#nimm

I have three iron beads laced onto a piece of red string and a lump of dusty white chalk, a meager handful of weak magic to protect me against that of the capaill uisce. I slip my hand into my pocket and roll a holly berry between my fingers. I’ve never been able to shake the habit of carrying them, even after I left my father’s house.

An unsettled splash echoes in the darkness, jerking me back to the present. It is dangerous to have a wandering mind here, on the brief gasp of shore that is almost swallowed by the high tide. As I watch the tumble of waves, I catch sight of the arch of a dark neck cresting out of the water and in the same breath slipping back beneath the shifting darkness. I can almost convince myself that I imagined it, but my heart races in my chest and I know that I didn’t. 

I hold my breath and listen but I can’t hear anything over the ceaseless murmur of the sea. Then I see the neck arch again and the water horse is heaving itself from the ocean, shaking sea foam from its dark mane.  I tighten my grip on the length of rope I’d brought, thinking it’d be enough to restrain one of the capall. It seems an optimistic thought now with one of the horses before me. But there’s nothing else for it, so I creep towards one end of the rock I crouch behind and wait as the capall walks towards me. 

The wind is in my favour and the water horse is two arms’ lengths away when I make my move. I throw a handful of chalk into the horse’s face so it is looking at the land and not the sea. Then it is biting sand, sharp teeth, a horse’s scream, my pulse rushing through my ears, and always the hoof beats of the waves upon the shore. I have never been this close to one of the capaill. I think I will be lucky if I come out of this alive. 

I do not remember how we get to the top of the cliffs, only that the capall fights me the whole way and when we reach the top Connan is there waiting for me, a stern look and another length of rope in his hands. I am ashamed and relieved that he has come to help me. I do not know that I would have made it on my own.

Connan throws his own rope deftly around the capall’s head in a mockery of a halter. He is confident and sure as he leads the capall and I wonder for the first time whether the old Thisby priest has ever ridden one of the horses. Together we lead the capall to an old stone barn built to house sheep in the winter. After we shut the horse inside and bolt the door, Connan turns to me.

“Fool boy,” he snaps, “what were you thinking trying to catch one of the capaill alone? I’d half a mind to let her kill you and the sea swallow you both just to teach you a lesson.”

I bow my head, duly ashamed, but I think I catch a glint of respect in the older man’s eye.

The next morning, I bring a leg of mutton down to the barn for the capall. I ease the door open, a trident carved of ash wood in my free hand to push the horse back if need be. It takes my eyes a moment to adjust to the dimness of the barn and my pulse gallops at my momentary blindness. The barn stinks like the ocean and things too long from the tide. When I can properly see again, my eyes are drawn to the capall staring at me warily from the back corner. 

She is a beautiful blue roan mare. 

She lets out a scream and charges at me, untamable and hungry as the ocean.

I throw the leg of mutton at her and slam the door closed again. I listen as she lets out a wuff of breath on the other side of the door. There’s a pause and then the unmistakable sounds of tearing flesh.