#poly marauders

But, after a year with your boys, you'd expect nothing less.

Finally, it was your turn to disembark. You hoisted your trunk from the overhead compartment, lugging it behind you as you tottered down the aisle. Urgency made your heart race, knowing Sirius was just outside, but you fought to keep a regular walking pace and not mow down the elderly couple in front of you.

The conductor helped you down the stairs, a blessing because you were looking everywhere but your feet. Too busy searching the crowd for one of your favorite faces—there!

Sirius was leaned against the column, dressed in black jeans and his beloved, patch-covered leather jacket, cradling a bouquet of your favorite flowers in his arms.

Your eyes connected at the same instant, a lightning strike, and he grinned. He rushed across the terminal towards you, dodging the elderly and children like quaffles. Plowing through like a man possessed. Single-minded.

He slammed into you with the force of his urgency. One arm looped around your waist, hauling you up into his chest.

“There's my girl,” he cooed, planting a smacking kiss on your cheek.

You threw your arms around his neck, squeezing tight as all the travel stress, all the longing, finally loosened from your shoulders.

Sirius had you. What was there to worry about?

He dipped you backwards, your toes just scraping the concrete, and kissed you with a ferocity that had your head spinning, and the conductor clearing his throat.

“Missed you, doll,” he mumbled against your lips.

“Missed you,” you giggled, your heart gone gooey.

He straightened, setting you back onto wobbly knees. “Trade?” He asked, offering you the flowers while eyeing your trunk.

“Deal.” You accepted the flowers, burying your nose in the fresh, sun-washed scent. Sirius, the show-off, hefted your trunk without any of your earlier struggles.

“What'dya got in here? Feathers?” He joked, draping an arm over your shoulders. He knew exactly what was in there—he helped you pick out all the slutty little outfits himself. “Appreciate you getting her home safe, sir,” Sirius saluted the conductor, who only laughed and shook his head.

“Thank you!” You chirped as Sirius began to push through the crowd. Not that it was very difficult, he had a way of parting the general population of London like the Red Sea.

“So, how was it? Anyone get their eyes scratched out?” He asked with a knowing smirk. Sirius loved a good gossip session. Especially when Remus wasn't around to chastise the two of you for it.

Delighted, you regaled him of all the drama and activities of the weekend, jabbering on while he navigated the train station. He kept you close as you made your way out to the parking lot, protective in the crush of people, but loosened up as the crowd thinned and his motorcycle came into sight.

Two helmets hung on the handlebars.

“Despite what Prongs and Moony think, I am responsible,” he teased. “When it comes to you, at least.”

“I never doubted you, my love,” You pecked his cheek before he shimmied the helmet over your head, careful not to snag your ears. He shirked his leather jacket, offering that to you, too.

You let yourself bask in the warmth of it for a moment, cocooned in all things Sirius. Leather polish and cigarette smoke. That too-musky cologne James got him for his birthday last year. Studs and calfskin armor shelter a gooey center.

With the visor of your helmet flicked up, you snapped a selfie and texted it to the group chat.

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Sirius strapped down your luggage and you climbed onto the bike behind him, arms fastened securely around his waist, thighs pressed tight around his hips. Just like he taught you.

“Good girl,” he purred, voice rough and low through the modulator.

A flicker of warmth bloomed low in your belly, heating your cheeks. An involuntary shift of your hips rocked you forward an extra centimeter.

“Hold tight.” His heel struck downwards. The bike started with a thunderous roar. And you were flying.

Together, you tore through the streets of London, a blur of brownstone and November sky. With white-knuckles, you clung to Sirius, exhilaration zipping through you. His hand wandered over your denim-clad leg until his red-hot fingers skimmed the exposed skin of your ankle. They wrapped around the delicate bone, a barrier from the vengeful South London streets.

“Okay, sweetheart?”

“Yeah,” you replied, breathless.

The ride to your shared flat was brief, less than ten minutes, but it still had your heart pounding in your throat and…other places.

Sirius carried your trunk up the stairs while you raced ahead, bursting through the unlocked door.

“Baby!” James cried, jumping up from where he was sitting on the floor, surrounded by IKEA boxes, foam peanuts, and plywood. He was shirtless, dressed in nothing but grey sweatpants, glasses, and a toothy grin. “Fuck, I missed you.” He grabbed you around the middle, careful not to crush the flowers—what was left of them after the bike ride, anyway—and hefted you into the air. Twirled you around once, twice, making you giggle and shriek as you clung to his Herculean shoulders.

“Is that who I think it is?” Remus emerged from the kitchen, slinging a dish towel over his shoulder. He was dressed in joggers and a too-large sweater you’d unearthed from a bin at the consignment down the block. “Careful, Prongs. You'll smother her,” he warned, though his eyes were getting meltier by the second.

“Missed you too, Jamie,” you laughed, fizzing with delight. Your mouth found his as he set you back onto the floor, the kiss a little toothy since you couldn’t seem to stop smiling. He didn’t seem to mind.

“Thanks for the help, muscles,” Sirius grumbled, pushing into the flat behind you. Suddenly fatigued now that James was in ear shot.

“I was building her bookcase!” James argued, releasing you to take the trunk from Sirius. A regular Superman.

“And destroying the living room, apparently,” Sirius teased. Besides the new-furniture wreckage, the flat was spotless. Candles burning and lights dimmed low, soft music floating from somewhere. Natural as an exhale from the lungs of your home.

James huffed. “Well, maybe if you had helped me earlier instead of taking a nap—”

“If you don't want me to take a nap, don't wake me up at the bloody ass crack of dawn when you go for your run!”

You slipped out from between them, sidling over to where Remus was leaning against the entry to the kitchen. His hazel eyes turned molten as you approached, golden in the setting sun. An arm lifted, your favorite invitation, and you tucked yourself into the welcoming curve of his side. He took the flowers from you, setting them on the counter.

“How was your trip, darling?” He asked, nuzzling into the crown of your head. Dropping a kiss there.

“Good,” you murmured, sagging into the warmth of his body. The last of your tension dissolved. A teaspoon of sugar to Remus’ cup of tea. “Happy to be home, though.”

He made a low, appreciative hum in his throat, hugging you a bit tighter. “Why don't you go get cozy while I finish dinner, hm? I know traveling stresses you out.”

“What're you making?” You asked, not quite ready to leave the warmth, the steadiness of his embrace.

“Your favorite,” he replied, fingers wandering beneath the hem of your sweatshirt to brush against your skin. A shiver rolled down your spine, and you felt him smile against your hair. “And chocolate cake for dessert.”

You chuckled. “So, both of our favorites?”

“I think I deserve it after dealing with those sorry saps for an entire weekend. Alone.”

“Surely they weren't that bad…” You trailed off, your other boyfriend's argument ratcheting up to a full-on wrestling match. Though you weren’t sure that whacking your opponent with strips of cardboard counted as wrestling. “Okay, fair enough.”

Remus’ hand came up to cradle the back of your head, tilting your face up towards him. “Speaking of trouble-makers, did you wear a helmet the entire ride?” He asked, the words tickling against your lips.

You nodded, heart tripping over itself.

“And did you hold on nice and tight to our Sirius?”

Another nod.

“And he obeyed all the traffic laws?”

“…mostly.”

Remus tsked. “Well, I suppose that's not your fault, is it, dove?”

You shook your head ‘no’, lower lip jutting out to prove your innocence.

“Such a good girl,” he praised, nipping at your lips before molding his mouth to yours in a syrupy, unhurried kiss you felt all the way down to your toes. He tasted like mint and herbal tea, like home.

Beeeep! The oven shrieked. Remus startled, breaking the kiss to glare at the offending appliance.

“Have to get that,” you murmured, lips brushing against his jaw.

“Yeah, might burn,” he replied, though his hold remained steadfast as he turned his face back towards you.

“Mhmm.” You lifted onto your toes, closing the minuscule gap for another kiss.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeep! The oven demanded again, more insistent.

You stepped away this time, slipping out of his reach before you could get caught up again. He drew his lower lip between his teeth, turning lazily over his shoulder to head back into the kitchen.

Sirius was waiting for you at the bedroom door, pink-cheeked and hair disheveled. Chest rising and falling quickly. James fared even worse, sprawled out in his mess with a very visible hard-on straining against his sweatpants. Glasses askew. Panting.

Drool pooled beneath your tongue.

Sirius caught your expression, but wrangled you before you could pounce. “C’mon, doll. Let's get you showered and comfy before your three-course meal,” he murmured against your ear, sending another flush of heat beneath your skin.

He led you into the bathroom, but didn't linger, just got the shower set to your preferred temperature, scalding, and laid out a pair of pyjamas. Not the sexy variety he usually selected, but the fuzzy, oversized flannel bottoms you loved, along with one of James’ well-worn Quidditch t-shirts. “Just shout if you need anything—and I mean anything,” he said with a wink before taking his leave.

"Tell James his chocolates are in my purse!" You called after him, then, "And don't eat them all!"

"Sure, doll!" He called back, smirk audible.

Alone for the first time in days, you undressed in the thick, lavender-scented steam of the bathroom, replaying the events of the day in your mind

Bottomless mimosas at brunch with your friends, the scramble to catch the train, the endless rolling hills and rattling track, the boy's sweet texts.

You stepped into the shower, letting it wash away the train smell and stubborn hangover. But what lingered, imprinted on your skin, were the traces of your boys, a smile teasing the edges of your mouth. Your mind conjured the gorgeous flowers, that dramatic, oh-so-Sirius kiss, your body pressed against his as you flew through the city, bike purring between your legs while his hand wandered. So protective, so confident—a throb between your legs made you gasp, the residual burn from their touches fanned into an inferno by your thoughts.

James’ sculpted body, back flexing as he built your bookcase without you even having to ask, the effortless way he manhandled you. Remus, with the towel over his shoulder, that casually sinful glimmer in his eye while he watched your boyfriends fight. The way he kissed you, savoring, decadent, his whispered praise bouncing off the walls of your skull.

Your hand drifted unconsciously between your legs while you washed yourself, and your fingers came away slick, heat dripping down your thighs.

Fuck, just the thought of them had you soaked.

You finished your shower in a hurry, opting for just James’ t-shirt and a pair of panties. The fewer barriers between you and them, the better.

You emerged to find James alone in the living room, lifting the assembled bookcase into its rightful, standing position, and your eyes damn near popped out of your skull. That thing had to weigh over a hundred pounds; the box clearly marked it as a two-person lift. But James made it look easy.

He noticed you once he was sure it wouldn't tip over, catching your blatant ogling, and flashed you a wink. “What do you think? Looks good, huh?”

“Uh huh.” You nodded, crossing the piles of debris to reach him. He really had tried to consolidate it, you could tell, and it stoked that fire in your belly even higher. “Looks perfect.” You wrapped your arms around his waist. Unconsciously, dare you say instinctively, your lips meandered along his chest, his collarbone, tongue dragging over the sun-kissed skin with ravenous abandon. You were only human, after all. And that chest was begging to be kissed.

He chuckled, palming the back of your head while you worshipped him. “I don't know about perfect, but—ah, fuck, baby.”

You sank your teeth into the meat of his pec, savoring the way his muscles jumped and tensed before soothing the marks with your tongue. His fingers tightened in your hair, drawing your head back. You licked your lips, batting your lashes at him. The very picture of innocence.

“Oh, you feral little thing. No funny business until after dinner. Rem’s been slaving away,” James reprimanded, though his tone was heavy with reluctance.

“I know, I know,” you sighed, pouting.

James’ gaze snagged on that dewy lower lip like a dog on a leash, breath going shallow—

“Dove?” Remus called, poking his head out into the living room. “Can you come taste this for me?”

The tension shattered. But you were far from finished.

“Yes, sir!” You chirped, sweet as a lamb.

