Lessons in Letting Go
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Summary: Youâre a shy, careful Hufflepuff with little experience and even fewer confidantes. When the Marauders invite you to work on their assignment, you donât realize youâre signing up for lessons far beyond charms.
Tags: MaraudersEra, BlackReader, Hufflepuff!reader, Innocent!reader, Virgin!reader, First time, Corruption kink, Marauders x reader, Polyamory, poly!marauders, Fluff and smut, Touch exploration, Overstimulation, Shy!reader
Youâd been watching them from the far side of the pitch for the better part of half an hour, the autumn wind tugging at your Hufflepuff scarf while you waited. Quidditch practice for Gryffindor always seemed to go on forever, though maybe it only felt that way because you were standing there, gripping your books like a shield, rehearsing what you were going to say.
The Marauders â James Potter, Sirius Black, and Remus Lupin â were not the sort of boys you usually sought out. In fact, up until this week, your interactions with them had been limited to polite nods in the corridor and the occasional âsorryâ when you passed them in the library. You preferred your small circle of friends, your neat stack of notes, and the quiet hum of the Hufflepuff common room over their noisy, chaotic orbit.
But now you were stuck in it.
Professor Flitwick, in what you could only assume was a moment of cruel whimsy, had paired the four of you for the midterm Charms project due in just a few days. And so far, the Marauders had contributed precisely nothing except a string of excuses and an invitation to ânot stress, love, thereâs loads of time.â
There was not, in fact, loads of time.
So here you were, waiting until they finished flying around like madmen so you could corner them.
James spotted you first as he swooped down, broom in hand, his hair plastered to his forehead. âOi, Hufflepuff!â he called, grinning like heâd just scored the winning goal. âWhat brings you all the way out here?â
You straightened your spine. âWe need to work on the Charms assignment. Itâs due in two days.â
Sirius, landing just behind him, ran a hand through his long, damp hair. He had at least three silver rings glinting on his fingers and that lopsided smile that was somehow both charming and dangerous. âSheâs so organised itâs terrifying,â he said to Remus, who was strolling over, broom slung over one shoulder.
Remusâs mouth quirked. âTerrifying? Or admirable?â
âBoth,â Sirius said, tossing you a wink.
You felt your cheeks warm but refused to be distracted. âCan we please meet tonight? After dinner? We can work in the libraryââ
âNo, no, no,â James interrupted, shaking his head. âThe libraryâs a death trap. Weâll just end up getting kicked out for laughing too loud.â
You clutched your books tighter. âFine. Where, then?â
âOur dorm,â Remus said easily. âAfter dinner. Weâll be perfect little model students, promise.â
Something told you that âperfectâ wasnât exactly the right word for them, but at least you had an agreement.
Youâre almost hesitant to knock on their dorm door later, your palm hovering just short of the wood. The seventh-year Gryffindor boysâ room is off-limits to most people, youâve never had reason to be here, and the knowledge that youâre about to step into their space makes your pulse race.
The door swings open before you can even knock. Sirius leans in the doorway, hair loose around his shoulders, smelling faintly of smoke and whatever cologne he wears thatâs sharp and warm at the same time.
âCome in, Hufflepuff,â he says with a crooked grin.
Inside, itâs exactly the kind of mess you expected: broomsticks propped in corners, stray socks on the floor, posters of Quidditch teams and scantily-clad witches stuck to the walls. James is sprawled on his bed, tossing a Snitch lazily between his hands, while Remus sits cross-legged at the foot of his own bed, a book balanced on his knee.
You set your bag down at the small desk shoved between two beds and start unpacking your notes. âRight, soâif we split up the charm components, we canââ
You get maybe three sentences into your plan before Sirius derails the entire conversation.
âDid I tell you about that girl from Ravenclaw?â he asks, leaning back in his chair, voice low and teasing. âAbsolute stunner. Kept me up all night last weekend.â
Your fingers tighten around your quill, eyes glued to your parchment. âThatâs⊠nice,â you murmur, trying not to picture anything.
âShe had this way ofââ Sirius starts, but James cuts him off with a laugh.
