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PROJECT HEARTZ ♡ JULY EVALUATION ⇢  results . . . & surprise announcement ✰

the girls had gathered together at the end of the month, as they usually would. it’s here that they announce the girl of the month before explaining the requirements for the next evaluation. their hands are usually clasped together or holding the hand of the girl beside them, their hearts beat at a million miles per hour. or at least that’s what it’s like for juyeon, she can hear her heart beat in her ear drums. it’s deafening. today they are introduced to two new girls who will be joining the pool of heartz hopefuls. one is kang mina, the sweet new girl juyeon had met in sphere recently. the other is heo yurim, another new trainee who juyeon had yet to meet. the girl of the month is revealed to be choi yena, aka yuzu. it comes as a bit of a surprise as yuzu had just joined the group. but she had a lot of experience from her time as a royal trainee so juyeon understood the reasons behind giving her the debut opportunity. still, it was always a little difficult to hear that this month wasn’t her month, or chungha’s. it made her feel a little empty for a while but she cheered up quickly at the thought of looking ahead and working on new routines for their next evaluation.

juyeon claps and cheers for yuzu in unison with the other girls. it’s become routine at this point, but ultimately juyeon is happy for every girl who makes it. at the end of the day, their dream was able to come true. and that’s all anyone wanted from this project. it’s what juyeon wanted. the announcements don’t stop there and trail into evaluation requirements, though. “both of yena’s songs will include a featuring member.” seungkwan explains to the girls. juyeon nods, pursing her lips as she watches him intently. “on her main track, it’ll be done by minhee.” juyeon quietly claps, she was so happy about all the opportunities minhee was getting. it must be hard to go and debut first. now she has to wait around for the rest of them. “her second track, however, will be done by any of the girls already confirmed.” juyeon’s brows raise. wait . . . this was new. was this a surprise member confirmation, inside a member confirmation? juyeon glances between all of the girls, wondering who it could be. it could be gahyeon, who joined at the same time as yuzu or it could be sua. it could even be chungha. juyeon wants it to be chungha. seungkwan pauses.

“and that person will be . . . son juyeon.”

she stares at seungkwan in disbelief. had he really said her name? son juyeon . . . that was her, there wasn’t another son juyeon hiding around here, was there? she covers her mouth with her hands, trying to hide her shock. seungkwan claps for juyeon and juyeon finds herself looking around at the other girls, unsure if she heard correctly. “you’ve been a trainee in sphere for a long time, and we believe that you deserve a spot in heartz.” you deserve a spot in heartz. what is happening hasn’t exactly clicked with juyeon. “while you won’t be making your solo debut quite yet, we’d like to confirm your spot in the group through this featuring. hopefully, you’ll get to meet your solo soon.” juyeon does her best to stifle the crying while seungkwan is speaking but she feels like the crying is about to turn into ugly sobbing. juyeon would be making her . . . pre pre debut featuring on yuzu’s debut track. this was it. son juyeon was a member of heartz.

son juyeon after nearly three years . . . was debuting. 

juyeon felt so silly right now, in this moment. so happy, so grateful, so overcome with emotions. it doesn’t feel real that in this moment her dream just became true. that she actually got a chance to do this. a part of her feels like she would be happy with just featuring on a track before going back to training normally. knowing her time was coming and that come the end of the project she wasn’t going to be kicked out of the company or something just as scary lifted so much weight off of juyeon’s shoulders. she felt like she could breath again. and she does cry, in front of everyone, quietly though, through seungkwan explaining what’s happening next month. juyeon wipes at her eyes with the back of her hand before pulling on the brim of her baseball cap, straightening it.

she wanted to tell her parents immediately, and her baby sister. she wanted to call her girlfriend and tell her that she’d be with her soon. juyeon also wants to hug chungha, because the thought of leaving her behind is so scary and unsettling. who’s she going to talk to when it’s late at night and she’s mad at the world? juyeon takes in a deep breath, lacing her hands together behind her back. she didn’t have to be afraid of the unknown anymore. she made it.

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✞ JULY EVALUATION * SUMMER PARTY ; COMPLETE with @rkseunghun​ @ianrk​ @mxnark​ @beomgyurk​ @rkserim​ also mentioned: @haknyeonrk and @rkmiya july 31st, 2020

he’s nervous the day of the performance, and he wonders if this will always be the case. maybe one failed evaluation has scarred him for life, and he’s doomed to have it flash through his mind before every performance. he reminds himself that that was different; he couldn’t prepare for a switch in their music to go along with an already difficult dance and a daniel that felt drastically less skilled somehow, despite it being mere months ago. 

maybe it’s just new confidence. maybe it’s that this performance is fun, and was his idea-- his evaluation to begin, and his evaluation to finish more than any others with dancing included. 