Savvy, James gave you a chastising smack on the ass as you flitted towards the kitchen.

Remus shook his head at you, a smirk betraying his delight. The kitchen was bathed in warmth, the smell of garlic and butter hanging in the air. A muggle record turned languidly in the corner—Bon Iver.

Sirius was hunched over the island, diligently frosting the two-tiered chocolate cake with his tongue between his teeth, dark waves gathered into a bun at the nape of his neck. He'd lost his shirt, too, though he wore Remus’ “Kiss the Chef” apron, and his scrolls of dark ink were on near indecent display.

You hopped up onto the counter by the stove, t-shirt riding up your bare legs.

Remus’ eyes drifted over the swell of your thighs, but he didn't bite, instead offering you the edge of the spoon he was using to stir the sauce. You took a slow sip, holding his gaze, smoldering enough to scald.

It was perfect—his cooking always was—and you moaned, head falling back with pleasure.

Sirius dropped the spatula with a clatter, cursing under his breath.

“Cheeky girl,” Remus teased, setting the spoon back into the pot. His hands found your knees, spreading your legs so he could step between them. His lips found your temple, pressing featherlight kisses along the curve of your cheek until he reached that tender spot beneath your jaw. His sandy, two-day-old facial hair tickled the sensitive skin as his lips painted a petal-soft bruise.

Your thighs tensed around his hips, pulse leaping as his long fingers crept closer to where you were aching for them.

“Patience, darling,” he murmured. “Makes the reward that much sweeter.” And with that, he stepped away. Returning to the stove like he hadn't just thrown a match onto a puddle of gasoline.

As dinner progressed, it became abundantly clear that your boys were aware of your little…. predicament. Feeding you off of their forks, socked feet brushing along bare calves, lingering looks. Borderline excessive stretching and lip biting.

By the time Remus cut the cake, you were sitting in a pool if you own slick, thighs aching from an hour of squeezing them together.

James’ hand skimmed along your thigh, fingertips digging into the muscle in slow circular motions. “So tense, lovey. Feeling alright?” He asked, a hint of a smirk at the edges of his mouth.

At the end of your rope, you seized your opportunity and wrapped your fingers around his wrist, urging him higher. He complied, eyes shading as you spread your legs, bringing his fingers between the crux of your thighs. Letting him feel the slick that had seeped through your thin panties.

His jaw went a little slack, drawing a sharp inhale through his nose. Without a word, he slid off his chair, wedging his bulky body beneath the table.

“Jamie, what are you—” his hands gripped your inner thighs, wrenching you to the edge of your seat and forcing your legs apart. You hadn't even drawn a full breath before his mouth was on you, the muscle of his tongue laving a forceful swipe through your weeping pussy. “Oh, fuck—” you gasped, drawing the other boy's attention from cake-cutting logistics.

“Where did—” Sirius lifted the tablecloth. Peered underneath. “Oh, you greedy bastard.”

You could barely hear him over the roar of your blood in your ears, pleasure surging through you like a storm swell. James thrust his tongue inside of you, relentless as he drank you down. A low groan quaked through him, a distant roll of thunder, chased by a current of electricity striking your nervous system. You knotted your fingers into his dark hair, grinding his nose into your clit as you rocked against him.

“Oh my god, James—,” you moaned, throwing your head back as another bolt crashed through you.

“Couldn't wait another ten minutes?” Remus asked, but his eyes were shining with satisfaction. He loved nothing more than driving the rest of you to your breaking points.

Fortunately for you and your ego, James always folded first.

Sirius scraped a bit of frosting off his cake, licking the utensil clean while he watched your face contort, shoulders curl, as James devoured you. “Looks gorgeous, doesn't she, Rem?”

Remus hummed in agreement, rounding the table towards you. His fingers skimmed your shoulder, gliding upwards to cradle your face. You nuzzled into him, brushing your lips against his palm.

James’ tongue flicked up to your clit, drawing it between his teeth, and you gasped, tugging at his roots. He alternated pressure, gentle swirls broken by hard, rhythmic pulls that had sparks dancing behind your eyelids.

“You held out longer than I thought you would,” Remus murmured, stroking your hair out of your face with a saccharine softness. “Thought you'd break Sirius when you got in the shower, but—”

“I have self-control, unlike someone,” Sirius ribbed, casual as anything, slouched in his chair.

You loosed another cry, James doing something that made your lower belly coil sharply, and Sirius’s eyes darkened, betraying his nonchalance.

A wicked idea slithered through the fog in your mind.

“James, baby, fuck—make me feel so good,” you whined, and felt James smirk against you. Ever your co-conspirator.

“Taste so sweet, always so good f’me,” he added, the wetness clinging to his words almost obscene.

Sirius' expression darkened further.

Remus leaned down, pressing a kiss to your forehead to hide his own smile. More indulgent than the forgotten chocolate cake.

“Careful, now, dolly,” Sirius warned. “Or I might stop being such a gentleman.”

James eased two fingers inside of you, your body already soft and willing, lashing at your clit anyway to distract from the stretch. You keened, clutching onto Remus' arm as it wrapped around your shoulders to steady you.

Sirius’ fingers were a steady drum against the table.

Taptaptaptaptap.

A second warning.

“That's it, baby. Is that what you needed?” Remus asked, voice like honey-wine. “Needed Jamie to take care of that sweet little cunt?”

The scrape of a chair was your third and final warning. But you were too distracted by James’ curling fingers to heed it.

Remus brushed a final kiss to your temple before shifting away, and a pair of hands landed on your shoulders. The cool bite of rings jarring you back into the room.

Sirius leaned down, lips brushing the shell of your ear. “My turn.”

James untangled himself from your lower half just before Sirius yanked your chair backwards roughly. His hands slipped under your arms, lifting you onto unsteady feet. With a less-than-gentle push, he bent you at the waist over the table. Grip hard on the back of your neck. Pining you like an animal.

You had to bite your lip from crying out right then and there. Heart pattering like a rabbit against the back of your ribs.

“They're wrong, love. That's not what you needed, is it?” He growled, the jangle of his belt making your stomach flip, slick running down your thighs. “You want to get treated like a princess, then fucked like a whore, isn't that right?”

You nodded, lifting your hips to press against him. Dumb as a bitch in heat.

“Words, pet,” Remus ordered.

Sirius’ cock sawed through your slit, tucked beneath your sodden panties, thick and so fucking warm. Frenum piercings catching your clit just right. A rough hand palmed the globes of your ass, the kiss of his rings a heady contrast to your burning skin.

“C’mon, let him hear it.” James brushed your hair out of your face, dizzyingly tender compared to Sirius’ rough handling.

“Yes, f-fuck me like a whore—please, Siri,” you whined, fisting the tablecloth.

“That's my girl.” He notched the tip at your entrance, slamming to the hilt with one, ruthless punch. Even soaked as you were, the stretch still made you grit your teeth, your belly pressed against the wood making things infinitely tighter. He cursed under his breath, head falling against your shoulder, grip softening on your neck. “Merlin’s sake, dolly—fuck, are you tryin’ to kill me?”

You could only mewl, so full you could hardly breathe. But the satisfaction was mind-numbing, so acute, tears pricked along your lower lashes, soaking conspicuously into the fabric below.

“Look at that, Pads,” James whistled, “Makin’ her cry already.”

“Oh, she needed this bad,” Sirius panted, setting a slow, but punishing rhythm. Tearing you apart just to stitch you back together again. His piercing dragged against your front walls, catching that spongy spot below your belly button with infuriating, intoxicating accuracy. “Miss us that much, pretty?”

You nodded, arms flailing around for something to hold as you climbed perilously higher and higher, vision going blurry, brain leaking out from your eyes, from between your legs. Sirius grabbed both your arms, folding them against your lower back in a tight, one-handed grip. Started fucking you even harder, pounding into you with brutal determination. Hitting that spot over and over and over again.

“Say it,” he growled.

“M-missed you, missed you so—ngh—so fucking much,” you babbled, nails biting into his wrist, holding on for dear life.

From the corner of your eye, you saw Remus lean back against the table. James was on his knees in front of him, hurriedly tugging down the waistband of his joggers. Remus’ cock sprang out, slapping salaciously against his lower belly. Flushed pinker than the strawberry frosting and framed by mahogany curls. James swallowed him down with ease, eyes locked on Remus’ expression as it crumbled into bliss.

You cunt fluttered around Sirius at the sight, drawing a grunt from deep in his throat.

“Fuck, sweetheart—gonna make me come if you keep that up,” Sirius groaned, releasing your hands so he could fist your hair. He dragged you up, arching your spine to its limit, drilling in at a sharper anger that had you making an almost inhuman sound. “That's it, fucking take it—” his hand found your throat, gripping just tight enough to restrict your airflow, “—take it like such a good whore. Our dirty slut.”

“Yes, yes, yes—fuck, I’m gonna—” your orgasm crested and shattered, unraveling you in an endless euphoric instant.

“Give it to me, give it all to me—such a good dolly—” Sirius fucked you through it, your cunt squelching obscenely as you fell apart for him, your entire body convulsing with the force of your undoing. He released your throat only once the first wave passed, letting you catch your breath.

He withdrew suddenly, leaving you empty, unmoored. Hands found your hips, spinning you around and tossing you up onto the table. Before the room stopped spinning, his mouth was on you, drinking down your release like a starving man. Ravenous.

“Oh, god, Sirius—” you cried, so sensitive you were twitching up the table, trying to retreat from the intensity of it. But his hands were like iron, holding you in place as he drowned in his reward.

“Easy, mutt,” Remus chastised, his voice a little frayed from James' attention. “Let her breathe.”

Sirius made a grunt of displeasure, but slowed anyway, obedient. Stealing a few more lush licks through your twitching pussy as you shuddered and whined. Pressed a farewell kiss to your puffy clit before sitting up.

He guided your arms around his neck, cooing softly to you, but you were too drunk on oxytocin to really hear him. Suddenly, you were airborne, Sirius’ arms bracketed around your thighs. You buried your nose into his neck, trying to get your bearings even as the world moved around you, your body still hair-trigger sensitive.

“Jamie and Remus are gonna have theirs now, love, okay? Can you take a little more, or do you need a break?” Sirius asked, lowering onto the nearly made bed. All concern and tenderness as he settled you against the nest of pillows.

“Love you,” was all you could think to say, and his smile was brighter than the sun.

“Love you too, sweet girl. But we’re gonna need a ‘yes’.”

James and Remus stood on either side of you, gooey-eyed and flushed, and you nodded.

“Yes, please.”

You lost track of who was where, who came when, and how often, adrift in a sea of delirium and bliss. By the time you all were finished, your bodies and the sheets were damp with sweat and god knows what else. Disheveled and delirious, entirely too wrung out to do much more than mouth absently on Remus’ shoulder where your head had fallen.

His hand curled around your cheek, brushing your sweat-slicked strands from your eyes. “Worth the wait, dove?”

You nodded, eyes fluttering closed as his hands combed through your bedraggled hair. Someone’s hands skimmed over your lower back, your hip, massaging away the stiffness and fatigue. Another swiped a warm rag between your legs, cleaning you up with careful strokes.

You melted into it, their easy affection and tender touches. Piecing you back together like a sacred statue. Mending your cracks with gold and sweetness until you were whole again. And all you had to do was lie there and accept it, something you struggled with in the beginning. But, over time, and with a lot of gentle, but persistent coaxing, you’d learned that not only were you allowed to accept their generous affection and care, you deserved it.

You deserve partners who look after you, show up without question, and take responsibility for the space they occupy in your life.

You deserve a generous love.

thank you for reading! 🤍

A warmth spreads from your chest, washing over your face and down your arms. You wonder if James can feel it tingling in your fingertips. “I’ll see you later?” you ask softly. 

