#no comment please

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even dare to do anything. Any slightest thing of giving opinions makes me wonder whether I give the correct sentence, perform the right politeness Just saying hi, asking about wheather and stuff. I don't dare to do that. Afraid it will add another problem. Afraid its not polite enough. I'm not even sure what's polite and what's not now. Scare to say things, in case it goes wrong for others Insecure of giving my ideas, if the impression's not good enough it will just lead to another conflict. Their eyes, the staring, the accusing atmosphere. I ignore them as much as possible but I can still feel it. Try to act like nothing happened. Try to keep it down. Just act like normal people. Don't stare back when people stare at you. Keep your head down. Keep your tone low. No need of extra excitement. Smile without showing your teeth. Bow. Speak when you're appointed. Don't ask questions. Avoid meeting people eyes. Be shy. Don't give arguments. Always agree but reasonable. Is that what's right? Is that how I'll be better? Because I don't know where do I got wrong.. Honestly. I really don't have any slightest idea. The feelings of not being treated equal as my friends. Maybe because I'm below them. My attitude is below them. My politeness is below them. Could someone show me how? I'm lost

When I said that everythings fine, that means do not ask me is there something wrong. Do not force me to tell what I don't want to tell. I'll ask when I need help, don't worry. So don't. Please just don't ever trying to make my mood better. just leave me alone. I like being alone more than you ever know. And well, I'm not really up for lectures so please save that up too. I know I'm a mess, and actually I'm sorry for that. Be quiet.

And they said "with Supernatural Star Jensen Ackles" :D