Sysblr, we really need your help.

Around 3 hours ago we randomly became severely tired (mentally not physically). Yes, this happens to everyone a lot, just wait a moment.

A bit after that, a bunch of alters were thrown to front. Currently, Jake, Sam, Casey, Colby, Cole, Luke, and Bill are fronting. This is the most we have ever had in front at once and everything is just straight chaos.

We feel very disconnected from the body and can't remember anything. We tried listening to music, but it sounded different than before. Mind you, this is the music we listen to on repeat every single day.

Words coming into our ears are not processing and what was coming out of our mouth weren't sentences, just strings of words, not always placed to make sense. On top of that we have a TERRIBLE headache that messes everything else up.

We have taken a covid test, and our temperature, so we know it is not physical sickness. Something mental is going on.

I have a feeling we may be splitting, which we have done before, but the symptoms were not at this extent. Maybe a mass split.

We know this is not our gatekeeper's fault because he is as confused as we are.

If anyone knows what is going on, or can assure us that this is partially normal, please do.

I need help

I have a problem and I'm deeply ashamed of it. As much as I am trying, I cannot wrap my head around romantic relationships within a system. It just does not compute, and to make things worse, it fills me with dread and an elementary aversion I just can't shake.

And I don't want to be like this. I pride myself on my open-mindedness and my inclusive nature, and it feels like just accepting that these relationships exist and they are perfectly legit is just... Not good enough.

So I would like to ask for your help. If you know more about, or even better, are/were in such a relationship, can you please tell me about it? I want to understand, I want to know how it works, and I am endlessly curious about all your stories and experiences!

College, it’s a terrifying new environment but one of the best times of people’s lives. I was tossed into the world of college feeling so unprepared. For in High School it wasn’t too hard to make friends and find a group to fit in. Then you felt that of sense you belonged and fit in. But college, personally for me, it’s a jungle where I am that species where I can live in the certain environment but still struggling to survive and thrive. 

This isn’t some open letter or essay here. I just have question which I know I could get some answers from this lovely website of diverse people. But before I put my question out here...I need to explain the environment I am trying to survive in.

I am Freshman who’s in this “bridge” program where you go to a community college in the area for a year then will transfer to the major university in the area for Sophomore year. Loads of people from high school go to the community college and the major university. Equaling constantly seeing people I know on both campuses or even at times no one which is nice. Oh, yeah I live in the town where these colleges are so I know where everything is already.  Also, my father works at the major university so I’ve got my parents right here if I need anything. 

My best friend is also in this “bridge” with me and so we are always hanging out with one another. Yet I see my other friends at the main college having/making all these new friends from their classes, activities, or however one randomly become friends. First off, I absolutely love my best friend, and cannot forget my roommates whom are crazy but I love...yet I honestly don’t have those new college friends that everyone around me is making. No one is all that friendly in my classes to the point at the end of first semester we all don’t know each other’s name still. I made one new great friend in one of my classes but she transferred away so I back to square one.

So, my question is to all you users out there is, does it get better once you make it to Sophomore year and getting to the major university (if you have transferred before)? I guess what I am trying to say is I feel like I don’t fit in and I am not meant to be here where I am now. But some people have told me, “Oh wait till you transfer and then you’ll find that group of friends.” or “Just focus on school right now as you don’t need to worrying about that now.”. But I hate that uncertainty and unhappiness it brings me now. I feel as though I am a porcupine who looks like a normal gerbil among other gerbils but my spikes are invisible yet they can sense them so I am unapproachable or something. Hopefully that made sense any who, I constantly roll the idea around in my head, “Am I meant to be here? Did I make a mistake? What is wrong with me to make me unapproachable? What is wrong with me!”.