#nervously

gulps H-Hi

My ibispaint randomly like help just like exploded on itself and all of my drawings are gone- I actually wasn't working on anything important but dang there were so many files so I'm just gonna awkwardly continue as if nothing happened ‼️‼️

My friend, who I've know for 13yrs, doesn't really tell us things unless you ask him the right kind of question.

So I'm on my Insta when I get a message, whom I thought was a bot because all it said was, "hey." But is saw my friend, who isn't too social on social media follows her. I send a message to him, "hey Drall, do you know this bench?"

"yeh, that's my gorlfirend"

"FOR REAL?! like the kissing kind?"

"yeh" okay then

She says she wants a commission of two video game characters or her and her boyfriend. (SHE NEVER SAYS ITS MY FRIEND or even mention I know him) she wants to surprise him for his birthday or their anniversary.

Don't put yourself in front of me so I am not able to get out of the room and force me into an uncomfortable hug.

I don't care if you are family, long time friends, respect that I don't like physical contact.

Don't tell me that I am overreacting, because what to you is just a 'hug' to me is someone breaking my personal privacy, to me, a 'hug' is something I do when I 1)trust someone a lot (hard to do); 2)need comfort; 3)feel vulnerable and need assurance that everything is/will be okay. To me any for of physical contact is the same thing as giving someone a key to your house, people may use it against you and break your trust.

Don't tell me to stop talking about something just because 'it's annoying' how much I talk about

I find comfort on it and I want to share it with you, if I start talking about it, it means that I am comfortable sharing with you something I like

If you know me irl, you will notice that I have an hard time making friends, and will stay quiet most of the time, you will also know that I will start talking, a lot, its not because I want to show (and brag) about my knowledge about something, its because I am happy that you know something that I like.

Yes, I will bring up a lot of times things we spoke about a while back, no, its not because the thing we are talking about is boring, my mind just started thinking about stuff and found a way into that and thought of a point that I think I should share.

No, it's not my intention to ruin something for just because I annoyed you by talking to much about, it's a common ground between us, I am trying to stay in it so arguments don't start.

If you like the same thing as I do but have a different opinion on something, I won't just stop talking to you just because of that(very rarely I will stop just because of an opinion), I will want to know why you choose that side and not mine, I want to know what you saw that made you choose it, I want to understand the reason behind it .

Don't tell me to get out of my phone, I am probably seeing something that I find enjoyable.

Besides, isn't the older people who say to always do something you like?

Yes, I will the first to admit that I often spend social gatherings on my phone, I know, its rude. The reason why I do it may vary, I might be doing it because I am either feeling uncomfortable or nervous, we might be somewhere knew and I don't like it. My phone is my phone, I have some sort of control over it (also the reason why I prefer not to do new things out of nowhere) and I get less panicked when I am using, for me, its the same thing of giving a teddy bear (or something similar (doll, blanket, etc.)) to a child.

Don't tell me how to dress and give me clothes that I already informed you that I find uncomfortable.

Don't the adults tell kids to dress how they are comfortable? Why does it have to Change as we grow older? Yeah, I know sometimes people will have to dress in a certain way because of the occasion, everybody knows that, just because I don't dress like you or like I'm going to meet the Queen/Pope/President/Figure-similar-to-the-Pope-but-from-another-religion every time I go out, I don't like that style, I prefer more loose, warm type of clothing. Not everybody shares the same style, because if it was, everything would be the same.