closer, his hands trembling hidden in his pockets. "Iāve... Iāve been thinking a lot about that night. About everything I said. I was drowning, and I took it out on you. I know I was a monster to you, but Iāve changed. Iām learning how toā"
"Megumi," you interrupted softly, and for the first time, a flash of the old pity crossed your face, though it was quickly replaced by a weary finality. "Iām glad youāre doing better. Truly. But that person youāre talking to? The one who would have waited all night for you to apologize? She doesn't exist anymore. You killed her off, one 'shut up' and one 'get out of my way' at a time." You adjusted the strap of your bag, looking past him toward the horizon. "I spent so long trying to be your light that I forgot I deserved to see the sun, too. Iāve found that sun now, and it doesn't involve waiting for you to decide I'm worth your time."
He stood there, the King of Shadows, feeling small and powerless as you climbed into the car. He watched the taillights fade into the distance, realizing that the most painful part of his regret wasn't that you hated him. It was that you had finally moved on to a world where he was no longer the centerāor even a part of the map. He had pushed you until you fell off the edge of his world, and he was only now realizing that he was the one left behind in the dark.
