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So we all love Director Nie. What’s not to love, right? But do you ever wonder about what he does during Sunshot? He’s so smart and clever and well read. I can’t imagine him NOT helping nmj exterminate the Wens. 

(FYI this is all from rambling at @needtherapy​ and @cangse-sanren​ today)  

So basically, I decided 1) nhs is the shadow strategist of sunshot and 2) he loves that only nmj knows about it. 

The first time he hangs out in the war room with nmj, he’s just his normal fan holding self and people ignore him. But he listens and absorbs and hears some not so great ideas. So that night, over dinner, he casually mentions some things to nmj that he thinks will improve their plans. Nmj is all like, “YOU MUST HELP WITH WAR EFFORTS! YOU MUST BE OUR STRATEGIST!” and nhs responds that it’s lxc’s job and it would be better if xichen-ge does it because he’s so respected. 

After some begging from nmj, nhs relents and says he’ll go to the war room everyday if he can dress up as Zhuge Liang (aka china’s most famous strategist from the three kingdoms era. the man is LEGENDARY and has a feathered fan.) nmj doesn’t want him to but relents as it’s the only way nmj can get nhs into the war room. nhs is super excited about his cosplay. He shows up the next day looking like this (glued on facial hair that’s slightly askew and ridiculous hat and everything):

lxc finds it adorable and hilarious. nmj grins and bares it since he doesn’t have a choice. jc is all confused by why nhs is allowed in there being so disruptive. jzxuan gets huffy but tries to be diplomatic about it. and when wwx sees him, wwx is all like, niiiiice. 

@sweetlittlevampire OBSCENELY NAKED! like when you take your dog’s harness off after walkies and yell “YER A NAKEY DOGGO!” No? Just me?  😁

@needtherapy rofl, imagine though this being Wei Wuxian’s exact reaction each time he takes Lan Wangji’s headband off -

Your writing and art are fantastic!

needtherapy replied to your post “man not to be a baby on main but sometimes i read fics so good, so...”

@acutebird-fics oh god yes I feel this so much. My measly little tapety taps are so insignificant compared to the SWEEPING sagas other people write and I’m just...sigh....I try to remind myself to write for me and blah blah blah but ugh, it’s hard.

needtherapy replied to your post “man not to be a baby on main but sometimes i read fics so good, so...”

@acutebird-fics also I just wanted to add that I LOVE your writing and art.

hhhhhh thank you both for your kind words 😭 i hope to keep making good fic and art for y’all to enjoy! 

This is my Xichen mantra too!! It’s the major main thing that propels me to write fanfiction because I am so UGH for him!!! LXC (and songxiao) cause me REAL PHYSICAL PAIN and I demand justice.

Why is it so hard to ask whether you’re enough? If you make them happy?

Why is it so hard to believe their actions, that only their words can convince you that you matter.

On the other hand, why is reassuring so easy?

Why is it so easy, to remind someone every other second that they’re the most precious part of your life?

I believe, I’ve travelled enough. I’m tired.

I just want a love that feels like home. No fancy destinations, no magnificent views.

I just yearn for a love, where everything is familiar, everything is warm. A love where everything is ordinary, and yet, it’s special. A love, where the only destination I want to reach is his arms, where the only magnificent view I want is his smile from across the room when he looks up at me from his work. A love, where I don’t have to try to fit in, I just naturally do.