âOi, donât corrupt our poor Hufflepuff. Youâve never slept with a bloke before, have you?â
You freeze. The question hangs heavy in the air, your quill stalling mid-stroke. âIâWe should really focus onââ
Remusâs head snaps up, his eyebrows lifting. âWait. You havenât?â
Heat prickles at the back of your neck. âThatâs notâItâs none ofââ
âHard to believe,â Sirius drawls, reaching forward to catch a curl of your hair between his fingers. He twists it slowly, watching the dark coil spring back. âSomeone as pretty as you⊠untouched?â
Your cheeks burn hotter. âCan we please just workââ
But James is leaning forward now, elbows on his knees, eyes bright with curiosity. âYou must get urges, though. Everyone does. How dâyou deal with them?â
You shake your head quickly, desperate to divert the conversation. âJamesââ
Sirius smirks. âSheâs got toys, obviously. Plays with herself when no oneâs around. Virgins always do.â
Your mouth goes dry. You give a small, frantic shake of your head.
The room stills. Siriusâs smirk falters just slightly. âWait. Youâre telling me youâve neverââ
Jamesâs eyebrows shoot up. âNot even once?â
You shake your head again, looking anywhere but their faces.
For a second, thereâs only silence, and then Remus lets out a low, disbelieving laugh. âMerlinâs beard.â
Sirius leans back, grin returning in full force. âThatâs⊠unexpectedly hot.â
âVery,â James agrees, his gaze sweeping over you in a way that makes you want to squirm. âYouâve never even been curious?â
You swallow hard. âI mean⊠maybe. Iâve heard the girls in my dorm talking about it.â
Sirius tilts his head. âSo youâve just⊠never tried. Never touched yourself.â
You shake your head again, embarrassed beyond belief.
James whistles softly. âThatâs criminal. You donât know what youâre missing.â
âGood thing weâre practically professionals,â Sirius says lightly, though thereâs a dangerous edge to the glint in his eyes.
You blink at him. âWhat?â
Remusâs voice is smooth, almost coaxing. âWe could show you. If you wanted.â
Your stomach flips violently. âNo, Iâwe have to finish this assignmentââ
âWe will,â Remus says, leaning forward slightly. âLater. Right now⊠maybe you should let go a little. Let us show you how to feel good.â
You open your mouth to refuse again, but the curiosity youâve been denying for years is whispering at the back of your mind. Youâve imagined what it might be like hands on you, mouths on you but never let yourself linger on the thoughts for long.
James must see something in your face, because his grin turns slow and knowing. âCâmon, sweetheart. Youâve trusted us with a school project. You can trust us with this.â
The heat in the room feels suffocating.
Siriusâs fingers are brushing the hem of your skirt now, not lifting, just tracing the edge. âAll you have to do is say yes.â
You hesitate, then nod â once, barely.
âAtta girl,â Sirius murmurs.
The moment his hand pushes your skirt up, instinct flares and you draw in a sharp breath. âWait, Iââ
Remus is already moving, his lips brushing yours in a kiss thatâs surprisingly gentle, stealing the rest of your protest. His hand cups your jaw, thumb stroking over your cheek as if to anchor you.
Siriusâs palm presses between your thighs, warm even through your panties, an experimental rub that makes your stomach clench.
Somewhere to your right, you hear James shift, the quiet click of buttons as your shirt begins to come undone under his sure fingers.
Remus doesnât pull away.
If anything, his mouth presses more firmly to yours, the kiss deepening by slow, careful increments. Itâs not rushed, not hungry in the way youâd imagined boys might kiss thereâs patience in him, a measured control that makes it all the more dizzying. His lips part, coaxing rather than demanding, his hand still cupping your jaw like youâre something fragile he doesnât want to break.
Youâd expected kissing to feel⊠different. Wet, maybe awkward. Instead, thereâs a warmth curling in your chest, in your stomach, a steady hum thatâs making your knees feel strange even though youâre still sitting.
Somewhere in the background of that warmth, you register Jamesâs fingers working their way down the front of your shirt. The soft click of each button coming undone is louder than it should be in the quiet of the room. The cool air nips at your newly exposed skin, but the heat in your cheeks more than makes up for it.
âEasy, love,â James murmurs, his voice low and smooth near your ear. âJust want to see you.â
Your breath catches. You want to close the shirt again, to keep it together â but Remusâs mouth is moving against yours with such careful insistence that you canât bring yourself to stop him.
Meanwhile, Sirius hasnât moved his hand from between your thighs. His touch is steady, palm warm through the thin cotton of your underwear, his thumb stroking idle, lazy patterns that make you tense without meaning to. Itâs not invasive, not yet, but thereâs something unbearably intimate about how unhurried he is.