James smiles. “Yeah, I’ve just got a couple of things to handle first. I’ll come find you, yeah? For dinner?” 

“Sounds great.” Your answering smile is irrepressible. He gives your hand a squeeze before letting go, slipping into his room. 

It’s difficult, not to collapse against the closed door with a sigh like a lovesick girl in a film. You’ve no doubt that to anyone watching you give the general impression anyway, huge smile still stuck to your face and hearts in your eyes. 

You hear Sirius’ voice from inside James’ room. You’re sure Remus is in there as well, his presence only less audible than Sirius’. You suspect they’re James’ couple of things to handle. You don’t mind; James likes to have at least some time alone with his friends each day, and you wouldn’t begrudge him it. It’s sweet. Honestly, it only endears you to James more that he has such close friends, friends which go all the way back to childhood and whom he clearly loves fiercely. You’re glad you’re getting to know them as well—not only because Remus and Sirius are nice to be around, but you don’t imagine it can be a bad thing to get along with your partner’s friends. Sirius seemed to have some trouble getting used to you, but you think you might be finally moving past that; if you’re lucky, you could all be quite happy once you and James are married. 

You meander the halls a bit on your way back to your room, still buzzing with a restless, giddy energy, a throat-squeezing feeling of possibility. It’s as you pass the open doorway of an office that you hear your name. 

“...see how he was holding her hand? It’s cruel.” 

You stop on the other side of the door. You don’t grow up in a palace without developing a healthy proclivity for eavesdropping; if people in Gryffindor are talking about you, you want to know what they’re saying. 

“They’re engaged.” That’s Lily’s voice, matter-of-fact. “Holding hands is part of the deal.”

“It is when it’s for the cameras.” You recognize Mary’s cadence now, too. 

“You know James. He’s touchy with everyone.” 

“Exactly, but she doesn’t know that,” Mary argues. She sounds the tiniest bit upset. “James can—I know he’s only being friendly, he doesn’t mean to, but he can flirt without having any idea he’s doing it. She’s going to get the wrong idea.” 

Your stomach quiets. You can’t tell if the butterflies you’ve been feeling all afternoon have frozen in place or fallen dead. 

“I know.” Lily’s voice is a murmur. “I know, but what do you want him to do? I’m sure he wants to tell her everything, but Remus and Sirius will know better than to trust her yet. She’s only been here a couple of weeks. If they tell her and she calls off the wedding, how would that look for Gryffindor? Or if she tells anyone else?” 

Mary sighs. 

“He’s the prince,” Lily says gently. “He has to consider the whole kingdom, and we can’t afford for this to get out. Not everyone is ready for…for…” 

“For their king to be in a gay polycule?” 

You choke on air. 

“It’s not like it would be the first time,” Mary offers.

“Allegedly,” Lily says, though there’s a hint of a smile in her tone. 

Mary scoffs. “Right, allegedly.” 

There’s a long pause. You hear the scrape of wood against the floor and imagine Lily scooting her chair closer to Mary, playing with the ends of the other girl’s hair. 

“I’m sorry,” she says. “It does feel…well, it’s not ideal. Maybe I can talk to James about being a little less…James.” 

Mary’s voice lowers. “I just feel bad for her. She left her home, her family didn’t even seem to hesitate about sending her away—forever—and now she’s an outsider in her own marriage.” 

The barb of their pity stabs through you. Lily murmurs something in response, but you don’t stick around to hear it. You’re done being gossiped about for the day. 

You’re moving so quickly, you walk past the hallway to your room twice before finding it. There’s something warm and sour curdling in your gut, and you’re—you don’t know what you are. Hurt, indignant, nauseous. You feel like an idiot. 

It all seems so transparent now. Horrifyingly, glaringly obvious. Remus’ hand on James’ knee when his bouncing was shaking the table. The private look on Sirius’ face when James fished a leaf out of his hair. How comfortable they all are with each other, touching and joking and speaking in a language you hoped—foolishly—you might one day crack. But it’s not meant to be shared with you. 

You’ve thought, once or twice, that James hasn’t seemed as nervous as you are when you spend time together. Not since that first day. You told yourself it was part of his personality—he’s a confident man, not the sort to trip over his own feet when he likes someone, you shouldn’t read into it—but now, of course, this makes sense. None of this is real to him. The performance is as much for you as it is for the cameras, meant to keep you happy and incurious. 

You would never have gone along with it if you’d known. It’s no wonder Sirius hasn’t been friendly to you; you’re encroaching on his relationship. On all of theirs. You’ve flirted with James in front of all of Remus and Sirius, planned dates, talked about your wedding. You wouldn’t have—god, you’re not trying to stand in the way of what they have. Even when you thought they were only friends, their love for each other was so obvious they couldn’t hope to mask it. You would never want to get in the way of that. You don’t want to do this to them.

But just as the acidic tang of guilt rises in your throat, another force shoves against it. You aren’t doing this to them. Every part you’ve played in this has been against your will. If you’d gone into this arrangement with your eyes open, you could have done things completely differently. Only you hadn’t been given that choice. 

You don’t think James hates you. Remus might not, either. But whatever progress you’ve made with each of them seems pointless now. The impression you had upon first entering Gryffindor has never felt more true. No one wants you here. They never did. 

You’re every bit the girl in a film now, laying on your bed letting tears slip down to wet the pillow. You register the cliche and do nothing about it. 

You don’t know what to do. You can’t go home. Riddle is at Peleria’s doorstep. Even if you could get the King and Queen to commit Gryffindor’s armies without going through with the marriage, Lily is right; it would look bad for both of you to call it off now. You have to marry James. It’s all that’s been asked of you. It’s all you can offer your family, your kingdom. You can’t go home. 

Gryffindor was supposed to be your new home. 

A soft knock on your door summons you from the smog of your self-pity. You sniffle, scrubbing mostly dried tears from under your eyes and checking your reflection in the mirror before saying, “Yes?” 

Remus pokes his head in. The sight of him makes your chest hurt—the slight uptilt to his mouth, the kindness of it. You wonder if this whole time, he’s only been kind to you out of sympathy. “Sirius is jealous that you and James got to spend all day in town,” he says. “He wants to go out for dinner. Are you ready?” 

“Um.” Your voice comes out rough, and you clear your throat. “I’m a bit tired, actually. You guys go ahead.” 

Remus’ almost-smile fades. “If you’re tired, we can eat here.” 

“That’s okay.” 

“Sirius doesn’t always have to get his way,” he says wryly. “It’ll be good for him.” 

“I think I’m just going to…” You give your pillow a lame pat. “...go to bed.” 

You don’t look out the window, at the sun hardly beginning to set; neither does Remus. His brows furrow, and you fuss with your comforter so as not to meet his eyes. Too clever, too discerning. 

“Are you alright?” he asks. 

“Hm?” 

“You sound a bit hoarse.” 

“Oh.” You press your lips into a smile. “I think it’s just the weather.” 

He makes a soft hum. “I’ll have someone bring you a tea. We’ll see you tomorrow, then?” 

“Yeah,” you murmur, lying back down. “Thanks.” 

The door clicks shut behind him. A wave of feeling washes over you—silly, feeling abandoned when you’ve asked to be left behind. A couple more tears squeeze from your eyes nonetheless. They trace meandering paths down your face, the wetness cooling in their wake. 

You wonder if this is how your life will be. Going out in front of cameras with James, smiling, holding hands, then delivering him to his true partners so you can return to your room. Alone. This arrangement isn’t what you thought it was, but you can play the part. For Gryffindor and for Peleria, for James and Sirius and Remus, you can. 

Remus, who was ever the introvert still, never strayed far from the feelings he already knew well for the men he loved for most of his life. He was standoffish at first but honest with you about his uncertainty. He was slow moving in your relationship, a stark contrast to your time spent with Sirius and James. Remus took his time with everything he did. Taking you out on dates you didn’t even realize were dates until he abruptly kissed you one night, openly and proudly despite his anxiety. Eventually you gained his trust, and learned all about his secret. Your first time with him was after an especially hard full moon, the others had been regrettably busy throughout the day following and you couldn't bear it to leave him alone in such a state. You let yourself into their apartment, interrupting his tears to cradle him on his bed. Remus hadn’t realized, or maybe hadn't accepted how much he needed you until he was lazily pushing himself to hover over you, almost begging to be inside of you. He was soft and gentle, focusing on your pleasure more than his own despite your complaints that you came here to help him, not the other way around.

But Peter? He was always the type to enjoy watching, despite barely ever talking to you. Before you even knew of him he would catch a peak each time you tiptoed out of one of the other’s bedrooms in the dead of the night, hair tousled and clothes ruffled. For the longest time you didn't even know they had another roommate, largely due to Peter’s tendency to shut himself away when you first started coming over. Even after you were formally introduced he still would rarely speak to you, not because he didn't want to but because every time he tried he would sputter out half a sentence, turn bright red at your giggle and entirely forget everything that was on his mind. Eventually you did break through his shyness just enough to learn a bit about him, not enough to say you were as close as the others but enough to move forward.

You hadn’t planned it, none of you had, but you were quickly becoming an important part of the men's lives. You practically lived in their apartment, they knew you better than anyone else and actually cared to listen to what you had to say. They gave you a perfect mix of excitement and stability and they all truly started to feel like home to you. The three men were openly proud to say they knew exactly how you ticked, what got you off, and what ruined your mood entirely.

With Peter’s birthday approaching they were, mostly, certain you wouldn’t mind this new suggestion he asked for as a…..present.

“Angel?” Sirius started as he poured you a steaming cup of coffee, handing it to you with the handle out so only his fingertips got a little too hot, “We wanted to ask you something.”

“What is it?” You asked, a nervous laugh slipping past your lips despite your best efforts to hold it back. 

“You know how you so proudly announce at least once a month that you would try just about anything once?” James continued, your eyes snapping to him across the table, your hand pausing where it was bringing your coffee to your mouth. 

“Yes.” They all hear the skeptical tone in your voice, pausing a second before they all silently agree with their eyes to let Remus find the best way to ask, just in case they were all completely wrong about how you would react to this particular idea.

“We’ve been thinking about trying something a little different.” Your heart sank at the tone in his voice, forcing you to set down your coffee in worry that they wanted to have someone else over for the night, “You know how Peter’s birthday is coming up?”

“Just spit it out, you’re scaring me.” You state matter of factly, eyes bouncing between your boyfriends a few times before James finally speaks up. 

“Are you okay with Peter watching all of us fuck you for his birthday?” He asks it so quickly you could have missed it. You take a few seconds to piece his rapid speech together before you breathe out a shaky, relieved laugh. 

“Godric’s sake,” You laugh out, “That’s it? I was imagining so much worse.” 

“So is that a yes then Darling?” James asks, his confident smile returning, dimpling his face at the sound of your laugh. 

“Yes, but Peter knows you’re planning this right? I don’t want to blindside him.” Part of you doesn’t think Peter’s shyness will even let him enter the bedroom door, let alone actually go through with this. They eyed each other, stifling their laughter as best they could before looking back to you.

“It was his idea, Petal.” Remus’ voice is soft and genuine but part of you still feels like this is a big joke. 

“Peter? Shy, innocent, can barley look at me while I’m fully clothed Peter, asked you to let him watch you fuck me.” Sirius laughs openly at your words before responding.

“Innocent? Angel, I don't think you know Pete as well as you think you do.” Your eyes wander your boyfriends again, and their faces all have the same matching look that tells you you have definitely missed something about Peter. 

“He’s obsessed with you,” Remus states simply after a beat, “He’s never said it out loud but we all thought it was pretty obvious.” 

“I wouldn’t be surprised if we found him ruffling through your stuff like a rat one of these days.” Sirius added with a knowing smirk in your direction.