regardless, that new confidence wavers a little as they’re on deck, following several wonderful performances that daniel tried to enjoy in full but ultimately failed to with this performance heavy on his mind. thankfully, there are still plenty to come, and depending on whether he nails it or fails it, he’ll be able to enjoy them once this is all said and done. there’s the promise of the party on the other side of this too, and one way or another, the performance will come and pass, and--

no, that’s not a winner’s mindset. wasn’t he thinking mere days ago about how much fun he had working on this evaluation? it’s more important now than ever to look like he’s having fun, here on this rooftop in the middle of summer, performing a song that’s full of energy to keep the crowd of other professionals in this industry lively and enjoying the performances. (there are idols there too. he tries not to think about that too much either, or his nerves multiply.)

no, they can do this, and they can do well. he is confident, even as the nerves still flutter in the pit of his stomach when the audience claps after the performance they will follow. he needs a little more confidence, so he says a quick prayer, and flashes back to when he felt the most himself: ironically, while pretending to be someone else. he thinks of empty enigma stages, and his element, and cameo, and he tries to bring some of him back. it worked well for him on the mgas, so why not now? why not every performance from here on out? he can do it.

when he steps on stage, he believes it, even as he looks out at the crowd-- even as he spots haknyeon and the rest of per_se, then and*roma, and his eyes settle on sunmi momentarily. that desperation to prove himself returns, but it’s also accompanied by a desperation to have fun, and a smile that stretches across his face.

it’s a good thing, too, because he sings the first lines, and sets the standard for the entire rest of the performance. 

i wanna run to you all my senses are looking for you right now

he doesn’t have many lines, but he doesn’t mind it. he actually enjoys this choreography, and is content to just dance for most of the song. he hopes the others, most of which it’s their first evaluation, are enjoying themselves too.

maybe, just maybe, in one of the rare times he dances near the front, he’s intentional to catch sunmi’s eye, and even more determined to finish out strongly.

yeosang knew he wasn’t the best at taking care of himself, whether it be in regards to the meals he ate, his overall clumsiness when it came to chores, or his skincare routine. he always received comments regarding how dry his skin looked, or the prevalent bags under his eyes. so when a workshop focusing on this type of matter was on the list, yeosang was perhaps coerced by his concerned co-workers to sign himself up.

but really, yeosang had no idea what he was doing. even though he paid close attention to the instructor, he could only understand a few things. the rest, he was winging it.

holding onto one of the products that was being handed out, he turned to whoever was close to him at the time. “uh, do you know what this is?” yeosang asked the other, holding up the product with a raised eyebrow. “is this... for your skin? or is this like... that toner thing?” or were toners for your skin too? yeosang had no clue.

if only you could be beautiful without trying.

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“ah~ it’s good to be home,” chaewon says, stretching her arms wide as she and mina enter. slipping into her slippers, she bounces down the hall and the auto-lights flick on to welcome the two girls. “my parents aren’t here right now, so we have the place to ourselves for now... well, almost.” the cook is still there, after all. chaewon waves at her as they pass by the kitchen. “just let her know if you want anything to eat or drink, mina.”

when they get to the living room, chaewon tosses her tiny self onto one of the couches and sprawls out leisurely. “have a seat! make yourself at home,” she says with a smile, patting the soft cushions. “there’s plenty of room here to practice dance steps! well, i guess we have to pick a song first. do you have any ideas?”

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haruto didn’t exactly have a sweet tooth, so there were some things he had never tried before. and when some of his schoolmates had realised he had never had popping candy before, they were going to go about changing that right away and shoved a whole packet of the stuff into his hands just as school was finishing for the day. at the time, he had simply shoved the packet into his pocket and gone on his way. 

now, he was sitting at the bus waiting for it to arrive when he dipped his hand into his pocket and pulled it out. for a moment he simply frowned at it as if that was going to make everything clear before he sighed, glancing down the street. still no sign of the bus and he was curious what this candy was like. but perhaps just opening the packet and tipping a mouthful of the stuff straight into his mouth was a bad move. 

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After having completed most of his exams for his classes, Jaemin finds himself in an unusual state of freedom. There isn’t much for him to do, other than aimlessly sit at a Starbucks and hang around on the internet. However, as he scrolls through the usual socials, the internet also seems dead. There’s nothing to watch, nothing to read, and nothing to like. As he takes a sip of his third Venti Dirty Chai, he scans his eyes around the coffee shop. He had been sitting there for hours but it wasn’t until he’s looking at the crowd that he realizes he’s one of the oldest people here. Since when have students been so obsessed with coffee?

Feeling somewhat ambitious, Jaemin takes out a piece of paper. One thing he’s been debating on is becoming a tutor so he can earn some extra cash that isn’t his parents’. Without any training though, he doesn’t want to actually offer his services for money yet. He writes in black Sharpie as neatly as possible, “FREE TUTORING.” As he sets the sign up in front of him, he shrugs to himself. No need to charge these poor students, even if they can afford coffee. He makes eye contact with a couple of high school students and gives a small smile, hoping it’ll bring them over. Nevertheless, after a couple of minutes, there’s still no one approaching him.