âRelax for me,â he says softly, and the roughness in his voice makes your skin prickle. âJust let it happen.â
You try, but the awareness of his hand is like a pulse of its own, a steady reminder of whatâs about to happen or what could happen.
James has reached the last button now, the shirt parting fully under his hands. You feel his gaze sweep over you, lingering where your bra covers the curve of your breasts. His fingertips trace along the fabric there, almost reverent, before sliding back to your shoulders to ease the shirt down your arms.
âMerlin,â he mutters under his breath, more to himself than to you.
Remus finally pulls back from your mouth, though he stays close enough that his breath mingles with yours. His eyes flick briefly to Siriusâs hand, then back to your face. âStill okay?â
You nod, though itâs a little shaky. âY-Yeah.â
That earns you a small, approving smile.
Sirius chooses that moment to hook one finger under the waistband of your panties. You flinch at the movement not from discomfort, but from the sudden intimacy of it. His eyes are on yours as he slides the fabric to the side, slow enough that you could stop him if you wanted to. You donât.
The cool air hits your bare skin, and you canât stop the small shiver that runs through you. Sirius notices, of course he notices and his grin takes on something sharper.
âPretty little thing,â he says, almost under his breath, before returning his attention to the task at hand.
He doesnât plunge in with fingers, doesnât rush. Instead, his thumb resumes its slow circles, only now thereâs no fabric between you. The difference is startling. The touch is softer and sharper at once, every movement sending little sparks dancing low in your stomach.
You let out a sound you didnât mean to, a tiny, breathy gasp that you try to swallow down. Siriusâs grin widens.
âThatâs it,â he murmurs. âDonât hold back.â
Remusâs mouth finds yours again, and itâs almost overwhelming now, the way theyâre both on you at once one coaxing your lips open, the other coaxing something deeper from you entirely. James is still close, his fingers brushing along your arm, your side, tracing the edge of your bra as if committing every line of you to memory.
Siriusâs pace is maddening. He keeps his movements small and deliberate, circling slowly around that sensitive spot until your legs tense without your permission. Every time you start to tip forward into something sharper, he eases back, dragging it out until your breathing turns uneven.
You didnât know it could feel like this, warm and fluttery and tight all at once, the tension coiling low in your belly with each slow press of his thumb.
âBreathe,â Remus murmurs against your lips, and you realize youâve been holding your breath without meaning to. You exhale shakily, and Sirius takes advantage of the moment to press just a fraction harder.
The sound that escapes you is embarrassingly needy.
âGood girl,â Sirius says, and for some reason the words send the tension in your stomach snapping. It washes over you in a hot rush, your thighs trembling as you try to stifle the sound rising in your throat.
Sirius doesnât stop. If anything, his movements smooth out, guiding you through the strange, rippling aftershocks until you slump slightly against Remusâs steady frame.
âFirst one?â Jamesâs voice is warm with amusement.
You manage a breathless nod.
Sirius chuckles low. âLetâs see if we can make it two.â
Before you can protest, his thumb is moving again not as slow as before now, but still deliberate, still maddening in its precision. Youâre already sensitive, the skin there tingling from the last wave, and the new stimulation makes you jerk involuntarily.
âItâs okay,â Remus murmurs, kissing the corner of your mouth. âLet it happen again.â
Youâre not sure you can or maybe youâre too sure you can, too quickly. The second crest builds faster, Siriusâs focus unrelenting, his free hand bracing lightly against your thigh to keep you from squirming away.
Itâs almost too much, but the way theyâre all watching you, Jamesâs eyes fixed on your face, Remusâs gaze soft but unyielding, Siriusâs smirk growing with every sound you make keeps you rooted in place.
When it hits, itâs sharper this time, a flash of heat and release that makes you cling to Remus without thinking. Sirius slows only when your thighs press together in reflex, easing you back down until your breathing steadies.
You sag against Remus, your head spinning, and somewhere above you, Sirius gives a satisfied little hum.
âTwo,â he says simply, like heâs keeping score.
You donât have the energy to glare at him not when your body still feels warm and liquid, the air thick with the mix of your breaths and theirs.
Youâre still melting against Remus, your chest rising and falling unevenly, when James shifts beside you, sliding closer with a soft, teasing smile.