After that morning you started to pick up on little things about Peter you never noticed before. Like how his eyes would always trail you when you entered a room only to fall to the ground once you actually looked at him. Or how his door always seemed to be cracked after you spent a night with one of your boyfriends. And most of all, when you “forgot” your clothes in the living room before your shower one evening, walking out with damp skin and hair, body wrapped in a towel that barely covered anything, making Peter completely stop what he was doing to stare open mouthed and shocked. His eyes trailing you, his gaze like ice on your skin the entire way until you slipped back into the bathroom. That’s when you knew that you had definitely been wrong about “shy little Peter”, not only was he not innocent at all, he certainly seemed to have a staring problem. That very night, after you knew Peter was asleep, you made sure your boyfriends were all together before telling them you were for sure in for whatever they were all cooking up. 

When his birthday finally came around, the tension in the apartment was palpable, the excitement thrumming off the walls as soon as you woke up. They had planned it all out so that Peter was out in the morning leaving you time to shower and tidy yourself up just to make it a little extra special. Right when he was about to be home you stripped yourself of your clothes just as planned, twirling in front of your boyfriends jokingly and asking, “How do I look?”

“Perfect as always.” Sirius rushes to respond before James, tugging you in by your naked waist and melding his lips with your own. You pull off of him with a smile, breaking the kiss and rushing to disappear into Peter’s room while they waited out of sight together. Even though Peter knew the plan and had been patiently waiting ever since he was told you said yes, he was still pleasantly surprised when he made his way into the seemingly empty apartment. Chills running down his spine as he made his way into his bedroom to find you completely naked on his bed waiting for him. His mouth watered and he almost instinctively made his way closer to you, letting the door shut behind him with a loud thud. The smell of your perfume wafted toward him, making everything feel so much more real to him while his eyes hungrily took you in, drifting over every part of you like you were made just for him to look at. 

“W-where are the others?” He stuttered, still not confident enough to be alone with you despite the circumstances, maybe even considering the circumstances, he wasn’t sure. 

“They’re coming, don’t worry,” You speak in the most sultry tone you can manage, leaning forward on your arms to give him a good view of your exposed chest, “They just thought you might want a moment alone with me first, do you?”

“Um, I think,” He could feel his face, neck, and ears flush red, his entire body heating up, his pants tightening embarrassingly quickly as he forced his mouth to form words, “I don’t know if I can.” 

“What, are you nervous?” You immediately pick up on the way his body shakes when you tease him, giggling slightly as you bite your lip and eye him. He gulps audibly, wetting his lips with his tongue and glancing around the room, avoiding eye contact with you entirely now. 

“Yes, I,” He squeezes his eyes shut, his dick only getting harder at the embarrassment flooding his body, “You make me so nervous all the time.” 

“Should I call in the others Pete?” You watch his legs almost buckle, causing a smirk to grow on your face, a tingle running through your own body at the newfound power you have, not even realizing you enjoyed watching someone unravel until now. 

“Yes, oh my god yes.” Peter begged, knowing he would lose his mind if he was alone with you for one more second. Before you even said anything James and Sirius came plowing through the door, rushing into the room like a storm, sending a thrill through his body when he realized they must have been listening to his pitiful attempts at speaking to you. Remus entered after them, slower and more collected, even taking the time to close the door behind him. Once in the room fully, he sent you a knowing look that told you he could tell just how much you were enjoying this. You bit into your bottom lip to suppress a giggle, locking eyes with his predatory gaze you could never get enough of.  

“You really have no clue what to do with her huh Pete?” Sirius started, watching as his friend's eyes bounced across the room, “You’re so desperate you need us to explain everything, yeah?” You immediately picked up on the dominant tone he so often used with you, making you wonder if they had ever done this before. James and Sirius slowly circled him like prey while Remus watched, the ease with which they fell into their roles told you that they most certainly had been in this situation before. 

“Yeah Petey,” James added, the new nickname pulling a whimper from the less experienced man as James and Sirius eyed him with a darkness behind their eyes even you weren’t used to, they were enjoying watching his humiliation slowly seep out of him with each passing second, the dark excitement on their faces only pushes you further into the fantasy, “What do you want us to show you first? What would you be searching for if this was your favorite little porn website?" The question pulled a laugh from you and Sirius both, the sound echoing off the walls and sending shivers across Peter’s whole body, forcing a whimper from his chest, his tip leaking against his boxers pushing him closer and closer to desperation. 

“I want Sirius to fuck her from behind while I watch from the front.” The words fumbled out of his mouth in one breath, his eyes bouncing between all of you as if he was seeking praise for his confidence. Which you gladly gave. 

“Good job Pete,” You smiled a sickly sweet smile and Sirius wasted no time, yanking his shirt off in one fell swoop, his hands immediately falling to his belt buckle, tugging it open and his zipper down, pulling his pants and boxers off at once to free himself, this thick cock bouncing against the hair trailing from his navel in the most teasing way. He slowly walked his way behind you, letting Peter watch his lean muscles constrict as he knelt behind you on the bed, taking one hand to softly flatten across your back before using it to shove you roughly into the mattress. His warm hands took hold of your hips, tugging you up at the perfect angle to tease your entrance with his tip, “You ready Angel?” 

You could hear the smile in his voice, his eyes burning into the back of your head as Peter’s gaze bore into your eyes, “Yes, I’m ready.” 

Sirius slowly slid himself inside of you, letting you feel every inch of him, every vein on his shaft before he bottomed out inside of you with a groan. You were already dripping wet around him, the foreplay sending your juices leaking around him, his balls sticky from your excitement. Sirius’ hands felt up your waist, one hand settling above your hip while the other simultaneously gripped your shoulder. He took a second to let you get comfortable with his size before pulling out all but his red, leaking tip and driving himself back into you. His hold on you grips tightens, driving into you further and letting his tip kiss against your cervix before pulling back to thrust into you harder this time, the sounds of his hips smacking against yours obscenely echoing against the walls. 

You could feel all of their eyes on you, tracing every inch of your body, watching how each of Sirius’ thrusts make you shake and slide a little closer to them. They circled the end of the bed like a pack of wild animals, the sight exciting you further, your walls instinctively clench tighter, sucking Sirius further into you and letting your juices drip out around him, pulling a loud moan from deep in his chest. “Fuck Angel, you’re already dripping around me.”

“You’re gonna stain the sheets Darling.” James adds, stepping closer as your eyes shift from Peter to him, dropping to his noticeable bulge in his pants while his words barely register in your mind. Your eyes drift to Remus, his tall, imposing frame casting a shadow across your face when he steps close enough to grip your chin in his scarred fingers, his smile was soft and full, almost out of place in the room that was steadily heating with the mix of everyone’s excitement.

“You’re really enjoying this aren't you?” You nod helplessly, Sirius’ thrusts picking up pace with each glance between you and Remus, the sound of Remus’ soft voice egging you both on and pushing Sirius dangerously close to the edge. “What’s your favorite part, Petal?” You whimper pathetically, eyes watering as Sirius’ soft hand that was resting on your hip falls to play with your clit in small, teasing circles that contradict his hard, deep thrusts inside of you. 

“Fuck, I- oh my god,” You mumble incoherently, babbling slightly when Sirius cuts you off, driving into you deeper, pushing you almost flat against the mattress with your hips still high in the air, pounding into you with near angelic moans falling past his perfect, parted lips. Peter stood like a statue in front of you, his hard cock obvious in his pants but left untouched while his eyes bounced from you, to Sirius, then back to you, then to Remus, then back to you, like he was entranced, stuck in a messy, sticky, erotic timeloop he never wanted to leave.

“Aw, Sirius is fucking her so good she can’t speak.” James teased, a fake pout creasing his cheeks as he spoke. 

“Come on Baby, use your words.” Remus states, firmer this time but still just as soft in tone. You do your best to respond, barely piecing the response together through your and Sirius’ mingling moans and the increasingly frantic smack of his hips against the flesh of your ass and thighs.

“I like- holy shit I fucking love it all,” You pant through a broken whine, barely audible as you continue, “Getting used, getting watched, making fun of Peter for being a freaky little perv, it’s all so much.” You laughed through a moan, the men in front of you giggling and eyeing Peter’s reaction to your words. Sirius was too distracted to even notice, all of his senses tuned in to your body. The feeling of your wet, dripping walls sucking him back in each time he left you empty, the wet sounds of you both connecting, the eyes of his life long best friends. All of it sends shivers down his back, his abdomen tightening in a ball of heat, making his cock twitch, aching in pain inside of you as he tries to last just a little longer for you.  

“Don’t let her finish,” Peter snapped, his voice was even and oddly proud, you had never heard him this confident and for the first time since you had ever met him you found yourself attracted to him. This was a punishment, for the laughs, for the jab at him, and god was it turning you on more. Peter stepped forward and slowly lifted his hand to run the knuckles of two of his fingers down your cheek before gently lifting your chin up, watching your eyes as Sirius abruptly pulled out of you. He smiled down at you, dark eyes watching you whine at the empty feeling while hearing the familiar sounds of Sirius finishing himself off, groaning through his teeth before thick strands of his release painted your naked back, warm and sticky drips falling with the shape of your arch. “Who do you want next? I want you to choose one of them.”

Peter’s smile was almost evil, a wicked look you didn't even know he was capable of, his bulge was prominent and so close to your face making your mind spin before Sirius quickly spoke up,

“He just watches, don't you Peter, not brave enough yet to fuck her are you?’ Peter shook his head, eyeing you only when he spoke. 

“I like watching,” His voice didn’t sound like his own, but your boyfriends didn’t even seem fazed by the shift, his eyes were blown and deep as they swept your frame, taking in your body marked with Sirius’ cum, “It’s better for everyone this way, now pick….whoever goes last gets to cum inside you, how does that sound?”

Your eyes immediately shot to Remus, his long fingers tightening into a fist and his jaw clenching, eyes squeezing shut as he visibly twitched in his sweatpants. “James first, I want his big arms around my neck so bad I can’t wait.” In reality you knew how much Remus needed to mark you, while he loved all of you dearly and agreed to this whole heartedly, even excitedly, he had been oddly calm since it started. And you remembered how sometimes his wolf would get jealous of even his own boyfriends, so with Peter here, watching you like you were his own personal camgirl, you knew he would get to a breaking point eventually. 

James had already stripped himself of his clothes while watching Sirius enjoy you, his tip was already leaking, wrapped in his hand only a few seconds ago. Jamie never could wait for long, you thought, a smile growing on your face when he ran to join you on the bed. James could still feel the warmth of the spot Sirius had just occupied, egging him on and sending shockwaves directly to his “neglected” cock. Sirius’ glistening cum was still dripping off your back, the sight making James' abdomen tighten painfully already. In one quick movement James slotted himself inside of you with a sigh of pure satisfied relief, a whimper falling from his lips as he pulled out of you almost completely, thrusting back into with a ruthless, bruising pace that shook your body. His hips rocked against yours, too impatient to wait for the build up as he swiftly pushed your body back into the mattress, forcing you to take all of him in quick, sharp thrusts. 

Your arms were already too weak to push yourself back up, your breathing growing ragged from James splitting you open with each thrust, whiny whimpers mixed with your panted moans, the sound of James skin hitting yours and the heat of the room were all pushing you dangerousing close to high you were already denied. Your eyes were blurry from warm tears that dripped down your face and darkened the sheet but you could still see the men in front of you, all impossibly hard and towering over you with an animalistic need in their eyes.

