#nevertolate

ADDICTION it's a word most people don't want to even think about let alone admit that it effects them. Some in many more ways then others, and some alot worse then others. Like for me for example it took me years and years to admit that I had an ADDICTION, and even then my addiction wasn't that bad. I would always have to point out how the other addicts addiction's were way worse then mine. My addiction was not bad. Even after going to prison multiple times for multiples years, I always said my addiction is not that bad. "Look at him his is way worse then mine he got 6 years and I only did 4 so his must be a lot worse then mine. When I finally was fully honest with myself that I was an addict and I needed to do something to change my ways. At that point I thought I had my addiction beat and I was all good now because I finally admitted to myself that I had a problem and I had 24 hours clean. I'm fixed. Hahaha couldn't have been farthest from the truth. That very next day I thought I could celebrate with getting high just once. Wrong!! I can never just use once, it always ends up turning in to another and another. Another huge problem I had was now that I at least admitted I had a problem I thought thatnit only effected me. WRONG AGAIN!! it effected everyone around me. Even the people I don't know. Addiction is a problem that effects most people one way or another. If it's not you, it's someone you know! So never be afraid to lend a helping hand to an addict or as for help of you yourself are and addict like me because we can't do it alone. Even lending a ear goes a long way. I'm not trying to scare anyone from seeking help or helping and addict in need but IT WILL GET BETTER BUT WONT NECESSARILY GET EASIER. Thanks for reading. If you would like more on my journey and my experience with addiction. Let me know. If I could even help one person get through 1 day clean and sober. It's all worth it.

Sincerely,