âAlright,â he murmurs, voice low and warm. âI want to see how many fingers you can take.â
Your breath hitches at his words, a flush creeping up your neck and spreading through your chest.
âW-What?â you manage, voice barely above a whisper.
Siriusâs grin turns wicked, but thereâs something gentle in the way Remus squeezes your hand, steadying you.
âItâs okay,â Remus says softly. âWeâll go slow. You donât have to do anything you donât want to.â
Sirius leans in, brushing a loose curl behind your ear. âWe just want to make you feel good. Promise youâll tell us if itâs too much.â
The nervous flutter in your stomach twists tighter, but their calm words, the way theyâre watching you with nothing but care and patience, help quiet the rising panic.
James shifts again, carefully moving so that heâs directly beside you, his fingers warm as he gently parts your thighs.
âJust breathe,â he whispers, thumb brushing the delicate skin of your inner thigh. âWeâll take this as slow as you need.â
Your heart pounds as his hand moves lower, the heat radiating from his fingers making you tremble.
Then, with the softest touch, James presses the pad of one finger to your entrance.
Youâre tight, impossibly tight and the sensation is unfamiliar, sharp and strange, but not unpleasant.
âItâs alright,â James murmurs, barely moving, letting you adjust to the pressure.
You bite your lip, blinking up at him, unsure but willing to try.
Slowly, carefully, he slides that one finger inside, inch by inch.
A sharp gasp escapes you, a mixture of surprise and intensity, and your hand shoots out to grip Remusâs shirt for support.
âYouâre doing so well,â James encourages, fingers gentle but confident.
Sirius leans forward, fingers deftly undoing the clasp of your bra. The cool air hitting your exposed skin makes your nipples harden, and your body tenses, caught between nervousness and something deeper, something raw and alive.
He trails his fingers lightly over your breasts, careful not to rush, teasing your skin before slipping a single finger inside the cup, circling the tender skin beneath.
The contrast between Jamesâs slow intrusion and Siriusâs teasing touch is electric, your body reacting in ways you didnât expect.
James gently moves his finger, the motion slow and deliberate. You wince slightly, tightness wrapping around him like a velvet glove but the ache in your lower belly is growing warmer, softer.
âFeels good?â Remusâs voice is a soothing balm next to your ear.
You nod, breath trembling. âY-YeahâŠâ
James, encouraged, tries to ease in a second finger.
Itâs harder this time. Your muscles instinctively clench around him, tight and protective.
âOkay, okay,â James murmurs, pausing to let you adjust. His thumb strokes slow, comforting circles on the outside of you.
You close your eyes, steadying yourself with shaky breaths.
The pressure grows, stretching, unfamiliar but not painful, and the heat blooming inside you pulses deeper.
Sirius shifts, lips trailing down your neck, warm and teasing, distracting you from the tightness with whispered promises and soft nips.
You gasp softly as James gently presses the second finger further in, but itâs clear you canât take more than that right now.
âItâs alright,â Sirius says, voice low and reverent.
Your body is a coil of tension and warmth, every nerve alive with the subtle, exquisite teasing James and Sirius are giving you.
James keeps his fingers moving inside you with a slow, patient rhythm, the barest glide in, then a small circle, barely touching the most sensitive spot. His thumb rubs gentle, feather-light patterns against your skin outside, keeping you balanced between ache and delight.
Youâre so wet, itâs like a warm flood pooling beneath you, the slick heat making every touch feel electric.
Sirius, never far from you, lets his fingers wander freely now, tracing lazy paths over your bare breasts. His touch is slow and deliberate, teasing your nipples until they tighten and peak beneath his fingers.
His breath is hot against your collarbone, and every time his hand squeezes gently, you bite your lip to stop a soft moan from escaping.
Siriusâs voice drops to a low murmur, teasing. âThatâs three, love. Youâre amazing.â
You blink, startled at how fast your body is reacting â how quickly youâre coming apart beneath their touch.
James slips his fingers a little deeper, careful to keep the pace patient but insistent. Every slow stroke feels like a secret promise, like youâre unraveling just enough for them, and itâs overwhelming in the best possible way.
Your breaths come faster now, shallow and shaky, chest rising and falling under Siriusâs hands.
âYouâre so beautiful,â he murmurs, his fingers tightening just slightly on your breast, then releasing with teasing softness.