James roughly pulled you up with one large hand spread across your shoulder and pulled you into his simmering body, arching your back and forcing you into a kneeling position, your knees spread wide in front of him. His thrusts quickened and hit new angles deeper inside of you. He braces himself by bringing his warm, calloused right hand around your abdomen, groping your flesh and feeling himself moving inside of you before closing on your left hip tightly. At the same time wrapping his other arm around you across your shoulders to lock you in his embrace, his thick flexing bicep pressing against your neck and forcing your head back against his shoulder. Peter had relaxed into a chair tugged toward the end of his bed, something that had gone entirely unnoticed to you in your haze, his legs were spread and his eyes looked almost empty of color. Wide, dark saucers of need swept across your exposed body, your breasts displayed for him like art, James’ large cock protruding into you visible between your thighs that were dripping in wetness soaking down your legs and into the ruined bedding. 

“Fuck Jamie,” Sirius started, his voice weak, palming himself at the sight infront of him where he stood at the side of the bed. “You may wanna slow down, she’s looking a little spent.”

He was chasing his own release, pent up with need from watching you take Sirius, the sound of you taking him into you so well making his brain foggy and unfocused on the signs your body giving him. A sticky ring of your arousal was forming at the base of his cock, wetting his trimmed curls of hair and clouding his mind, the room was starting to smell like pure sex and his head was swimming in pleasure. A growl rumbled through his chest each time you moaned and whimpered directly into his ear, small huffed moans of Jamie, trying to warn him of your release coming on quickly fell on deaf ears, only making him ram into you harder. Your core was tightening with each thrust, his tip bullying your cervix and sending shockwaves throughout your body, you were twitching and pushing away from the pleasure of James, only to be aggressively tugged back into him, snapping your reserve and pushing you over the edge. You came with a loud scream of a moan in his ear, his hips snapped into you harder, digging his nails into your body as it slowly went limp in his grasp. Your arousal soaked your legs and his hips, dripping down the muscles at the front of his thighs, his cock was coated in your juices, slippery with your excitement as he thrusted into you one last time before he whimpered desperately in your ear, tugging himself out to spurt long, thick ropes of his cum all over the soft skin at the inside of your thighs. It mixed deliciously with your juices, dripping down your legs and staining the sheet below you further. Gently James laid you against the mattress with care, softly rubbing his hands up and down and across your back, massaging your spent muscles as three aggressive stares pulled his attention to them. His eyes are already glossy and begging silently for forgiveness. 

“You weren’t supposed to let her cum Jamie.” Sirius sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. 

“I know but I -” James looked around at the eyes of the disappointed men sputtering his explanation with his hands waving madly over your spent body, “Look at her! How am I supposed to deny her this?”

“Oh I don’t know by….pulling out before she finishes maybe.” Sirius mocks, both so entranced in each other that they don’t notice Peter’s eyes following the slow movements of Remus approaching the bed, his tall frame towering over your sweaty body. Remus’ long fingers slowly traced your face, wiping your tears from your cheeks, eyeing you and silently asking if you wanted him to keep going. You gave him a weak nod and that was all he needed. In a flash he had flipped you over, his strong arms laying you down flat on your back, resting your head on the pillow before running his hands up and down your waist. Your sensitive body tingles with each touch, thrumming with energy while at the same time completely ready to drift into a dreamless sleep. Your eyes lolled shut as Remus’ hands drifted to separate your sticky thighs, falling into you like he was made to slot between your open legs. 

The skin of his hips were slick with the mix of your and James’ release when he pushed into you, the wetness of your used walls letting him slide in with ease. Remus’ warm scarred hands found yours, locking your fingers together while he set a slow soothing pace. His hips rutting into your overstimulated body with caution, your fogged brain didn’t get a chance to return to normal after your climax, Remus’ body was warm above you. His cock was heavy, stretching you open and pushing your mind further into the oblivion only they could give you. Your eyes fell shut at the feeling of his soft thrusts shaking your body, a calm pleasure falling over you both as the room fell away around you. You were too far gone to hear the men around you chasing their own releases, the slick of their hands on them echoing around the room for their own pleasure. Your ears tuned into the thump of your own heart, the soft kisses caressing your neck as Remus whispers only for you to hear, “You’re so perfect, all fucked out for us. You’d let us do just about anything, yeah?”

Your lips try to form words but nothing but broken moans can fall past them. Your whole body tingling as you’re pushed closer and closer to an unfamiliar void of all thought, your body had almost felt too much. The soft caresses of Remus’ fingers down your side, the tingle down your back at his whispers, the pull of his cock inside you, was too much. His sweet touches igniting your body, as if you were feeling everything all at once, forcing your mind from its proper place and leaving you a breathless, moaning mess. Writhing under him while you tumble over the edge blindly, an almost painful tug at your core forcing you into a premature orgasm and wrenching a scream of pleasure and pain from your throat. 

A growl rumbled deep in Remus' chest, your nails dug into the skin of his biceps as he pushed your legs higher, unwinding them from where they had wrapped themselves around his waist to push them forward. Shoving them closer to your chest and letting him hit deeper inside of you. It was cruel, he knew it was, but the whine that squeaked from your lips and the gush of release that flooded past his cock, your red and abused clit twitching and throbbing against his hipbones with each thrust. He watched your body go limp, small tremors shooting through your limbs while he chased his release, his balls tight and slapping into you, strings of sticky release connecting you still before he plowed into you again. His thrusts were sloppy and deep, unrelenting inside of you, your brain was numb and lost to the world so deep in your pleasure that it was all you could hear, all you could feel, all you could taste. He released thick, inhuman streams of cum inside of you with a predatory, possessive growl, painting your walls with his seed, pushing so hard against your cervix that you would be carrying him inside you for days. 

Remus came down with a huff above you, dropping his head into your neck to kiss your warm, tingling skin. A soft, weak hum of appreciation falls from your lips as the mattress dips with the weight of James and Sirius joining you both on Peter’s bed. Your mind was slowly being lulled back where it belongs with the soft attention paid to you by your boyfriends, your sore muscles already being massaged and your thighs being cleaned. A content smile on your lips, your eyes still closed, but the heat of Peter’s gaze still digging into you.  

“You sure you don’t wanna help us bring her down Pete?” James asks, noting the way Peter eyes bounce between their hands across your body. 

“No, there is something so enticing about watching you all take over my bed.”

looking at up at him, you saw his gaze locked on barty, eyes narrowed and barely containing the possessive growl you knew his wolf wanted to let out.

“remmy?” you inhaled sharply when his fingers slipped underneath your skirt, teasing along the gusset of your cotton underwear in slow, barely there touches, just enough to get slick to pool out of your cunt, desire creeping up your spine, leaving you near breathless with want, despite the perverted audience.

you bit your lip, trying to keep your expression neutral as you whimpered his name again quietly, looking over to find barty still staring, though his jaw had dropped slightly, focus much lower than it had been before.

“can you keep quiet for me, angel? need to teach junior a lesson,” he said, not bothering to spare you a glance as he pulled your now damp underwear to the side, smirking at the little gasp you let out when the cold air hit your bare cunt.

“mine,” he growled quietly, only loud enough for you to hear, never taking his eyes off barty for a second. you were grateful that remus’ hand covered you, not that he would ever let anyone but the boys see your body.

his fingers slid along your slit, collecting the slippery slick as he pulled your leg atop of his. his digits finally entered your heat, and you grasped desperately at his wrist with both hands, simultaneously wanting him to stop and keep going as he pumped in and out of you, tendons flexing beneath your fingertips.

struggling to maintain your composure, you buried your face into remus’ arm, praying that he’d be merciful and cast a silencing spell. blood pooled into your mouth as your teeth broke through your lip, thin skin splitting painfully as your hips bucked into his touch, high building quicker than usual.

“i want you to look at junior when you cum, if you look away even for a moment, i won’t let you cum. do you understand?” he was finally looking at you when you peeled your face from his arm, all teary eyes and flushed as you nodded, mumbling a quiet ‘i understand’ when he gave you a look.

you met barty’s wide eyes, not failing to notice how the front of his trousers has tented up, body tense as he watched your face crumple as you came, head tipping forward slightly at the sporadic pulsing of your cunt.

you collapsed back into remus’ side as you calmed down, eyes fluttering shut so you were unable to see how after remus pulled his cum coated fingers out of your underwear, he licked them clean, skin glistening with slick and saliva.

you nearly jumped when everyone stood up, panicking that they’d all caught on to the depraved act you’d just committed, only relaxing when remus rubbed your arm, telling you that class was over.

quickly fixing your underwear, he helped you up, your legs trembling from the effort so soon after cumming. you could only stand there helplessly as he packed away your stuff, throwing both your bags over his shoulder as you watched him in a daze.

you could barely think as remus half held you up as you started the walk back to the boy’s dorm, you clinging to his shirt as you tried your best to hurry after him.

you squealed when he shoved the two of you into an alcove, casting a wandless silencing spell before pressing you against the cold, brick wall and kissing you. you moaned into it, his saliva soothing your bloodied lip as he devoured you, tongue sliding against yours.

already feeling needy again, you wiggled against him, willing him to understand what you wanted, melting as his lips trailed over your neck, sucking plum bruises into the flesh, his sharp teeth nipping at the tender skin.

“oh- remmy, please,”

“shh, i know,” he said as he pulled away, undoing his belt, “need to feel your mouth on me, baby.”

you nodded mindlessly, his fingers pressing down on your shoulders until you dropped to your knees, placing your hands on your thighs obediently as you waited for his further instruction, watching with eager eyes as he pulled out his throbbing cock, tip red with arousal, a small glob of pre dribbling down his slit.

he fisted at your hair, clasping it into a makeshift ponytail before using it to guide you closer, hips jumping in suspense. leaning forward, your tongue swirled around his tip, the salty taste of his pre exploding on your tongue, making you whimper. he groaned low at the vibrations, muttering sweet yet filthy praises as his head tilted back against the stone.

dark eyes bored into yours as you took him down your throat, never looking away from eachother, even as you choked around him and tears ran down your face, cooling your heated cheeks.

“oh fuck- gonna come in that pretty mouth of yours- so close- so- oh,” his hips stilled, cum spilling onto your tongue with a drawn out moan, fingers digging into your scalp.

he nearly came again when he opened his eyes, the sight of you sat so prettily before him, tongue sticking out to show him the way his pearly cum coated the pink muscle, smiling softly with dilated pupils and oh so eager to please him.

“shit- good girl, you can swallow now,”

you nearly beamed at that, swallowing happily as he pulled you up into his arms, pressed your bodies together to kiss you again, the taste of himself on your tongue making his dick twitch as he put it away.

~

you barely made it back to the dorm, having to stop every so often to exchange sloppy kisses and dry hump eachother, just to ease the tension until the need to feel each other’s bodies was satiated for a moment.

he opened the door for you, finding the room empty, and you realised that james and sirius were most likely going to be late back as they’d be coming from quidditch practice.

you turned to remus, finding him watching you, back leant against the door.

“strip and get on the bed,” he said, leaving you no room for arguments as he rolled up his shirt sleeves.

you walked over to his bed, ripping off items of clothing as you move, before crawling up to kneel again, waiting patiently for him.

he spent a few minutes just watching you, observing your every tic, the way you breathed heavily, mouth slightly parted and cheeks rosy, the way your breath hitched when he began to walk over to you, loosening his tie and undoing his belt again, wrapping it around his rough palm.

his free hand cupped your face, thumb gliding over your glossy lips as he smiled at you, pressing the digit into your mouth, humming at the way you suckled at it, lids fluttering in pure bliss.

"what's your safe word, sweetheart?" he pulled his thumb out with a wet pop, smearing your spit back over your lips as you mumbled against him.

