#my2019

2019 was the most positive and uplifting year I’ve had in a long time. There was still rough patches of course. Can’t go without some wounds but other than those I feel so much happier. I have amazing friends, family and a loving boyfriend.

I wanna thank all of my friends for being there for me this past year. You know who are.

See ya’ll 2020!

My 2019 has been filled with so many memories. Some good, many bad.

I’ve lost people I care about, I’ve lost people I loved and I almost lost myself. The past few years have been an eye opener to me but especially this year. I learned how to stand up for myself and to show that I can do the things that terrify me even when I feel like I really can’t. I’ve learned that no matter how much people say they care... that doesn’t mean they’re always going to be there. I’ve learned that family aren’t always trustworthy. I’ve learned that I can be happy even when I feel like I’m at my lowest point. I’ve learned that I can prove people wrong. I’ve Learned that I don’t need a relationship to feel loved. I’ve learned that I am loved.

I know now that no matter how much someone means to you, no matter how much you love them and no matter how many memories you have that doesn’t necessarily mean that they’re good for you.

I now know my self worth. I’ve grown so much even over just the past year. I was quiet, i was shy, I was anxious, I was lonely, I was angry and I was most definitely not myself. Now I’m happier, more outgoing, independent and focused.

It’s been a huge rollercoaster of emotions this year. One person in particular helped me through this past year... even when we weren’t in contact. M helped me see that I didn’t need to be afraid. I didn’t need to hide who I was and I didn’t need to pretend that I was happy. I wish this person all the best in life. Bad terms or not, I wish her happiness and I wish her success. She was a huge part of my life and a huge part of my growth. As were many. So thank you.

Sadly my 2019 wasn’t the best. I lost my uncle, best friend and side kick. He taught me so much through his life especially while he was sick. He thought me to never be afraid of what comes next and to power through all of life’s challenges.

I almost gave up on many occasions. I didn’t think it was worth the pain. But it is. It always is. Life is precious and I’m truly thankful to the people who have been a part of my life.

SPOILERS AHEAD