Jamesâs thumb strokes faster for a moment, light flicks over your swollen clit, and the coil inside you snaps.
Your muscles clench tightly around his fingers, and a moan escapes you â soft, broken, utterly real.
Sirius chuckles low, lips brushing your ear. âThatâs four.â
You want to protest that you canât take much more, but the way their touch feels so deliberate, so slow and full of care it makes you want to keep going, to see how far you can fall into this sensation.
James pulls back just enough to give you a moment, then pushes in again, a little deeper this time, fingers curling in a way that has your back arching off the bed.
Siriusâs hand slides down to cup your hip, steadying you, while the other keeps playing with your breast, rolling your nipple between thumb and finger with teasing patience.
The heat in your chest builds, the ache in your belly growing sharper, a delicious tension that makes your legs tremble.
âLet go,â Remusâs voice whispers from behind you , steady and grounding.
You do.
Your body trembles violently as your fifth orgasm crashes over you, breath hitching in ragged gasps. The world narrows to the warmth flooding through you, the gentle touch of their hands, the sound of your own voice breaking the silence.
Sirius grins wider, brushing his lips softly over your temple. âFive.â
You cling to Remusâs shirt, your skin tingling, still sensitive and raw from the waves rolling through you.
James doesnât stop.
His fingers move again, slow and sure, coaxing you back from the edge teasing, holding, building until your breath comes in shallow pants and your legs quiver uncontrollably beneath them.
âYouâre incredible,â James murmurs, voice rough with admiration.
Siriusâs hands keep roaming your body, one hand sliding up your side to cup your breast, thumb circling the hardened peak with teasing patience, the other trailing soft kisses along your jaw and neck.
âSix,â Sirius says, his voice a soft purr.
Your chest tightens again, the last sparks of sensation igniting in a firestorm that leaves you trembling and breathless in their arms.
Theyâre not just touching you, theyâre learning you, memorizing every sigh, every twitch, every flinch of pleasure and hesitation.
And youâre letting them, even as your cheeks burn with embarrassment and your heart pounds fiercely in your chest.
Because with them, everything feels different.
Safe. Sacred.
Jamesâs fingers donât stop. They keep moving, teasing, coaxing, and you feel yourself spiralling, dizzy with pleasure and overwhelm. Your breaths grow shallow, your body trembling in ways that feel both exquisite and impossible to control.
But suddenly, it becomes too much.
Your chest tightens, and a sudden rush of panic flashes through your mind. You try to pull away, to free yourself from their hold, but their hands are gentle yet firm, keeping you cradled and safe.
âIâI needââ Your voice falters.
Remus, sensing your distress instantly, leans in without hesitation, lips capturing yours in a soft, grounding kiss. The kiss is slow and steady, calming like a balm, pulling you back from the edge of overwhelm.
Siriusâs hand stays warm and steady on your breast, fingers moving with tender care, easing the tension rather than adding to it.
You try to focus on the steady pressure of their touches, the softness of Remusâs lips against yours, the way Siriusâs thumb circles your nipple with infinite patience.
But the waves crashing inside you donât stop.
Your vision blurs, the room spinning gently, and your body, overloaded and trembling, finally gives out.
Darkness claims you.
When you wake up, itâs to the soft morning light filtering through the curtains, casting a pale glow across the room.
You blink slowly, your head heavy but strangely peaceful.
Youâre in Siriusâs bed, the sheets tangled around you, the faint scent of him still lingering in the air.
Panic flares briefly in your chest, memories from the night before rushing back in a chaotic flood.
You sit up carefully, feeling the cool breeze against your flushed skin, and notice something resting on the bedside table: a parchment neatly folded.
Heart pounding, you reach for it, unfolding the note written in Jamesâs familiar handwriting.
âHey! we had to head out early for Quidditch practice. We finished the assignment, so donât worry about a thing. Weâll catch up later. â J, S & R.â
You bite your lip, cheeks burning as you glance down at the parchment lying next to it â the completed charms assignment, all neatly written and corrected with their notes and doodles in the margins.
A mix of embarrassment and warmth floods through you.
Last night feels like a secret world you stepped into, one you werenât quite sure you were ready for, yet donât regret in the slightest.
You take a deep breath, smoothing your skirt and pulling your shirt back over your shoulders, before disappearing through the door.
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