"yellow for slow, red for stop,"

"good girl, now lie back for me,"

once you were flat against the bed, he flipped you over, pulling your hands behind your back to tie your wrists together with his belt, tight enough to make it hurt just enough for your mind to go fully spacey.

satisfied with the bonds, he gripped your hips, tugging them up so that you were on display for him, cunt exposed and face pressed into the sheets, facing the closed door.

slick had poured down your thighs, smearing across your skin from all the dry humping and walking. he kneeled down on the bed before gently blowing air onto your puffy cunt, chuckling when you pushed back on the feeling, desperate for any kind of stimulation.

giving you no warning, he shoved his face into the mess between your thighs, eating you out from behind. you cried out, unable but needing to grip at his hair and pull him into you. he lapped at your arousal before drawing your clit into his mouth, sucking harshly at the sensitive nub, holding you down as you writhed and kneading at whatever skin he could reach.

you were a mess of constant whimpers, your high building up quicker than you could cope with. but, just as you were about to fall apart, he pulled away, your orgasm falling just right outside your reach.

“no, no please-, i was good! no-,”

remus watching your cunt clench around nothing, even more slick dribbling out, although now it had turned thicker and opaque, just how he liked it.

“you’re creaming f’me already, baby? i don’t even have to try and your cunts all messy,”

tears streamed down your face and you begged him to make you cum, begged him to make you feel good, making desperate promises to do anything he wanted, anything at all.

“shh, it’s okay, need to feel you cumming round my cock, ‘kay?”

you nodded, just happy that you were getting what you wanted.

he pulled his cock out again, still damp with your saliva as he rubbed his tip against your puffy cunt before pushing in. you always took him so well, tight walls hugging him like a glove, pulsing to accommodate his length, cunt almost as eager to please as you were.

you mewled as he started fucking you, one of his feet up by your head for leverage, pounding into your sloppy hole. you were so close already, only needing a few thrusts to tip over the edge, your thighs trembling and fingers trying to grasp at anything behind you.

you screamed when he didn’t stop, gushing around his cock as you’re immediately sent into another orgasm, his fingers swirling on your oversensitive pearl. you tried to squirm away, mouth open in a silent scream as you panicked at the overstimulation.

he hushed you, groaning at the way you clenched down on him before he pressed his weight onto you, cementing you to the mattress and biting into your shoulder to keep you grounded.

you were both getting close again, eyes rolling back, his fingers slid up your back to the base of your scalp, gripping at your hair, pain and pleasure swirling together as you came again, squirting so forcefully that his cock was forced out of you.

“this pretty cunt is mine,” he growled, pushing back in just in time to coat your walls in his cum, walls fluttering around him at the noises that came from remus’ mouth.

you sighed, beginning to relax now that you thought you were getting a break, thinking he was going to stop and pull out any second.

you started sobbing when reality hit you, his hips never slowing. you were so overwhelmed and feeling almost too good, his tip hitting your g spot perfectly on every thrust, clouding your head in a fog so thick that you wouldn’t be able to get out of it on your own, completely gone under his touch.

“i know, i know, bunny. doing so well, that’s it, sweet thing,”

you’re a complete mess beneath him, shaking violently as you babbled, unable to form proper words or sentences, nipples brushing harshly against the sheets.

you barely noticed the door opening, both james and sirius entering wide eyed to the display of you being pounded into the mattress, looking at them all glassy-eyed with an empty head.

“are you two just going to stand there like muppets or are you going to join us?” remus quipped, moaning loudly when you squirted again.

snapping out their daze, sirius quickly locked the door behind him before they scrambled over, cocks already chubbing up.

james went over to remus, rubbing at your back as he intently watched the strings of slick joining your skin as the latter thrust his hips into you, the sounds of skin slapping and lewd, wet squelches filling the room.

sirius however, went straight over to your head, kneeling down next to you with concern wrenching his features, carbon black eyes piercing into your teary ones.

“you okay, lovebug? doing so good for rem,” he said quietly, more than well aware of how remus could get at this time. he stroked your sweat-damp hair out of your flushed face, ignoring the way his cock was throbbing in his trousers at your uncontrolled noises, completely pliant and docile.

unable to speak, remus luckily took mercy and answered for you, “she’s juusst fine, aren’t ya, sweet thing?”

you nodded into the sheets, james testing the waters a he ran his hands strayed from your back, squeezing at whatever flesh remus allowed him to.

sirius planted kisses over your face, murmuring praises to you sweetly. he loved these moments with you, getting to be the one to comfort you whilst you were flying high on pleasure. he kept talking you through it as remus came again, soothing you when you whimpered at remus pulling out to let james have a go, leaving nothing to stop the mixture of his and your cum to dribble out of you, trickling down your sore thighs.

remus undid his belt from around your wrists, rubbing at the reddened skin as he encourage james to take his place, watching as the latter pushed into your heat, whining at the warmth of you.

“easy now, she’s tired,”

“she feels so good,” james grabbed your ass, fingertips digging into the soft skin as he started thrusting into you, starting out slow and controlled before he gave up trying to hold back, fucking you so hard you could barely breathe.

you just about managed to bring your aching arms up, reaching for sirius, he brought his hands to meet yours, thinking that’s what you wanted, only to lurch over at the way you palmed over his trousers, fingers fiddling with his zip.

“please?” you whimpered, struggling to keep your eyes open.

“okay, okay fuck- think you can take me in your mouth, darling? yeah? okay,”

sirius bit back a groan at the way you were already salivating at the sight of his cock, drool slipping out the corners of your mouth as your tongue lulled out, looking up at him as you waited for him.

you let out the prettiest little noises around his cock, sending vibrations through him making him shudder as remus came up behind him, guiding him to lean back and let him undress him.

you hummed in satisfaction, watching remus tease at sirius’ nipples and suck at his neck whilst both their eyes were on you, muttering filthy things as james continued to fuck you, all desperate thrusts of hips and sweet moans.

“good girl, taking siri so well,”

“yeah, she’s so good- more please- oh,”

sirius’ balls slapped against your wet chin, his hips bucking into your mouth when you increased the suction, tongue swirling at the underside of his cock, gagging slightly at the intrusion.

james pulled your torso up a little, tugging you up so that sirius could fuck your mouth easier, strong arms working to hold you up, “there you go, feeling good, baby?”

you nodded the best you could with a cock between your lips, eyes rolling to the back of your head with the noises that echoed around the room.

sirius’ cock twitched in your mouth when remus’ hands started wandering, watching the way he cleaned up you spit coated chin with his fingers, before sliding his hand down to sirius’ ass, gently stroking over his rim, causing him to buck into your mouth harshly.

“fuck- rem i can’t- cant take both,”

“yes, you can pads, let us make you feel good, hm?”

sirius had no chance to object before remus was pushing a finger inside, prying open his tight hole and pressing against his sweet spot, making sirius toss his head back against remus’ shoulder.

sirius’ hips bucked wildly into you, moaning at the way you spluttered around him, spit drooling onto his hard cock. he didn’t last long before cumming straight down your throat, the dual sensations of your mouth on him and remus’ fingers inside too much at once.

whimpering as you continued to suckle on his sensitive head, his legs gave out, the only thing holding him up being remus’ free arm wrapped around his waist. the lycanthrope’s fingers slowed to a stop as he gently pulled the boy’s cock out of your mouth, before guiding him to lay down next to you.

you brought a shaky hand up to sirius’ beside you, clutching at him for dear life as james pushed you head back into the linen sheets, hips speeding up more than you thought possible.

the warmth deep inside your belly was spreading, making your toes curl, unable to do anything but cry and take it, screaming in pleasure.

your thighs were burning from exertion, jaw aching and cunt oversensitive, but you didn’t care, you weren’t even capable of caring about anything other than cumming at that moment, the feel of james’ tip hitting your g-spot rendering you cock drunk.

“you’re so tight, lovie. need to feel you cum, m’so close- oh,”

remus knelt down beside you, taking sirius’ place as he murmured to you, “being so good f’me, darling. just one more and you’re mine again. cum on jamie’s cock for me and i’ll spend the next 24 hours worshipping your body.”

you instantly fell apart, nails digging into sirius’ skin as your eyes rolled back, body shaking so hard that james was half worried he’d broken you, before he too came, flooding your insides with his seed, your pulsing cunt milking him for all that he’s worth.

you both collapsed, lying in a pool of your own bodily fluids, a mixture of everyone’s cum and sweat, spit and tears. you couldn’t find it within yourself to care, still mewling even though no one was touching you anymore, aftershocks nearly enough to make you cum again.

using what little strength you had left, you managed to peel open your eyes, finding remus’ gaze still locked on you, lips pulled into a smug smirk as he mouthed to you, “mine.”

he planted a long kiss to your sweaty forehead, before he allowed sirius to pull you into him, your tits pressed against his chest as you buried your face into his neck, dark curls tickling your nose, his arms enveloping you.

you felt remus stroke at your hair, still knelt on the floor, as james joined the cuddle, curling up behind you with a worn out sigh, “what triggered that then?”

you whined into sirius at the question, worrying that it would set remus off again, the former’s large hands rubbing soothingly at your back.

“junior was leering at her,” he growled, tension filling the air as his fist subconsciously gripped at your hair, making you go rigid, “he wanted to touch her.”

“we can deal with it tomorrow,”

“yeah moony, let’s just look after our girl for now,”

remus hummed, seemingly content with that, fist relaxing as he pressed a few apologetic kisses over your head, waiting until you hummed in acknowledgment to speak, voice low with thick desire.

“it’s my turn again, sweet girl,”

despite being so worn out, you couldn’t help the way your cunt clenched at that, warm cum oozing out with a sleepy moan.

The fire in the hearth was burning low, casting long shadows across the stone walls. The Gryffindor common room had that particular hush it only carried late at night — when most of the house had gone to bed, and only the restless lingered.

You were nestled into the heart of it, surrounded by the people who had become your world. Sirius sprawled across the rug like he owned it, his hair catching the firelight in wild streaks, every inch of him radiating reckless bravery. James perched on the arm of a chair, glasses sliding down his nose, his grin as loyal and steady as the heartbeat of the group. Remus tucked himself into the corner with a book, quiet endurance etched into the slope of his shoulders, the kind of strength that didn’t need to be shouted. Lily sat cross-legged on the floor, her sharp intelligence alive in every glance, every word, grounding the chaos with clarity.

And then there was Peter — curled up nearby, half-dozing, safe in his role as little brother. You loved him fiercely, but differently. He was family, not someone your heart tangled itself around in the same way it did with the others.

It was in moments like this, when laughter and banter sparked between them, that you felt the weight of your crushes most keenly. Each one rooted in something deeper than surface attraction: Sirius’ bravery, James’ loyalty, Remus’ endurance, Lily’s intelligence. They were qualities that drew you in, made you ache with admiration, and left you wondering if they saw you the same way.

The fire crackled, Sirius tossed a cushion, James leaned forward with a grin, Remus murmured without looking up, Lily nudged your knee — and suddenly, the night unfolded into the kind of scene that would linger in memory, warm and complicated all at once.

The Gryffindor common room was thick with midnight mischief, the fire burning low as Sirius sprawled across the rug, eyes gleaming with reckless delight. He was halfway through describing the prank of the century — enchanted suits of armor marching into the Great Hall, bawdy ballads echoing off the stone — when James leaned forward, glasses slipping down his nose, and added eagerly that they’d claim it was all in the name of school spirit.

Remus smirked faintly from his corner, book forgotten in his lap, while Peter nodded so hard it looked like his head might fall off. The boys were practically vibrating with anticipation, their voices tumbling over one another in excitement.

Beside them, you and Lily exchanged a glance — heads tilted, lips twitching, amusement coating your expressions. It was the kind of look that said boys will be boys, without needing words.

“Honestly,” Lily said, shaking her head, her tone dripping with mock exasperation, “you lot never tire of embarrassing yourselves. Juvenile doesn’t even begin to cover it.”

You grinned, chiming in before Sirius could protest. “She’s right. If you put half this energy into studying, you’d all be top of the class instead of top of detention.”

James clutched his chest in mock offense. “Detention builds character! Besides, Quidditch counts as academics in my book.”

