#needadvice

Man life is kicking my butt. I feel like I'm none stop burnt out from this job and its really taking a toll on all parts of my life.

My nervous system is working overtime to get me through the day-to-day, that I haven't been able to do the things I enjoy outside of work - like hanging out with friends, working out, working on my career or paint. I am constantly, always exhausted, I can't stop eating and I keep gaining weight :(

I've thought about my options, like talking to my *New* boss about how I work and listening to music with noise-cancelling headphones, but she is only 2 weeks new, so I feel I need to start small here. The times I do listen to my headphones, I get asked if I'm in "a mood" and people suggestively call me a bitch due to me ignoring them... so I feel like I just can't win here since the environment is an open office work setting.

I sincerely do what to try and make this workplace work for me for a little while longer at least because I really do like the people I work with. We are also re-branding the business soon and I would love to be a part of it. The pay isn't so bad either.

But the hierarchy of leadership is incredibly frustrating and hard to follow. I feel like there is little to no job security here.

So what the hell am I supposed to do?! I can't keep going like this. I'm so tired and so sad and just fed up with work.

Okay I’m done ranting. If you read all that, thank you

Should I wait til 3am, binge, then go to work at 8? ....or should I wait til I get off work at 4 to watch the final season? ....decisions are hard pls help 😂

Hello. To who ever is listening ... I could really use some advice here

I recently got out of rehab about 3 weeks ago. I had an ongoing drug/alcohol problem for years, In 2018, I got my first DUI in March. I completed the classes, paid off my dues, and was on “the path to success” for some months. Shortly afterwards, I started using again. 

Everything started falling apart from there. I started getting drunk everyday again, which led to me losing a great job that I’d been at for 5 years. I was able to find another job quickly, but my problem didn’t stop there. I kept on with my vices, and my old problems starting showing up at my new job; showing up late, no call no show, fucked up on the job, etc. Somehow, I didn’t get fired. BUT, everything around me continued to get affected. My relationship with my family, friends, lovers, and basically everyone continued to worsen. 

November rolled around, and I was convicted for a 2nd DUI. I totaled my car, damaged property, and spent time in county shortly before getting bailed out. From those months forward, I was in and out of hospitals, cop cars, and ambulances for public intoxication. 

In February I finally checked myself into rehab. I spent 2 months there, and came out feeling great. 

Heres the problem: I had my court hearing for my 2nd DUI and was given 2 months in county jail. I’m to turn myself in on May 24. 

I don’t know how to prepare for this jail time thats looming right around the corner. Thank God i’ve been able to stay away from drugs and alcohol instead of using it as a coping mechanism like I used to. But I feel a lot of anxiety and sadness for whats to come.

I acknowledge that I have to face the consequences of my reckless actions, but I don’t know how to cope with the stress or how to prepare myself for jail.