#newwriting

It’s free on my ko-fi page if you want a copy. It’s about making a cup of tea.

https://ko-fi.com/s/5316564faa

Instant #25 - Accompaniment

𝗛𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗳𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗮𝘀𝗹𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗽𝗵𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀 𝗶𝗻, 𝗬𝗼𝘂𝗧𝘂𝗯𝗲 𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝘂𝘁𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆, 𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗻𝗲 𝘃𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗼𝘀 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝘁𝗼𝗽𝗶𝗰 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗼𝗽𝗶𝗰, 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗼𝗽 𝗼𝗻 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲. • 𝘐 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘰𝘭𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘷𝘢𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯; 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥, 𝘐 𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘻𝘦𝘥.

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I waited for a callus to form over my bitterness

So that I may heal

So that I may miss you less.

I planted seeds of benign indifference

The morning sun shed light on the exact things that make no sense in the darkness of the night

Cotton candy painted skies made me cry.

Why did they have to remind me of you.

Dead cold night and I stayed awake asking why,

Then a voice replied,

"You were much too weak to go run and hide,

you succumbed to weakness when he lied,

you sacrificed your standards for something to do.

He came, he saw, he conquered

and as all men do he withdrew."

Me: "What do I do?"

Eat a heart.

My synapses, collapses.

Battered eyesockets bloody.

Emphasis enough?

Hyperbolic, pathetic, but true.

Truth being...

I cannot observe our moments.

Personify, perspire have persective of that.

I can, hold, it.

Feel it's luxury swell and break me

Then move on.

To the next one, wanting the old one.

I order make another!

Destroy the vapid, by paying for breath?

Suckle for permission.