Lily snorted, her green eyes flashing. “Yes, James, because chasing a flying ball is clearly the pinnacle of higher learning.”

Remus smirked, dry as ever. “Don’t encourage him, Lily. He’ll start writing it on his essays as a qualification.”

You leaned forward, playful, unable to resist. “Honestly, it’s like babysitting a pack of overgrown children. You’re ridiculous.”

Sirius shot you a wolfish grin, his voice low and daring. “Ridiculous? Or daring? There’s a difference, love.”

Lily arched an eyebrow, amusement sparking in her eyes. “Daring would be standing up to Malfoy in Potions without turning his cauldron into a swamp. What you’re describing is chaos for chaos’ sake.”

The boys groaned in unison, but the laughter that followed filled the room, warm and familiar. You and Lily shared another glance — half mocking, half affectionate — the kind that said you’d always be there to keep them in line, even if they never listened.

The corridors were quiet, the torches burning low as you wandered back from the common room. Each step seemed to carry the echo of their laughter — Sirius’ wolfish grin, James’ mock offense, Remus’ dry wit, Lily’s sharp teasing. You could still see the way the firelight had caught in their eyes, the way the room had felt alive with mischief and belonging.

And yet, as you replayed it all, the ache settled in. Sirius, brave and reckless, had smiled at you like he smiled at everyone. James, loyal to the bone, had flushed at your words but his heart was already tethered elsewhere. Remus, enduring and gentle, had ducked his head, but not because he saw you the way you saw him. Lily, brilliant and grounding, had leaned close, but her affection was friendship, not the kind of love you secretly craved.

You sighed, shaking your head at yourself. Honestly, stop it, you thought. Nobody is in love with anybody. You’re just friends. Best friends. That’s all.

But you spoke too soon.

As you rounded the corner, the torchlight caught on a tangle of figures just ahead. Sirius pressed close to James, laughter swallowed in a kiss that was more daring than any prank. Lily’s hand cupped Remus’ cheek, her intelligence softened into tenderness as his endurance melted into vulnerability under her touch. It wasn’t frantic or messy — it was warm, deliberate, the kind of closeness that spoke of secrets shared and boundaries already broken.

You froze, breath caught in your throat, the scene unfolding like a revelation you weren’t meant to see. The ache you had been trying to laugh away sharpened, cutting deeper. They were all on each other, lips brushing, hands tangled, bodies leaning into one another with a familiarity that left no room for doubt.

And suddenly, your self-chiding felt hollow. Because here, in the flicker of torchlight, it was clear: love was not absent. It was alive, burning between them — just not with you.

They didn’t notice you.

Your breath caught, and before the sound could betray you, you scurried back the way you’d come, footsteps muffled against the worn carpet. The ache in your chest was immediate, sharp, and it pressed harder with every step. How long have they been together? The question reeled through your mind, relentless. Did they not want me to find out? Did they think of me as extra weight? Was I always the outcast, the one orbiting their world but never truly inside it?

By the time you reached the stairwell, your chest felt tight, your eyes stung. You pressed a hand against the cool stone wall, trying to steady yourself. Nobody is in love with anybody, you had told yourself moments ago. But the truth was there, undeniable, burning in the torchlight you’d fled from. Love was alive between them — just not with you.

The library was hushed, sunlight filtering through tall windows and painting the dust motes gold. You sat hunched over a heavy tome on ancient runes, the characters blurring as your mind kept circling back to what you’d seen in the corridor. Every page you turned felt heavier, every symbol harder to focus on.

A soft voice broke the silence. “Studying or sulking?”

You looked up to see Lizzy — her Hufflepuff scarf draped loosely around her neck, her smile gentle but knowing. She slid into the chair beside you without waiting for permission, as she always did. Lizzy had been your anchor long before the Marauders, the one you confided in when the world felt too heavy.

“I’m trying to study,” you muttered, tapping the runes with your quill, “but my brain won’t cooperate.”

Lizzy tilted her head, eyes narrowing with concern. “Something happened.”

You hesitated, the ache in your chest pressing harder. Finally, the words spilled out. “I saw them. James, Sirius, Remus, Lily… together. Kissing. Close. And they didn’t even notice me.”

Lizzy’s expression softened, her hand reaching across the table to squeeze yours. “Oh, [Name]…”

The questions tumbled out before you could stop them. “How long have they been together? Did they not want me to find out? Do they think of me as extra weight? Was I always just… the outcast?”

Lizzy shook her head firmly, her voice steady. “You are not an outcast. You’re their friend, their heart. But sometimes people keep secrets because they’re scared, not because they don’t love you. You’ve always been part of them — even if they’re tangled up in each other too.”

Her words didn’t erase the sting, but they steadied you. In the quiet of the library, with ancient runes spread before you and Lizzy’s hand warm against yours, you felt the first thread of comfort weaving its way back into your chest.

The library had settled into that comfortable rhythm again, you and Lizzy drifting from heartbreak into laughter, talking about everything and nothing at once. She was mid-sentence about how ridiculous Sirius looked when he tried to juggle quills, when the door creaked open.

Peter slipped inside, clutching a stack of parchment, his hair sticking up in that familiar, endearing way. He looked tired but determined, muttering something about finishing his Charms essay.

You glanced at Lizzy just in time to catch it — the faintest blush rising to her cheeks, her eyes darting down to the book in front of her as if the runes had suddenly become the most fascinating thing in the world. She buried herself in the pages, shoulders stiff, trying to hide the warmth spreading across her face.

Interesting, you thought, a grin tugging at your lips. Lizzy liked Peter.

And of course, like any best friend, you had to do something about it.

“Oi, Peter!” you called, waving him over before he could scuttle off to a corner. “Come sit with us. Lizzy and I were just talking about how hopeless we are at Charms.”

Peter blinked, surprised, then shuffled over, dropping his parchment onto the table. “Really? I’m not that good either, but… I guess we can suffer together.”

Lizzy peeked up from her book, her blush deepening, but she managed a small smile. “I’m sure you’re better than you think,” she said softly, her voice almost shy.

Peter’s face lit up at the encouragement, his usual quirks bubbling to the surface — the way he fiddled with his quill, the nervous laugh that escaped when he tried to explain something, the earnestness that made him endearing despite everything.

You leaned back, watching the two of them, amusement fizzing in your chest. Lizzy’s blush, Peter’s quirks — it was all too perfect. And if you had anything to say about it, this little spark wouldn’t go unnoticed for long.

You had left Lizzy and Peter behind in the library, their heads bent close together, laughter muffled between parchment and ink. Out here, the silence was heavier, and your mind refused to quiet.

You weren’t thinking in neat sentences anymore — just fragments, flashes. The way James’ grin had softened, Sirius’ laughter swallowed in a kiss, Lily’s hand steady against Remus’ cheek. It wasn’t the what that haunted you, but the hiddenness of it. How long had this been stitched together without you? Was there a circle you were never meant to step into? The thoughts tangled, jagged, pressing harder with every step.

A flare of light broke your reverie. Sirius leaned against the stone wall, cigarette glowing between his fingers, hair wild in the night air. He smirked, as if he’d been waiting for you.

“Fancy a smoke?” he asked, voice casual, daring, the kind of offer you had never refused before.

But tonight, you shook your head. A small motion, almost imperceptible, but enough. You didn’t want to seem like someone who only took and took, not when your chest already felt hollow. Sirius blinked, surprise flickering across his face — you never refused a cigarette, especially not from him.

Your eyes fell, unbidden, to the small patch of red and purple blooming on his neck. Hickeys. The sight made your stomach twist, and you quickly averted your gaze, heat rushing to your cheeks. Sirius noticed the glance, though he failed to see the sadness behind it. His grin returned, sharp and teasing, as if nothing had shifted.

“Don’t worry, love,” he drawled, voice dripping with flirtation, “there’s plenty more where that came from.”

But you were already moving, your footsteps quick, carrying you deeper into the park. Sirius watched you go, baffled by the refusal, cigarette burning down between his fingers. He didn’t notice the ache in your eyes, the way your silence was louder than any laughter you had left behind. And you — you kept walking, the questions pressing harder, the night swallowing you whole.

The Black Lake shimmered under the moonlight, its surface rippling with the faintest breeze. You had wandered here to escape the weight of the castle walls, the heaviness of thoughts that refused to quiet. And there he was — Remus — perched on the grass with his back against a tree, a book open in his lap.

Your book.

You slowed, watching him turn the page with that careful precision he always carried, as though even paper deserved gentleness. The sight tugged at something inside you, equal parts warmth and ache.

“You know,” you said lightly, stepping closer, “I did lend you that book, not gift it. You could at least pretend you’re going to return it someday.”

Remus looked up, startled, then smiled faintly, the kind of smile that never quite reached his eyes. “I was only keeping it safe. You have a habit of leaving your things scattered.”

You arched a brow, teasing. “Safe? Or stolen? I should start charging you a library fee.”

He chuckled softly, but there was a shadow in his gaze, something that mirrored the heaviness in your own chest. The laughter didn’t erase it, only softened the edges.

You sat down beside him, the grass cool beneath your palms. For a moment, neither of you spoke, the silence filled only by the gentle lap of water against the shore.

“Do you ever feel,” you murmured, eyes fixed on the lake, “like everyone else is living in a story you weren’t invited to?”

Remus’ fingers stilled on the page. He didn’t answer right away, and when he did, his voice was quiet. “More often than I’d like to admit.”

You glanced at him, the book still open in his lap, the moonlight catching the tired lines of his face. There was comfort in his honesty, even if it didn’t erase the ache.

“Maybe that’s why I keep lending you books,” you said, forcing a smile. “So at least we’re reading the same story, even if we’re not in it.”

Remus’ lips curved, bittersweet. “Then I’ll keep reading. As long as you keep lending.”

The words lingered between you, gentle and heavy all at once. You wanted to laugh, to tease him again, but the ache pressed harder, reminding you of the secrets you’d stumbled upon, the hickeys you’d seen, the circle you weren’t part of. And yet, sitting here by the lake, with Remus’ quiet endurance beside you, it felt like you weren’t entirely alone.

Remus chuckled, but as he glanced at you, something tugged at him. There was a distance in your eyes, a heaviness that didn’t match the playful words. You were teasing, yes, but the laughter didn’t reach your gaze.

He reeled inwardly, unsettled. You had always been steady, quick with warmth, never one to refuse closeness. But tonight, there was a shadow clinging to you.

“You’re different,” he thought, though he didn’t say it aloud. Instead, he tilted his head, voice soft. “Strange, seeing you so quiet. Usually you’d be scolding me for dog-earing the pages.”

You laughed faintly, but it was thinner than usual, like glass stretched too far. Remus noticed — the way your shoulders hunched, the way your eyes flicked away from his. Something had shifted, and he couldn’t place it.

He tried to tease again, to lighten the air. “If you’re going to sulk beside me, at least let me finish the chapter first. Misery loves company, but books love silence.”

But even as the words left him, his chest tightened. He wanted to ask — what happened? why do you look like that? — but he held back. You had always confided in him when you were ready. And so he sat there, book open, heart restless, watching you with quiet concern.

The lake lapped against the shore, the night pressing close, and Remus thought: Something’s wrong. She’s angsty, distant… and a little broken. But she doesn’t want me to see it.

And so he reeled, silently, caught between the comfort of your presence and the ache of what he couldn’t name.

Transfiguration had ended, the classroom emptied of chatter and footsteps, leaving only the familiar cluster — James, Sirius, Remus, Lily, and you. The quiet was almost strange, the desks scattered with parchment and quills, the air still humming with the remnants of McGonagall’s sharp voice.

You were all fixed in place, lingering as you often did, when the door creaked open again. Peter stumbled in, cheeks flushed, hair sticking up in that endearing way, clutching a single rose in his hand.

