NATURAL BLUES

thank you for your much appreciated advice. That sounds like a good plan

Hello. To who ever is listening ... I could really use some advice here

I recently got out of rehab about 3 weeks ago. I had an ongoing drug/alcohol problem for years, In 2018, I got my first DUI in March. I completed the classes, paid off my dues, and was on “the path to success” for some months. Shortly afterwards, I started using again. 

Everything started falling apart from there. I started getting drunk everyday again, which led to me losing a great job that I’d been at for 5 years. I was able to find another job quickly, but my problem didn’t stop there. I kept on with my vices, and my old problems starting showing up at my new job; showing up late, no call no show, fucked up on the job, etc. Somehow, I didn’t get fired. BUT, everything around me continued to get affected. My relationship with my family, friends, lovers, and basically everyone continued to worsen. 

November rolled around, and I was convicted for a 2nd DUI. I totaled my car, damaged property, and spent time in county shortly before getting bailed out. From those months forward, I was in and out of hospitals, cop cars, and ambulances for public intoxication. 

In February I finally checked myself into rehab. I spent 2 months there, and came out feeling great. 

Heres the problem: I had my court hearing for my 2nd DUI and was given 2 months in county jail. I’m to turn myself in on May 24. 

I don’t know how to prepare for this jail time thats looming right around the corner. Thank God i’ve been able to stay away from drugs and alcohol instead of using it as a coping mechanism like I used to. But I feel a lot of anxiety and sadness for whats to come.

I acknowledge that I have to face the consequences of my reckless actions, but I don’t know how to cope with the stress or how to prepare myself for jail.