James’ eyebrow shot up immediately. “Well, well. Look who’s suddenly romantic.”

Sirius leaned back in his chair, smirk curling. “A rose, Pete? Bold choice. Who’s the lucky soul?”

Remus closed his book slowly, eyes narrowing with quiet amusement. “You don’t usually walk into class looking like you’ve just run a marathon. Care to explain?”

Peter fumbled, the rose trembling slightly in his grip. “I—uh—it’s… it’s nothing.”

“Nothing?” Lily echoed, her tone sharp but amused. “You don’t bring a rose into Transfiguration for nothing.”

The Marauders went full dad mode then, voices overlapping, teasing but protective.

“Is it for a girl?” James pressed, leaning forward. “Or a boy?” Sirius added, grin widening. “Or did you just steal it from the greenhouse?” Remus teased, though his voice was gentler.

Peter’s face turned crimson, his words tumbling over themselves. “It’s—it’s not stolen! It’s—it’s from Lizzy.”

Your breath caught, eyes widening. Lizzy.

“She… she gave it to me,” Peter stammered, clutching the rose tighter. “She… she proposed. To me.”

The room fell silent for a heartbeat, the Marauders blinking in unison. Then, chaos.

James let out a low whistle. “Proposed? Merlin’s beard, Pete, that’s—” Sirius barked a laugh. “That’s bloody brilliant!” Remus shook his head, though his smile betrayed him. “And here we thought you’d never manage to string two words together around her.” Lily’s lips curved, eyes softening. “Lizzy’s braver than all of you combined.”

Peter fumbled again, words tripping over his nerves. “I didn’t—I didn’t know what to say at first, but… she smiled, and I—well—I said yes.”

You sat back, heart fizzing with a mix of shock and delight. Lizzy had done it. She’d proposed. And Peter, fumbling and flushed, had said yes.

The Marauders kept teasing, voices warm, protective, amused. But beneath it all, you felt the spark of something new — a story unfolding right before your eyes, one you had nudged into motion without even realizing how far it would go.

The teasing swelled, laughter bouncing off the walls, voices warm and protective. And in the midst of it all, you found yourself laughing too, the ache in your chest loosening. For a moment, you forgot the chaos of secrets, the sight of hickeys, the weight of unrequited love. You were simply there, part of the laughter, part of the teasing, part of the story.

And for that heartbeat, it was enough.

Until it wasn't.

The laughter had faded, Peter’s rose and flushed cheeks carried off to Potions and Lizzy. The Transfiguration classroom was quieter now, sunlight slanting across abandoned desks, dust motes drifting in the stillness. It was just you, James, Sirius, Remus, and Lily — the circle intact, the warmth lingering.

You sat there, heart heavy but steady, trying to hold onto the echo of joy. Then Lily shifted, her gaze steady, her lips parting as if she had been waiting for this moment.

“I was thinking…” she began, voice soft, almost hesitant.

But you didn’t let her finish. The thought had already struck you, sharp and certain. They don’t need me. I’m just extra weight. If I stay, I’ll only make them uncomfortable. Better to leave. Better to step away before they have to push me out themselves.

You rose quickly, forcing a smile that didn’t reach your eyes. “I should go,” you said, gathering your books with hands that trembled just slightly.

Lily blinked, her words caught in her throat, the rest of her sentence swallowed by your sudden departure. James frowned faintly, Sirius tilted his head, Remus watched with quiet concern. But none of them spoke, not yet.

The door closed behind you, the silence pressing heavier than any laughter had before. And in that moment, you believed your “brilliant” idea was mercy — leaving them free, sparing them the weight of your presence.

The door closed behind you with a soft thud, and the silence that followed was heavier than any laughter had been. For a moment, none of them moved. James sat frozen, quill dangling from his fingers, his brow furrowed as though he were trying to replay the last few seconds in his head. Sirius leaned back in his chair, cigarette unlit between his fingers, his grin fading into something sharper, unsettled. Remus still had the book half-open in his lap, his eyes fixed on the door, searching for meaning in your sudden departure. Lily’s lips were parted, her words caught in her throat, the sentence she had been about to speak swallowed whole.

“Did she just… leave?” James asked finally, voice low, disbelief lacing every syllable.

Sirius scoffed, though it lacked his usual bravado. “She doesn’t just leave. Not like that. Not without a joke, not without—something.” He shook his head, tapping the cigarette against the desk. “That was bloody weird.”

Remus closed the book softly, his expression unreadable but his eyes troubled. “She was… off. Last night too. At the lake. There’s something she’s not saying.”

Lily exhaled, frustration and worry mingling. “I was about to—” She stopped herself, biting her lip. “Never mind. The point is, she looked… sad. Like she was carrying something heavy.”

James leaned forward, his voice sharper now. “Sad? She was laughing with us five minutes ago. She was fine.”

“People can laugh and still be breaking inside,” Remus murmured, his tone quiet but firm.

Sirius frowned, his usual smirk nowhere to be found. “She refused a cigarette last night. From me. She’s never done that before. Not once. And she looked at me like—” He cut himself off, jaw tightening. “Something’s wrong.”

The four of them sat in the classroom, the sunlight slanting across their faces, confusion thick in the air. They replayed every detail — your smile that hadn’t reached your eyes, the tremor in your hands as you gathered your books, the way you had left before Lily could finish her sentence.

“She thinks she’s alone,” Lily said finally, her voice breaking the silence. “And she’s wrong. But if she keeps pulling away…”

James slammed his quill down, determination flashing in his eyes. “Then we don’t let her. She’s one of us. Always has been. Always will be.”

Sirius leaned forward, his grin returning faintly, though it was tinged with worry. “Then we find her. And we remind her of that.”

Remus nodded, his gaze steady. “Before she convinces herself she’s better off without us.”

The classroom hummed with their confusion, their concern, their unspoken resolve. You had left believing you were extra weight, but behind you, the Marauders and Lily sat tangled in bewilderment, already plotting how to pull you back into the circle you thought closed.

..

It had been a week. Seven long days of reshaping your life around absence. You came to breakfast late, when the hall was nearly empty, and slipped into dinner early, leaving before the laughter could swell. Sometimes you reversed it — arriving early, leaving late — but always with the same purpose: to avoid them. To avoid the circle that had once felt like home.

Your schedule bent like clockwork, every corridor timed, every class exit calculated. You knew when James lingered after Quidditch practice, when Sirius swaggered into meals late, when Remus tucked himself into corners with books, when Lily’s voice carried across the hall. And you made sure you weren’t there.

It worked. You didn’t bump into them. Not once. But the ache didn’t fade. If anything, it grew heavier, pressing harder with every silence.

Meanwhile, the Marauders and Lily reeled.

James frowned at breakfast, scanning the hall. “She’s late again. That’s the third time this week.”

Sirius leaned back, smirk faltering. “She’s avoiding us. Don’t tell me you haven’t noticed.”

Remus closed his book softly, his gaze troubled. “I noticed. She’s changing her schedule. On purpose.”

The four of them sat together, meals half-eaten, parchment forgotten, their confusion growing with each passing day. They replayed every detail — your sudden departure from Transfiguration, the tremor in your hands, the way you had smiled without warmth.

...

The Gryffindor dormitory was hushed, the fire in the common room long extinguished, leaving only the faint glow of moonlight spilling through the tall windows. Your roommate had gone off with her boyfriend, probably staging in the Ravenclaw dorm for the night, leaving you alone in the room.

The silence pressed in, heavy and unfamiliar. Usually, there was chatter, laughter, the rustle of parchment or the creak of bedsprings. Tonight, there was only you — your books stacked neatly on the desk, your quill abandoned mid-sentence, the air thick with thoughts you couldn’t shake.

You lay back against the pillow, staring at the ceiling. The week of avoidance had worn you thin. Every meal timed, every corridor calculated, every laugh swallowed before it could escape. You had reshaped your life around absence, and now, in the quiet of your dorm, the ache was louder than ever.

Then came the knock.

At first, you thought you imagined it. A soft rap against the door, hesitant but insistent. You froze, heart thudding, before sliding off the bed and padding across the room.

When you opened it, the sight nearly stole your breath.

James, Sirius, Remus, and Lily stood clustered in the corridor, their faces a mix of determination and confusion. Sirius leaned against the doorframe, cigarette dangling unlit between his fingers, his usual grin replaced by something sharper. James’ brows were furrowed, his Quidditch hair still damp from practice. Remus held the book you’d lent him tucked under his arm, his gaze steady but troubled. Lily’s eyes softened, worry etched into every line of her face.

“[Name],” James said, voice low but firm. “We need to talk.”

Sirius tilted his head, smirk flickering but not quite catching. “You’ve been avoiding us. Don’t bother denying it.”

Remus added quietly, “We’ve noticed. Every meal, every corridor. You’ve changed your schedule just to slip past us.”

Lily stepped forward, her voice gentler. “We don’t know why. But we’re not letting you disappear.”

The silence pressed heavy between you, their words overlapping, their confusion palpable. You tried to speak, but James cut in, his voice sharper now. “You think we haven’t noticed? You vanish at breakfast, you leave dinner early, you walk the long way around corridors. You’ve been dodging us for a week.”

Sirius’ grin faltered completely, his tone uncharacteristically serious. “You refused a cigarette from me. You’ve never refused before. Not once. And you looked at me like—” He broke off, jaw tightening. “Something’s wrong. And you’re not telling us.”

Remus leaned forward, his voice steady but weighted. “You don’t have to carry it alone. Whatever it is, we can handle it. But you have to let us in.”

Lily’s eyes softened, her voice breaking through the tension. “We care about you. More than you realize. And watching you slip away like this… it hurts.”

James slammed his hand against the desk, frustration spilling out. “You’re one of us. Always have been. Always will be. Don’t you dare think otherwise.”

Sirius’ voice softened, almost pleading. “We’d burn the whole bloody castle down before letting you walk away.”

Remus’ gaze held yours, steady and unyielding. “You matter. To all of us. Don’t convince yourself you don’t.”

And Lily, her voice trembling but sure, whispered, “Please. Don’t leave us.”

The dorm was heavy with their words, their confusion, their resolve. You had thought you were extra weight, thought leaving was mercy. But here they were, refusing to let you vanish, demanding answers, demanding you stay.

But the dam had broken. The tears spilled, your voice trembling as the truth poured out. “I saw you. All of you. Together. Kissing. Touching. And I thought—Merlin, I thought it meant I was outside the circle. That you didn’t want me there. That I was just… extra weight.”

Sirius’ grin flickered, his bravado gone. “Bloody hell,” he whispered, eyes wide. “You thought that? You thought we’d shut you out?”

Remus stepped forward, his gaze steady, his voice low but unyielding. “You matter. To all of us. That night wasn’t about shutting you out. It wasn’t about excluding you. It was… us, fumbling, figuring things out. But you? You’re part of this. Always.”

Lily’s eyes shimmered, her voice trembling but sure. “We love you. Maybe not in the way you feared, maybe not in the way you imagined, but we love you. And we’re not letting you disappear.”

You sobbed, the words spilling faster now. “I thought leaving was mercy. That if I stayed, you’d feel uncomfortable. That you’d laugh without me, love without me, and I’d just be… too much.”

James pulled you into a hug, fierce and unrelenting. “You’re not too much. You’re ours. And we’re not letting you go.”

Sirius wrapped his arms around you too, his voice breaking into laughter and tears all at once. “Bloody hell, you’re stuck with us. Whether you like it or not.”

Remus placed the book you’d lent him on the desk, his hand steady as it found your shoulder. “You gave me this because you trusted me. Don’t take that trust back. Not now. Not ever.”

And Lily, her hand warm in yours, whispered, “Stay. Please. Stay.”